manchester. love.

回家的感觉真好.....

leaving on a jet plane to manchester...

Leaving for manchester later...

It should be the right choice I guess?

Why make things more complicated and only get myself more headache in the end?

So I suppose I am doing the right thing.

Confused still, I don't know what is the next rightful step to head on. Or maybe there is no such thing as what is right, what is wrong. Just believe in things that do happen.

Many many times, we just let our emotions lead us.

I have so much to say, to much to tell, but how do I?

Anyway, I hope manchester is nice. Haven't been there for more than a year.

Till then.

Love.

可能

Somehow, I don't wanna lose anyone because of another person.

可能很快就会有答案了。。。

Time for bed. It's like 4.15am over here at sydney. My first a380 flight. Not that bad. One more sector to go later before I reach home.

Good night.

Muacks & love.





还有想你。

illusion

Did my nails AGAIN today because I broke one of them onboard the other day. It is so stupid and a waste of money actually but I can't stand having a broken nail. So they are all pretty now again. Hehehe...

I am broke now. I spent like 500 over bucks on my new range of skincare just now. But I think they can last me for months. And the salesgirl she is so good at talking that you can't say no to her. There goes my money. Make sure those skincares can "woah" my skin with the after results. Hah...

Do you know the feeling of having something you wanna say but you just can't say it out? Simple, clear and precise message you wanna bring across but it just takes you tons and tons of courage to do so. How can I convince myself that everything doesn't matter? How can I convince you that there can be magical? How can I be so sure that we will be okay this time?

Sometimes I wish I can just say whatever I want to say.

Whenever I think of you, I tell myself it is just an illusion...



Love.

为我加油。

Actually I know what I really want, but can I really get what I want ultimately?

So tired, from everything.... I still can't help it but to fall into it, still.

I have been waiting for opportunities, waiting for the right time to get things back in place again. Every time when there is something to hope for, it just comes topper down.

给我勇气。

为我加油。

下雨天

Love this...

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

I do believe rainy days do make people more emotional...

Do you?

beijing

I thought I won't be going out in beijing... I was all prepared to hibernate, order room service, watch my hongkong series online and sleep all I want. Some of the girls wanted to go out, so I tagged along. Slept for 3hours after checking in, then we headed out to hunt for jade. Yes. JADE. 2 of the girls are looking for jade. So we travelled around, had Coldstones (yummy ice-cream from states so we assume the milk they use is also from states? hopefully... gee.. =p), steamboat for dinner (I smelled like a steamboat myself after coming out of the restaurant..hahah...), then to supermarket before heading back to the hotel.

It's getting cold here actually. Not very important but just a thought that comes across my mind right now. I have to wake up like super early the next morning. Tell me about it.

Certain things, certain relationships are just made to change. That includes us. Me and you and me and you and.....

Love.

flying off

Was talking to one of my friends and I told him I am flying to beijing. His response was, "wah... you don't anyhow drink milk hor!" *laugh*

Anyway, I think my PMSing is pretty bad. My mood isn't very composed.

Will be back on the 27th afternoon. Till then. =)

Love.

A380 conversion

Finally finished my A380 conversion today. I have been sleeping less than 3 hours these 2 days. The night before the 1st day of conversion, I was out to airport to pick someone then to supper together, and by the time I reached home it was already 2plus in the morning. I slept at nearly 4am and I woke up at 6ish morning. Last night, the same thing, just that I didn't go out but yet I couldn't sleep. Woke up at 6ish this morning too and my eyes were closing on me while I was driving. Drank many cups of coffee today but it didn't seem to work at all. I was like so stoned.

Reporting for beijing tomorrow's night and I am still comtemplating about certain decisions that I am going to make. What should I do to make myself don't look so stupid? What should I do to still keep some dignity to myself? What should I do if I really really want certain things? What should I do if it doesn't turn out the way I want? What should I do?

hard to come by

Those moments seem so hard to come by.

有多舍不得啊。。。

我们之间的距离，叫做信任。

enough

I have been waiting since the very first day. Till now, I am STILL always the one waiting. I have enough of it. I wanna wait no more. I have been waiting for people all my life. (okay, maybe for the 24years of my life. haha...) 不想再等了。让人家等我吧! 哈哈哈。。

记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开

to YOU

*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
22nd Sep..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
A Special Day for someone..?
*princess belle* says:
haha
*princess belle* says:
y
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Erm..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Nth actually..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Just asking..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
And like, weird that you're at home.

Happy Birthday, to YOU.

不一样了

很奇怪，这一天本来是留给我的，本来我是应该有特权的。
但现在我已经不再是那个最重要的人了。
不一样了。

home...FINALLY!

I am back home, like FINALLY... after flying consecutively for 2 weeks. Reached Los Angeles safely. The weather was fantastic. I had a big time shopping, eating, catching & meeting up with friends in L.A. Back to Taipei from Los Angeles yesterday morning, the weather was way much better than a few days ago. It was super sunny. I did my nails, i had my bubble tea, my taiwanese local specialities, I shopped & in all, it was all good. =) Paxed back to Singapore this morning & I managed to catch Sex and the City the movie onboard. It was fabulous. & not forgetting, I have been meeting wonderful people (*keep my fingers crossed*), people that make my flying life more interesting & enjoyable, people that make me truly appreciate & love what I am doing right now.

"she was a smart girl until she fell in love..."- Sex and the City.

Love.

typhoon

The typhoon in taiwan is really bad. I hope I can still make it to los angeles. Most of the shops were closed, roads were flooded, wind was strong and fierce, rain was heavy and endless. I had shabu shabu again. It's something I won't miss when I come to taipei. However, despite the rain, I still managed to get to the town area, ate my shabu shabu, did some shopping. *girly grin*

怎么办。

不完美

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪

完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

後来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵

我的完美成了罪

Beautiful Lahore with Wonderful Crew

Lahore was beautiful with a set of wonderful crew. Lots of happenings and lots of laughters. 6days just flew past like a breeze.

Some random thoughts... I think I am really affected by certain things that I learn to know about certain people. I don't know why. I don't know how should I be feeling towards certain people. I am quite skeptical about my feelings. What is true, what is real and what is not?

I just wonder when can all these mixed feelings be sorted out and when can my direction be clear ahead?

I am back!

I am back, after a few months. But I didn't stop writing all these while. I just had a change of outlet to pen down my thoughts.

http://yolenebelle.blog.friendster.com/

My past few months thoughts were all in there.

But now, I am back again. =)

I miss strawberrymelts.

Am currently in Lahore. I have been doing flights back to back. It is tiring, no doubt. And after returning to Singapore tomorrow's morning, I am off to 8days Taipei Los Angeles flight again the next day. This is how packed my schedule is.

But I am enjoying, so far.

*grin*

Love.

Went shopping just now. Bought the new light pink longchamps bag in small size & a pair of blackie diamond birkie. But I just realised I didn't check my sandals. I have both of the same side! Was packing my stuffs into my cargo & I just realised only. How silly of me right? Shall go back for an exchange when returning from new york. By the way, I'm in frankfurt now. Nice weather, nice food, nice company but I'm feeling miserable. Down with a very serious sore throat now & my voice is like too sexy to sing or talk.

Feeling miserable too. Cos of.......... You know why.

New york tmr!

Happy birthday to me.

I finally turned "6" on 29 february 2008. The much long awaited day. No elaborate celebration. Just around people whom I love. Thank you all for the warmest wishes. I have received them all. Happy birthday to me.

May I find joy & happiness in everything I do.

Love me ok. =)

vicious cycle

Was reading my past posts & I laughed. I almost forgotten I was like that "those times". Somehow, I really miss having him by my side. The way we used to be right from the start, the way we looked into each others' eyes. the way we showed & told each other how much we enjoyed the company, the way we say "i love you". Everything seems like yesterday. I think..... I have lost.

A friend told me something yesterday. "Every happiness comes with a heartbreak. Every heartbreak comes with a happiness. It's a vicious cycle."

Too much

Too much shit happened lately around me & they are like too much to handle. Human beings' feelings are so fragile & they can actually change overnight. Or maybe it's a build-up & it just exploded like that when it got triggered.

Out of all, we are like the still & only surviving pair. Haha.








I miss my friends.....

shopping & eating in osaka

Shopping & eating in osaka are really crazy. I love japanese food's lover so it's definitely a feast for me over here. Shopping is equally amazing. The pretty packaging for the cosmetic & beauty products make me go wild. Haha. I think anything in japan is nice & pretty & cute. I wish i live here. The only negative point is I don't know how to speak japanese lei. Must start learning sometimes soon. I have been saying but I never do it. Haha.

Anyway, the weather is freezing but I kind of used to it. Alright. I have to go. Flying back to singapore soon. Till I'm back ok?

=)

I'm not thinking. Not thinking too much. I'm trying....

the lost me.

sorry. i promised earlier that i gonna update more but you know i just lost that motivation. life hasn't been exactly smooth & sailing. i thought a brand new year things may get better but somehow we still have to work on it somewhere. ok. maybe we have to wait till after the lunar chinese new year. hopefully. my wishes granted & my prayers worked.

anyway, i have been spending like crazy for the past few trips. but you can't blame me. taipei, hong kong, san francisco. how to resist the temptations you tell me? & i'm heading to osaka next. japan lei! it's another spending trip. i know i gonna try curbing my spending but how hard it can be. how often you get japan flights right? haha...



how long can this happiness last?

hello!

hello! i went missing from blogger for quite awhile. but don't worry, i'm fine. i'm just taking a break from everything.

anyway, i'll update more about my life when i'm in hong kong. flying to hong kong later. so bye bye people...

love all.

belle.

I haven sleep for more than 24hours!

I haven sleep for more than 24hours. Last minute packing, last minute xmas pressies shopping, the xmas gift-exchange chalet, preparing for flight at the chalet, making way to airport, reporting for flight, fly for more than 13hours, touched down didn't sleep at all, showered & out I went. That's how crazy I was.


my new hello kitty touch-screen phone. from him.


my 3 guys.


trying hard to pose cool. lol.


the man in my life. he drives me crazy sometimes. haha...

I'm in zurich now & will only be back on xmas day morning. So see ya!

Life is never a bed of roses

Life is never a bed of roses.

By the way, I was on mc for 2 days. To better sort out my thoughts & rest. But well, I guess it's getting no where either.

Bye.

heavy heart

Do you know how it feels to carry a heavy heart with you around?

change or accept.

I'm sick of telling almost the same story about the same person over & over again.

If I can't change, I can only accept.

Anyway, shiyu's birthday dinner:

New camera

The emotional rollar-coaster has been going on & off for quite sometimes. I will be self-deceiving if I tell you I'm completely okay. I'm not. I'm not okay. Or rather I miss that feeling that we used to share. I miss that kind of love.

Or probably I should change my view & my thought about our relationship. Maybe looking at another angle, thinking otherwise, life can be more beautiful, I can be happier & I can have a different perspective about us.

Uh huh... I promise I'll try but I can't promise that it'll work. Anyway, I have a new camera! A pink camera with a pretty pinky casing. Sony Cybershot DSC-T70. From boyfriend. Ya it's weird. We argued & made up always. & now I have a new gadget.

I don't know what's going to happen next. We shall see.

heartbroken totally.

heartache.

heartbroken.

totally.

hello!

hello! i'm in london now & it's like minus one degree? *brrrrr* but i'm doing fine still. *tihehehe* supposed to watch a musical last night but either we couldn't get the best seats or the tickets were all sold out. but i did have a great time just walking down the streets of london, looking at stuffs, admiring the beautiful christmas decoration with some kakis. no musical but we bought beer & liquour & chips & we went to one person's room & we drank, ate, chatted, watched "inside man" & towards the end, I was like dozing off on his bed & I only watched like half of the movie. *hilarious laugh*

i'm going for the hotel buffet breakfast in two hours time, then it's shopping time! yipee!

by the way, "enchanted" the movie is nice! a movie which makes me believe there is a place where there is happily ever after. *wow* *grin*

“At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”

—-Meredith. Grey’s Anatomy

roaches and rats may turn out to be friends afterall. just avoid the red apples along the way.

=)

what's up with iphone?

I wonder what's up with the iphone. Why so many people are so into it. Maybe I shouldn't have helped him buy the iphone from new york that time. He seems to love the iphone more than he loves me. Haha. *roll eyes & giggles*

Oh well. Guys. He is not the only one. His good friend, my batchboys are all so deeply madly in love with their iphones.

Anyway, I only slept this morning at around 5plus. Went dinner & partying with the boyfriend & friends. Too many events, too many happenings last night. But it all ended well, i guess so.

Life

Haven't been blogging proper for the past weeks. I'm lazy & I have kind of lost that momentum to blog about my life.

Life has been more or less the same. I fly, meet new people, see new places, shopping at overseas always feel better & I don't know why, *hah* sightseeing, taking photos, meeting the usual people when I'm back in singapore, catching up with some friends, watched some movies, some good food & stuffs like that.

oh & LOTS of BILLS to pay & settle lately. Grrr... Hmmm...

I wish I have a stronger shoulder to lean on.

Or rather I should say, I just realise that I need one.

Sometimes

Sometimes you just wish certain people have more time for you.

frankfurt. new york.

frankfurt. new york. they are nice & beautiful places......

but.....






i seriously miss home & miss the dear ones badly! =(

maybe.

maybe i'm stupid.

maybe i'm silly.

maybe i'm trying too hard.

maybe i'm nothing.

sick.

i fell sick in osaka & till now. can you imagine you still have to work damn hard, look smiley onboard even though you are feeling super sickly? flying to korea tonight. i'm hesitating if i should take mc. i think i will just go la. korea is like super cold now. probably just gonna bring thicker jacket, my laptop & dvd (in case i'm not going out), my panadols, my water & those barang barang medication oil & tiger balm. ok. i know i sound like an aunty. but who cares. mother knows the best you see. so being like her once in a long while isn't really that bad. =p

weird me.

expectations lead to disappointment.

sometimes i think i don't even understand myself either.

i'm weird la.

i suppose

ok. i know i suppose to be sleeping by now cos i needa wakie in a few hours time to fly back to sg. too much thoughts have been running through my mind. the same kind of emotions, the same kind of thoughts came back to me again.





night.

2 years time

Why do off days pass so fast? Reporting for beijing flight tonight.

I don't wanna fly...

Just some random thoughts.

What do you see youself in 2 years time?

What do I see myself in 2 years time?

I don't know.

Maybe a new me, with a new job, a new status, .....

Something good pleaseeeeeee! =p

love

if it's not stupid, it isn't love anymore.













i always thought my way of loving someone is definitely right, i'm wrong.



sooooooooOoooOoo wrong.

belle in paris

The world is big but actually it's aren't that big afterall. I mean ok. Maybe we narrow it down to only my job industry. There are so many of us but you actually meet "those". I mean people that you talk about, people who know about you or your loved ones or in any other ways that connect you or your life.

I am doing my paris flight with my boyfriend's friend's girlfriend. Actually the guy is my boyfriend's ex campmate. I didn't know about it until yesterday when a group of us (girls) went shopping crazy along the busy walking streets of paris. My boyfriend was just asking me the other day if I know this girl or happen to fly with her before. I still told him off that "cummon, so many people, how I know her & I never flew with her before la."

Can you believe we scream along the streets of paris when we discovered? Ok. I know it's sound a little silly but you know, that kind of amazement? *gee*

Yey! I'm going to the eiffel tower later. No more shopping today. Enough of bad damages yesterday. *guilty grin* So today's I'm just going to take lotsa nice pretty photos at the tower, sit around, drink a cup of hottie & relax at a cosy cafe, have a nice dinner to end the day.

Oh. Cool. Life is sweet isn't it?

Resident Evil

Resident Evil is exciting. Half of the time I got scared by the unexpected scenes. I'm not the only one. Heh.

Gonna start flying to paris tonight. Will reach there tmr sg time noon I guess. Back on tuesday 7am.

Hello paris! =)

Bye!

it's getting better...

Met up with colleagues/friends for dinner/supper these 2 nights. The met-up sessions were nice. Life isn't just about one person, one thing.

It's getting better... *yey*




& who say coffee & tea can help to keep us awake? I still fall into deep beauty sleep after drinking the caffeine. =p

Ponder. Ponder....

Off days have been spent lazing around, watching dvds, catching up with beauty sleep, munching on favourite food & drinks, supper & stay over.

Life is good but with not much excitement. I miss catching up with my friends. I haven seen some of them for like ages.

Ponder. Ponder....

Saigon turnaround tmr... SIAN!

perth

perth later!

i wanna go harbour town perth tmr! hopefully it isn't too far away from my hotel.

http://www.harbourtownperth.com.au/

& i badly need to get new books. shall head down to borders on sunday when i'm back!

"Life seems more beautiful when you think otherwise. =)"




love,
yolene

我一直以为自己是对的。

原来。。。

我错了。

move on

Thinking too much does us no good.

True.





But caring any lesser & pretending like nothing happenned aren't any better.

To myself: Get your own life & move on.

8/10 3/10

"I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry" is hilarious. I give it an 8/10. "The Dead Girl" is like....draggy, boring, so not entertaining.... 3/10.

& the crowds & music at phuture & zouk are getting worse.

Shanghai tmr. *yey*

I want to go for my massage. =p




Alright. Time for some reading. Newspapers, books & magazines. *claps*

xoxo.

the birthday

I did a very tiring manila turnaround on wednesday. Colleagues were generally nice but only some passengers who were trying to make things difficult for us. But heck la. The flight was over. Then after flight, came home to bath & all, went supper with a friend, next day went town to run errands & stuffs. Kind of tiring though. Friday went back STC for training & it was like real boringgggg....

I came home after training, showered, dressed & packed my stuffs, & left home to get ready for boyfriend's birthday. Friday was his birthday's eve. *grin*

Anyway, in short I think my acting is kinda good. The surprises from the very beginning till the end were like really surprises for him. Haha.

But.... I know he is happy & I'm happy too! =)

The next morning which is saturday's morning, we got up at 9.30am to brush up & dress, headed down to the cafe at the lobby for buffet breakfast, came back to the room to get our stuffs & check out, & then drove to his studio together. Then it was like a whole day affair at his studio. Cos it was the official opening of his studio. People came & left, came & left. Lots of entertaining & all. Anyway, the catering of food for the studio was from his dad's company. So saw the dad too. He came to deliver the food. Heh.

At night we went ps cafe at dempsey hill for dinner with friends. The waiting was like super long despite my reservation a week ago. But anyway in short, we had fun la. After dinner we went alley bar for drinks. So this weekend was rather busy with all the events & celebration & all.

I'm flying to zurich later. Be back on thursday's morning 7am. Bye bye!

Can't wait.... =)

Collected my new uniforms just now but I left them in boyfriend's car. I think they look prettier than my old ones. (which is like obviously cos they are new.) Colour is more vibrant, lower neck-line (sexier. *hah*) & define my figure. *grin*

Anyway, today I went to a lot of places, answered many phone-calls from different people, ran some errands, watched a movie that I watched before & there are still some errands undone & I have to do them all on thursday. I have a manila turnaround tmr or rather later. Whole day affair again.

Can't wait for friday.... =)

something new

What happened if you find that it's getting harder to communicate with your loved ones? Small little things arise to unhappy feelings & tension. Maybe it's a sign. You have to start thinking what to do.









Maybe......something new is good.

Me....Myself....

Caught the movie, "Me....Myself...." yesterday. It's a thai movie. I think it's not bad. It's something different cos it gives me a different kind of touching feel for a romance movie.

Flying to melbourne later. (as in saturday's night) Need to stock up on my stockings. Another reason to shop. =P



Been quite sometimes since I self-protrait-ed. Lol.

Maybe I'm just being paranoid.

Off to New Dehli later & back on Thursday 7am.

=)

i miss us.

ok la. words said out in a fit of anger or unhappy mood don't sound nice.

booo....





i miss us.

Change

People change. So do I. Don't expect me to be the girl when you first knew me.

By the way, "you" here is referring to everyone who knows me.





Was browsing through some of my past posts & I realised they are all not happy posts.

Hmmm...

Maybe it wasn't a good start in the first place. *roll eyes & pout*

against

Been meeting people ever since I came back to Singapore on Friday morning. Encounters & happenings. & shit does happen at times.

I must be really down on my luck these 2 months.Things are always going against me.








I must be out of my mind.

If A Man Wants You

If A Man Wants You

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant tobe. Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his . Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you . If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are .

Never borrow someone else's man . Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. (Nana's note: At least dogs are loyal.)

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you are always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

what's wrong with us?

it happens again, even when i'm overseas.

& you make it seems like it's my fault & i'm so totally not understanding & unreasonable.

maybe i'm wrong but you arent very right either.

you don't like the way i phase my words, neither do i like the way you phase yours too.

probably there's no right or wrong, it's all about giving & taking.

but i think i already have my fair share of giving.

perhaps it's time to re-think what i want, what you want, what we want.

what's wrong with us?



i never feel so upset before.

HKG

Hong kong is definitely a shopping & eating heaven. Had yummylicious macau food for supper last night after touched down, dim sum & mango dessert for lunch just now, helping friends back in sg to buy stuffs & some own litte shopping along the way.

Quite a nice set of crew to work with, so far. Still have 3 more sectors to go. Hopefully they are all good. Looking forward to meet my friend in sfo, shopping at abercrombie & hollister, & my favouirte cheesecake factory! Yey! =p






Hope things get better...

Flying to hong kong

Flying to hong kong later then san francisco tmr. It's another 8 days affair. Will be back next friday morning.

Anyway, everything is okay, again.







The magic of love. Hmmm....

crap

Why do all these craps happen again & again? Isn't everything suppose to be sweet & beautiful?







You definitely make me feel like crap.

&

I have enough.

Dinner & night...

Dinner & the night spent with boyfriend yesterday was great, despite doing nothing particular or spectacular. Went to his studio too, met his partners & they are two funny chaps. I can't stop laughing. But they better don't take advantage of him. Like make him do things or whatsoever. I mean don't bully him la. Cos he is like everything also okay. I scared people will bully him la. Hahaaa... *bleah*

Have got to attend a "React Workshop" tmr at training centre. I don't know what's that also. All I know is I have to be there by 0845 which means I have to wake up early. Hmph...




Life gets so busy that sometimes we tend to unintentionally forget those that we care & we don't even find the magic time to meet up with them. Somehow, I miss those days. My younger days. I miss everyone in my life.

Phew!

Phew! I just came back from manila nightstop. I came back from bombay on saturday late evening then straight away the next day I do the manila flight. Cos, being the ever so nice me, *winks*, I changed flight with my batchgirl cos she needed the off day so I gave her mine. Haha. *great me, bleah* =p

Anyway, I'm so freaking exhausted. I only slept like 2 hours last night. But I met some new friends on flight. I love flying with crew whom you can click with.






~the world is really so small. everybody seems to know everybody. what goes around comes around. & my reaction was like "what?"~

bombay

@ bombay & missing the dearest ones......

Teach me.

I keep waking up from my sleep because you keep running through my mind.

Teach me how to sleep soundly without keep thinking of you?

What have you done to me? Is it a curse or something? Why can't I stop thinking & worrying for you? I try not to think so much about you but sub-consciously I know I'm pretending.

Grrr....

thoughts from sydney

@ sydney. weather is good. 15 degrees. chilly cold but it's still bearable with a nice cosy sweater. (= i'm feeling bored. i have been pondering what should i do if i wanna leave my current high flying career. somehow the job now is making me feeling dumb. i don't really use my brain & there's no sense of satisfaction. my bond is ending soon. should i leave or stay till my 5 years contract is up & take my gratuity before i leave?

i should start planning & start living. for myself.

Retail therapy always makes me happy

I did shopping today & I really spent quite a bit. *guilty grin*

But retail therapy always makes me happy. So it doesn't really matter anyway as long as I'm happy & when I'm happy I feel good. =P

Oh... & I bought this book called "Why Men Marry Bitches" from Borders. I think it gonna be really interesting. I shall indulge in it tmr.

For the night.

I just got home. Met my batchgirls at a cafe beside jelita cold storage. (near holland road) The taxi uncle actually dropped me off at holland village cold storage. So I had to take a bus (5 min journey) to the correct place. It was quite drama but yeah I got there in the end. Haha.

Supposed to meet the girls for coffee but was cancelled last minute. He called & asked if I wanna meet him for awhile after his concert rehearsal. I said okay. Then shortly jeremy called & asked if I wanna join him & shiyu at wala wala. So jeremy & shiyu came to pick me up, we headed down to wala wala, ordered drinks, listened to the band & talked. He joined us awhile later then all of us went for supper together.

Yup basically that's all for the night. Didn't get to run my errands just now. So probably tmr. Heh. Good night.

I'm a strong girl.

I have been feeling really lazy since I woke up this morning. Besides getting up for brunch, my butt is like glued to my sofa, watching Heroes. (it's really addictive)

But now I'm going to get my butt moving. I'm going to have a nice shower, head down to town to run some errands & meet my batchgirls for dinner & then maybe coffee tonight with the usual.

Sound good? =)





I'm kind of used to it already & I think it's getting better. Taking things easy, not be too bothered by them & of course, loosen my grip a little of what I have always been holding on tight seems a good idea. I feel happier. If things aren't meant to be, no matter how hard I try, you try, we try, they aren't going to be in the future.

So I think I sort of getting the idea already. I'm a strong girl, remember? =)

thank god it's over.

Finally home, after so many days. I had a really hard time at work just now. It wasn't encouraging at all but thank god it's over.

Just woke up from nap but I'm still feeling verrrrrry tired & my throat is killing me!






i want a shoulder to lean on...

life is too short to keep worrying....

Just heard news from friends that my poly lecturer, mr kenneth tham just passed away yesterday. It was rumoured that it was sudden heart attack in school. How unpredictable life can be. A friend told me before, life is too short to keep worrying, so just enjoy & don't think so much.

hmmm....



i wanna go home!

~falling sick~ =\

naylui

I was chatting with naylui earlier on. He is such a dear friend. I feel so much better after talking to him. I gonna see him in 3 weeks time when I fly to san francisco! *yey*

maybe I'm just bored...

I wanna go home! The stay here (abu dhabi) is really too long. Everyday i feel like I'm like wasting my time away. Everyday hibernating, sleep, eat, slack, relax, very comfortably, but I'm seriously bored.

& I think I can fall sick anytime now. My throat is like so dry now no matter how much water I drink. Must be the food & the damn weather.

The saddest thing is when you are overseas, long stay, bored, lonely, falling sick & no one (especially the loved ones) bothers to check on you & you always have to be the one checking on them first.

Ok la, maybe I'm just bored & my thoughts wander.

People always say think happy thoughts, think positive thoughts. But I always think negatively. I try to be positive at times but it still goes back to the same in the end. Where can I find that sense of security that I always have been missing?

Jay Chou. The Secret.

By the way, I watched Jay Chou's movie, The Secret the night before I left for my flight. (sorry evie, i watched it.) I think it's nice. It's kind of touching to me though. I think it's a must watch. Haha.

Love is so magical.

@ Abu Dhabi

Abu Dhabi is damn freaking hot. 40 degree? I suppose. It's kind of boring here plus the unfriendly weather, & I still have a few more days to stay. Boooo....

But anyway, I did the desert safari tour on friday. It was pretty interesting. We had sand-duning (i almost puked in the end but it was fun with the unexpected turns & slopes.), camel-riding, belly dancing performance, dinner in the desert & we tried shisha too (it's something like smoking.)

Gotta do a shuttle flight to Jeddah on sunday. It's like a turnaround flight then we will return to Abu Dhabi again. I will only be back on the 16th 12noon.

But actually it's pretty relaxing here. Everyday I just sleep, eat, gym sometimes, watch dvd, read books & stuffs like that. It's really nothing much to do here. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my boy.

Dumb me right?

I went to watch a midnight movie last night & then I only realised I had actually watched that movie before when it started. I watched it onboard the sq plane when I flew to taipei for holidays a few weeks ago. Dumb me right? But movie tickets had been paid so I still watched it, again. It was a good movie afterall. "Disturbia".

I miss Me.

A friend said that I have changed. I used to be so confident of myself. Where has that charisma gone to?

I don't know since when, I also feel that I have changed, somehow or rather.

I miss ME.





London has a very nice & sunny weather now.

I always love london. =)

Weekend in london

Off to london tmr. I gonna spend my weekend shopping along the streets of london & drinking my cup of hot chocolate or hot latte. Sound perfect isn't it? Sometimes it's good to get away from where you are. Maybe you will get to think better, isn't it?

Rollercoaster

Business class training flight to shanghai went on pretty smoothly. I have very helpful crew so it does make everything easier.

Did the usual massage, dvds, food & some shopping in shanghai. Weather is like freaking hot. 35-37 degrees. Can you imagine?

Anyway, I have been like going through some emotional rollercoaster lately. It's never easy for me. One moment I can be fine but another moment I can be so upset & depress. Seriously, I still don't know how to pick myself up yet. It's really tough.

JC99, 24-27July

Happy

Managed to see him yesterday. I'm so happy even though it was just a short while. He makes everything worth doing. =)

The weekend

Did a Bangalore overnight turnaround on saturday's night till sunday's morning. What can I say? All the indian passenger plus I did galley work, who says it's not tiring? I came back home, eat, sleep, eat then sleep again.

On a lighter note, I met my friend for dinner on sunday. Then I met my batchies for late night ktv & drinking. My batchgirl's birthday. I came back in the morning at 6. My favourite batchboy is such a gentleman. He sent me back home & right to my doorstep. No wonder he is my favourite. Haha.

It was quite fun & happening la. Played games, sang songs, batch boys drunk, took photos, gossips & all. I love my batchies. Hehe. But I wasn't really very in the mood somehow or rather. I miss the dear one. Haven't seen him for days. It's kind of tough for me. But I'm trying to understand. Don't know how long all these are going to continue. He has roadshows at NTU every day this week & night time he has to go ark cafe. I'm thinking to pop by ark cafe tmr's night (tuesday), without telling him. A surprise... Don't know. I'm still thinking. If not I don't know when we gonna meet manz. How?

I went for uniform fitting just now too. Then met emily for dinner. It was a nice evening. Heh.

By the way, i kept bumping into friends these few days. Ok. I know it doesn't link but I just feel like saying. Haha.

& I'll be having business class training till friday.

Good night!






I'm missing...

My thoughts always wander off.....

Going to start work again. Overnight turnaround. Back tmr morning at 6plus. Really don't feel like going to work. But then, if I don't work, what can I do? Stay home & slack & do nothing? It's so unproductive. I haven't read up my business-class stuffs yet too. Probably tmr when I return in the morning or monday. I think I wanna take up japanese classes soon. To keep myself occuppied. Ideal?

My thoughts always wander off.....






It's just a passing period, i guess...

I'm bored.

I'm bored.

I'm still on leave.

I don't know what to do.

Boyfriend is busy.

Tell me what can I do to keep myself occuppied?

The thought of going back to work on saturday makes me feel a little sick.

It's not easy to be understanding.

But I make myself to be.

Cos it's just too much to let go.....

back from holidays!

Hello! I'm finally back from my holidays! I was away in taipei from 10-17july. The weather was so really freaking hot manz but the whole trip was totally awesome! I'm missing it already. Hehehe.... *big big smile*

back to reality now. *pout* heh.

Am @ adelaide now & it's like freaking cold cos it's winter now. I only spent on food & internet which is good cos I already spent like mad when I was in los angeles & tokyo. Bonus came in the other day & half of it has already gone. I gave my parents, a sum of money for my upcoming taiwan holidays trip, bought a guess watch for my youngest brother, pay my credit card's bill, my other bills & some personal expenses. Tell me what's left to save?

Met the girls on friday's evening & night for dinner, drinks & catching up session. Everyone is leading their own life & it's pretty much interesting to hear updates from them & understanding the kind of lifestyle they are living now, & how they are doing till now. We don't get to meet very often but the feeling remains. We just need friends like them. =)

Before meeting the girls, I met marv in the afternoon for lunch & some shopping. He's going brisbane to study. To marv, all the best okay? don't spend too much time on girls. study hard okay?! ha. =p

Challenges ahead.

Transformers are really cool.

Plus the great company. =)

But then we didn't really have much time spent together. If not for the upcoming holiday trip together, I really don't know how everything gonna turn out to be, cos I'm a girl after all & I do need attention. I mean sincere attention.

We shouldn't stop anyone from going after their dreams right? & everyone has his/her own right to dream & to fight for them. I know things gonna be different. things gonna change.

Frankly speaking, I'm really really scared.

The challenges that are ahead of us.

But like what many people have told me, enjoy what I have now first.

Yeah. I know I should. But I just couldn't help feeling pessimistic.

Pictures!

Disneyland, Los Angeles.






Tokyo






Haven't seen the boy for 10 days. The missing is really.......... arghhhh!

But I gonna see him tonight! Transformers! Yey! =p

I heart Tokyo.

Shopping is crazy & I can't even finished!

But still.....

I heart Tokyo. =)

Disneyland, where dreams come true.

Disneyland, where dreams come true.

OMG. It's really damn amazing. It just makes me feel happier. I can't even finish seeing, visiting & playing the whole of Disneyland. One of the staffs was telling me, it's impossible to cover everything in one day. She is god damn right.

I feel like a small kid once again. I gonna bring my kids here next time. Sweet childhood memories. Who doesn't want?

I'm like soOoooo tired & real sleepy now. I need my beauty sleep & mask. It's almost 2am here. Grrrr. Talk later then. Good the night. =)

@ Los Angeles

Hello! I'm now at Los Angeles & it's like 7.42am here but I can't get to sleep already. The timing difference does play a part. Anyway, so far until now (touchwood. =p), everything has been great. Crew are nice, shopping is great but sinful (*laughs) & food is yummy yummy!

I think I gonna spend more than my allowances for this Tokyo-Los Angeles flight. I don't wanna go think or calculate how much I have spent. It's scary. Ha. Ok la. I try to comfort myself to make myself feel better by thinking of july 7th. Bonus payday! Lol. I think I gonna go shopping crazy again when I fly back to Tokyo from Los Angeles on saturday. This time round we gonna stay at the town area & that's it. Haha. I can't wait. *grin*

& yey! I'm going to the Los Angeles Disneyland later & it's like so near my hotel. Haha.

You know sometimes I feel like I'm like on a holiday/vacation whenever I'm going for long flights plus the great company I have! Heh.

& I bumped into Lydia! She is doing this flight pattern too but she came one day earlier than me. She just came to my room to chat & she is going back to Tokyo tmr. So probably I gonna catch her for dinner again in Tokyo! So cool right? You meet your friends overseas for catching up, dinners, drinks & stuffs like that. How many of you get to do these often? You know I have this love-hate feeling for my job. It's contradicting. Ha.

It isn't easy.

It isn't easy for two persons, in love with each other, to get along, to get together, happily & forever.

I really treasure what I have now & I'm really working hard on it.

Tokyo, Los Angeles, here I come!







Gonna miss you lots!

I get so bored with......

I got so bored with my black hair that I went to do some highlighting to it just now. Hahaha.

Anyway, met up with the usual people lately. The loved & dear ones. Just came back from manila nightstop yesterday morning. Tomorrow doing a bangkok turnaround follows by my 8 days tokyo-los angeles on tuesday. I guess I gonna have fun, with all the shopping, food & entertainment out-stations but I know I gonna miss the loved & dear ones badly.

Nonetheless, my holidays is coming! =p

I realise a lot of things are really beyong our control. Things happen when you thought they wouldn't. I hate the feeling of heartbreaking. Nothing. It's just some random thoughts. I always think about stuffs la. Sometimes people say I have been thinking too much. I know but I can't help it la. Haha.

Maybe some things are just not meant to be.

Oh, & to the boyfriend, happy ord-ing! I know you are damn damn happy & high about it. I know you can't read this cos I'll never let you read. Haha. But still, I'm happy that you are happy. =)

blocked

I went for foot & body massage in shanghai but my back is like aching now. Think the person pressed too hard? Or maybe my back is just kind of stiff due to my job nature? Maybe.

Anyway, my flu is like getting worse. I keep sneezing & coughing & one side of my nose is like blocked. It's damn terrible especially during take-off and landing as my ears would be blocked. I hate that feeling. *pout*