taipei ximending

人在台北...

I am not extremely excited about this city this time though...

The usual food and shopping spree. I actually planned to roam alone but there were some new colleagues around, so I became the host. Ha. ;p

Had lunch today at this restaurant located at ximending, with the concept of restrooms. Everything, their deco, cutleries, food... Pictures are the evidences! =)

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我?

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh.

Really.

She is not as strong as she thinks she is.

And the most frustrating thing is... She can't even face her own feelings truthfully.

She is tired of pretending.

But her pretendious front and her smile are the only protection shields she has for herself.

I can't even trust myself now.

I am sooooooo angry....with myself!

story

A friend just told me..."eh i think this song is telling your story.."

HA... Thanks huh. But really, thank you for being there all this while. I don't deserve such kind treatment from you. 我没有你想象中的好.

Read my story then...*laugh*

江语晨-我太乖
作词:陈镇川
作曲:陈少荣
专辑:晴天娃娃

手机挂满了色彩对话却是一片灰白
线上匿称是期待等的人却总是离开
答应他我会乖奖品却是在发呆
你们说的我不信我心里都明白

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖不怕被忘了宠爱
谁说男人坏女人才爱

Thank you BEN!

Specially for you.

Hope you claim your credits already.

So that you can sleep in peace. =p

Haha... Haha...

wise decision

Walking down the street of Florence, I wished I know what is the next step to take. "You will make a wise decision." Thank you for believing in me. =)

loneliness

Most guys are scared of loneliness. And it is proven. Not just one guy told me that. There was a few. So I guess, it is true. Men look strong and hunky on the outside, but actually deep down inside them, they are really afraid of loneliness. They need people or someone to be there for them, to feel being loved and being taken care of.

When a guy says, "I just want to be alone". He is actually much lonely that he thinks he is. Someone to go through the ups and downs in life together, someone to laugh and cry together, someone to discuss matters together with, someone to be there always.

Someone... whom a man asks for.

I always get what I want in the end, most of the times. But people don't know how much efforts I put in, how hard I tried.

"你说我不该不该 不该在这时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆"

Suddenly, I love this song. One friend sent me an sms the other day.
"什么都是假的， 只有你的心是真的，因为你的心在跳."
Thank you.

Drove mummy to orchard for lunch just now. Been really long since we had a meal together. Thank you mummy for your love. I know you really care. I know who I should love. I just get a little lost sometimes.

belle.duomo.florence.

Am back from milano. Went to duomo and florence. Very beautiful city. I am going to head to venice the next time, with the special someone if possible. Because venice is such a romantic island, I want to be there with the special someone. The most ideal plan would be to spend a romantic night stay at venice before heading back to milan the next day.

Looking forward to that very day. =)

I have a little damage at duomo. I bought my gucci. But I am happy. =)

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

belle @ milano

"believing in the future and happiness ahead". - belle @ milano, love.

亲爱的上帝。。。你有听到吗?
我的心跳得好快。
我那焦虑不安的心情。
其实我真的好害怕。
不过我相信。。。你会一直守护着我的，对不对?

milan milan

I will be leaving for Milan for 5 days. Thinking where should I go this time. Vernice?

加油，yolene.


加油.

Youngest brother

Youngest brother just sent a sms text to me...

"Tomorrow I go field camp le. Don Know will come back alive anot. Take care of yourself. Take care of dad n mum as well..."

What is this?

Faint...faint..faint...

Silly boy..

大坏蛋

亲爱的上帝。。。
我喜欢上了一位男生。
可是他是个大坏蛋。
而且是个超级大坏蛋。
但不知怎么了，每次见他，我都好像忘了他是个大坏蛋。
天啊!
大坏蛋。。。。

you say

I slept early last night, much earlier than my usual, which was so unusual of me. I thought sleeping will be good, so that I won't have to think. But when I opened my eyes this morning, all the thoughts that have been waiting for me the whole night, started to haunt me.

I really think my 6th sense is damn strong and accurrate. A lot of things and incidents are happening and they all proved my 6th sense right. I am astonished too.

You say you regretted. For real or for show? How much weightage is there in this sentence?

You say I understand you the most. You say i always read your mind. But really very sorry. Now, this very moment, I think I have lost the ability to do so.

Why? Ask yourself. You know why.

我好像太高估我自己了。。。
第一次是纯真。
第二次是无知。
第三次就是愚蠢。

at least

"at least you don't have to put up a strong front with it."

thank you. =) it's in my car now. i guess it's a good reminder for me at all times.

thank you. =)

have to wake up in less than 4hours time for work.

sweet dreams!

The shoot was...tiring. A little fun in the beginning but soon it got draggy, boring and tiring. I can't remember how many outfits I had changed. Thank you my dearest friend for those little surprises. Thank you for being so thoughtful. I don't think I can be like you, always thinking and sparing thoughts for everyone. I am really very thankful, from the bottom of my heart. =)

And...thank you for the lovely night.

human map

I am back, home, feeling really relieved and...extremely tired. The flight was exhausting. Long hours and I didn't rest well before the flight. I was too engrossed with my dvd, and I forgotten my needed sleep. But ok, at least I am home now. Very contented to be at where I am now. Haha. =p Thank you mummy & daddy for picking me up just now. =) =)

There is a photoshoot tomorrow. And now I am trying to figure out how to drive to amoy street. I am seriously very bad with roads.... *guilty grin* A few months back I still had my "human map" with me, driving me to places that we had to go. With this "human map", I was never worried or scared that I would lose my way. 有他在，好像就不会迷路。=)

Anyway, it's alright. I will find my way. Good night!

Love.

Xmas is coming!

Christmas is coming! =)

dainty

love.

strawbeRRy beer

Didn't have my usual duck rice for lunch yesterday. We had fish and chips with strawberry beer. Yes! Strawberry flavour beer which is totally cool. *wide wide grin* It tastes more like gassy strawberry juice. And it's pinkish red in colour somemore, which is so girlish. *beam* I think it's more like a girl's drink. Hehe..

I bought fruits salad and chocolate bar for myself, wine and some other random food stuffs for friends, all from mark and spencer. Then I bought my granola yogurt cluster. They come in strawberry flavour too, so I got both the raspberry and strawberry, 2 each! =P

Last night was spent watching Fated to Love You, eating my fruits salad, chocolate bar and my granolar cluster mix. Cried a few times watching the show, it was a peaceful night actually, all by my myself. =)

Going roam around the london city later. I hope it doesn't rain, please? Bye bye loves. =)

london

After the ultra long hours flight, I was stoning away in the crew bus, listening to my mp3, skipping songs of that particular singer, because upon hearing his voice would screw up my emotion especially after such an overnight, long hours, a380 flight. Starring out of the windows, my mind and body were tired.....

I think I sprained my neck in the crew bunk during the rest period. Yes. I know I keep getting bruises, I keep injuring myself at work and sometimes at certain don't know where and when I hurt it occasions. Belle can make you shake your head at her clumsiness, like what he used to do.

London is raining and I just woke up from my nap. I suppose it will be the usual duck rice for lunch later, and probably I will just walk around, taking some pictures, buy some usual mark and spencers grcoeries for the night, while I watch my dvd and read my book. And I must buy the raspberry granola cluster yogurt mix from the "boots pharmacy"later. I love it so much that I think I gonna buy a few to last me for the next few days. Hehehe... And I saw "ben and jerry" ice cream vending machine at the hotel lobby earlier on. You know what's on my mind? The thought of standing in front of the machine, looking, thinking and hesitating what flavour to buy makes me happy. A girl.....when she comes to her loves, she doesn't know how to say no and she doesn't know how to let go. *grin*

Pound is dropping like crazy, meaning it's a good time to shop. *hurhur...=p* Maybe I can watch a play tomorrow's night too. Lots of random ideas, but I like it, especially in a foreign land, living the way I like, doing things that i enjoy, smiling at things, people and images that make me happy. =)

彩虹褪了颜色
我的窗前缠绕着
寂寞哀愁一地洒落
这一季的烟火
没有照亮我
只为别人闪烁
离开的时候 有些话没亲口说
再多的承诺 未来也难预测
孤单的自由 没有想像中快活
我已不知所措 连回忆都心痛
你说耐心等候
就算心里百般舍不得
还是要放开手
一个人的生活
日出又日落
每一天都折磨
能不能到梦里 被回忆带走

黄丽玲 - 离开的时候





有时候我在想，如果你也听说，那会是怎样呢?

好累哦。。。虽然很累，却还是想拼命保护这种感觉。
也许不会有任何结果，也许这个人永远也感觉不到我的努力，也许这个人永远都不会懂，但我还是要保护这种感觉。
笨死了!哈哈哈。。。

最怕。。。这种感觉会不见。
所以。。。我很小心。
直到有一天。。。我累死了!哈哈!

其实还蛮羡慕你的。。。因为你可以比我更勇敢的去爱，你可以留在他身边。

Okay. Off to london later. Will be away for a few days. Till then. Bye bye.

Love.

:)

Did a jarkata turnaround earlier on and I will be off to london tomorrow, or rather later, tonight. I gonna re-visit london again after so many months. =)

A friend just commented, "hey i think you look so much more radiant and prettier now. you look so much more sunny now! last time there was always this sorrow feel in you, like a troubled little girl." *laugh X 10 times* A friend who hasn't seen me for a while, a friend whom I just bumped into lately, a friend who used to be there to hear my little girl stories... He said, "i think it's a good sign. maybe it was the right choice to dump away that chapter."

Hahaa... This friend. =)

There were many times when I kept telling myself and others, promising myself and others, that it would be the last time. I not gonna talk about it anymore. But the story seems to go on and on. 总觉得自己很没用.

And there were many times I want you to know, I wanna tell you. I wanna show you the efforts. But I didn't.

In order not for others to look down on me, laugh at my plight, I need to look 100times stronger and 1000times better than before. Life is good ahead huh. I think. :)

你这只猪.....还好吧?

somebody's Angel

"always remember that in some way or another, you are somebody's Angel, even if you don't know it..." - belle.

请不要感动。
因为那是笨蛋的行为。
只有笨蛋才会那么爱。
也只有笨蛋才会心痛很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久。




我就是那个笨蛋。

Thank youuuu

Wanted to bring mummy out but was dilly-dallying since I woke up, then it rained, so we decided to stay indoor.

Was watching Mayday's new song, "突然好想你" MV. The lyrics is like a duplication of my feeling. Amazingly, totally! Ha...

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息

最怕突然 听到你的消息

AND...

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行

然后留下 最痛的纪念品

You won't understand, not even you. I am sick of listening to all these. I know some real friends do sincerely care but really, you are not me. Don't tell me what to do. Thank youuuu! =)

be who you are and say what you feel

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind..." - belle.

Ghost stories were shared among us during the overnight flight that arrived a couple of hours ago. They kept our sleepy minds awake. Creepy yet interesting. A little out of the wit yet fascinating. *wide grin*

I was trying to catch up on my new show, "fated to love you" but my disc kept dying on me like after every fifteen minutes. It's either my dvd player or the disc. I hope I'll be able to watch it later. :)

Do you believe sometimes it's kind of fated to meet somebody and to love that somebody? I do believe. =) Fated to meet you, fated to love you, fated to cry for you, fated to do all sorts of things for you, this kind of feeling can be too overwhelming till you question the reality of it.

Time to get some sleep before starting my day. It so gonna be a beautiful sunday!

Love.

pizza, wings and beer

Pizza, Chickem Wings and Beer always make the best friends together. =)

Somehow, I wished I was really drunk and high, so that I could don't remember things, don't remember you and just remember myself! =)

Off to work again tomorrow morning. Life goes on and on and on, even when everything esle changes. =)

Very weird... It just feels different now. Towards certain things and certain people. Or maybe it is just me. The cynical me.

And I like to make comparison between myself, people I know and some random others. Which can be so irrelevant, said by some of my friends. Hahaha...

And friends that you can really talk to, deep talking, seem very hard to come by. Or like I said, it's me. I prefer keeping certain things and thoughts to myself.

你比从前快乐,
对吧?

一种我不能给的快乐。






Thank you my lovely friend, for making me smile for this very second. =)

Just came back from Narita, Tokyo and I hurt my back while I was bending down to pick up my own luggage. Stupid right? Now I have problem turning my body to the left. That is how bad it is. The flight was....okaaaaay. A little more familiar with the new aircraft than before. But the remembering of everyone's name was quite a challenge, especially when there was a change set of crew. This morning there were like more than 30 over of us sharing the coach together to the airport. Teamwork really really counts especially working in such a big plane.

请告诉他
我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他
我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

JJ. Simple lyrics. But yet so dear to the heart. Very often the simplest thing is actually the toughest to conquer.

Love.

you should know

The flight was a nightmare. Glad it's over. =) Life has better things to think of and care for, rather than brooding over unwanted issues.

You should know how you feel. And you should know what you want. The kind of feelings and happiness that can let you be yourself. You know it, trust me.

Love.

我们之间好像永远隔着很多很多的阻碍，让我们无法再靠近。

花海

静止了 所有的花开
遥远了 清晰的爱
天弥漫 爱却更喜欢
那时候 我不懂 这叫爱
你喜欢 站在那窗台
你好久 都没再来
彩色的 实际让人很空白
是你流的泪晕开
不要你离开 距离隔不开
思念变成海 在窗外进不来
原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来
不要你离开 回忆花不开
请你等重来 我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂 她爱着大海
情歌被打败 爱已不存在

Hong Kong turn tomorrow. Thank you for the "wonderful" flight. Till tomorrow night then. =)

Love.

后面

喜欢走在你的后面，这样的我才会看得到原来你一直都在我的视线里。

that is me

I get emo like very often. Maybe that is part of me. But I want to say... I AM PERFECTLY FINE. In fact, very good. So don't have to worry about me. I know you guys care but I am still a very happy girl. Just like to get into emo thoughts that make me think and think even if I know there will not be an answer in the end. Writting or blogging down my thoughts are the best ways that I can ever think of. I talk to people but sometimes I like to be alone. I like to be all by myself. I like to keep things to myself. I have to have that little privacy in me. Something that people may not know about me, something that is only known to myself.

I enjoy the freedom of letting my thoughts run wild and emo.

Yes. This is me.

"我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走"



我到底输给了谁?
输给了你?
输给了自己?
输给了她?
还是输给了时间?


好难的一个问题。

Greeting from Moscow

Hi. Moscow has been great. Not that I really really lurve the place but the companies that I have with me were totally sweet? Okay. I don't exactly know what is the right word to use. Haha... But anyway, these few days I didnt go anywhere. I slept, had the famous pasta and tiramisu, listen to my Jay's songs, watched They Kissed Again 2, cooked together with the girls, girls' talk, plain relax thoughts and mind though with occasionally disturbed calls and smses. Haha... Okay... I am just kidding. I miss you guys. My favourite friends and my family. Kind of wanna see my favourite people soon. =p

Flying back in a few hours time. Internet time is running out! Bye bye!

Love. =) =)

disturbed

Was trying very hard to catch some sleep before going for work later. But I kept tossing here and there, very disturbed by smses and some random thoughts. Ha... So I have decided to get up, blog my last entry before slowly going to prepare myself for work.

原本跟自己说好要让心走开，可是却还是情不自禁往向你那里走。
你应该不会知道。

Ok. Stop thinking and time to get ready! Bye bye! =)

Love.

leaving for moscow

"In the end, it'll be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."

Leaving for Moscow, Russia later. I believe it's freezing over there. But I am all equipped. My winter gears, my comfort food, my laptop, my dvds, my Jay's new album, my Cleo magazine. =)

Will be back on Tuesday's early morning.

Ciao & love. =)

a simple and sweet way to say LOVE

A simple and sweet way to say LOVE. =)

Just some random picture taken from somewhere. It isn't specially meant for me though I am secretly hoping it is. Lol...

说好的幸福呢

一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱断了 梦怨了
开始你不该信疑 一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

Jay always never disappoints me. Jay is always Jay. =)
My favourite song from his new album.
"The Promised Happiness".

去听听看。。也许会让你想起曾经说好要和你幸福的人。
去听听看。。也许你也会被感动。

heard so much

Sometimes you just heard so much from different people and you don't know who to believe. Everyone tells you things from their perspective, their side of story. But how much truth is it in there? Does it matter still anyway?

If it doesn't, I wouldn't be writing these out.

Hmmm...make sense.

Anyway I have a "battle" to fight tomorrow. An overnight indian turnaround. *roar*

Love.

remember

Came back from taipei yesterday evening. Yes. I seem to fly there a lot. The 2 days were tiring. Worked, ate, laughed, met up with friends and trying to enjoy every little bit of taipei like I always do whenever I go there.

Met a friend last night. Somehow I saw myself in him. Similar love stories, similar sorrows, similar pains and tears that look so familiar. I hope you will feel better. You will get over it, one fine day, and the day will definitely come. =)

This song keeps playing in my mind, suddenly...

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走得太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

Guys who sing & play

Went timbre just now for drinking. The gig performed by the 2 guys was really fantastic. Guys who can sing are attractive. But guys who can sing and play instruments at the same time are even more impressive.

我喜欢会唱歌的男生，可是会唱又会弹的男生更加可爱!

哈哈哈。。哈哈。。

出街

It will be a good day.

开心地出街去咯!

for the special someone

A letter for you... maybe the last letter from me to you, for now, at least.

I know you may never read this. But I still need to write it down somewhere, just for you.

To tell you the truth, it wasn't easy for the past few months. I imagined your presence, I reminisced our memories, I had buckets of tears and many sleepless nights. Many many times, I missed you so much. I tried to occupy myself with work and friends. I looked strong. I appeared non-chalent. Everyone just thought that I seem to move on very well. But it all came with a hope. A secret hope that was deep inside me that tells me that you will come back to me. The belief that you will look back when everything else settles. I dare not say it out. I dare not tell anyone. Because I know they gonna say I am stupid, silly, desperate, the ex-girlfriend whom refused to let go and blah blah blah.

There were times when I thought I can fall in love again with a new person. I tried and I failed. Just because of the secret hope, the secret belief that I kept holding inside me. I had already grieved over the lost of you for the past months. The sorrows, the bittness are too much to bear now. I think.....I don't want to fight the battle anymore. I know you have already moved on. I know you have already recovered way before me. I was the only one who was lagging behind, thinking of every single possibilty that may bring us back together.

Many times when I see you, I really so much want to hug and tell you that I miss you but I just can't do it anymore. I have lost the courage. The kind of courage that I used to have when we first started 2 years ago.

I guess it's time to stop all these. Certain things just can't go back to the original beginning. Like the one thing that you used to tell me when we just parted. You said you couldn't find any reason why we should go back to the way we were before.

Reason. Do we really need a reason to love a person?

悲伤到这里就好了。我累了。我不要在等了。

我会很好。你也会很好。

我们都会各自幸福下去。

我不会忘记你，也不会忘记曾经的我们。

希望你会找到一个比我更爱你的人。

我们就到这。。。

manchester. love.

回家的感觉真好.....

leaving on a jet plane to manchester...

Leaving for manchester later...

It should be the right choice I guess?

Why make things more complicated and only get myself more headache in the end?

So I suppose I am doing the right thing.

Confused still, I don't know what is the next rightful step to head on. Or maybe there is no such thing as what is right, what is wrong. Just believe in things that do happen.

Many many times, we just let our emotions lead us.

I have so much to say, to much to tell, but how do I?

Anyway, I hope manchester is nice. Haven't been there for more than a year.

Till then.

Love.

可能

Somehow, I don't wanna lose anyone because of another person.

可能很快就会有答案了。。。

Time for bed. It's like 4.15am over here at sydney. My first a380 flight. Not that bad. One more sector to go later before I reach home.

Good night.

Muacks & love.





还有想你。

illusion

Did my nails AGAIN today because I broke one of them onboard the other day. It is so stupid and a waste of money actually but I can't stand having a broken nail. So they are all pretty now again. Hehehe...

I am broke now. I spent like 500 over bucks on my new range of skincare just now. But I think they can last me for months. And the salesgirl she is so good at talking that you can't say no to her. There goes my money. Make sure those skincares can "woah" my skin with the after results. Hah...

Do you know the feeling of having something you wanna say but you just can't say it out? Simple, clear and precise message you wanna bring across but it just takes you tons and tons of courage to do so. How can I convince myself that everything doesn't matter? How can I convince you that there can be magical? How can I be so sure that we will be okay this time?

Sometimes I wish I can just say whatever I want to say.

Whenever I think of you, I tell myself it is just an illusion...



Love.

为我加油。

Actually I know what I really want, but can I really get what I want ultimately?

So tired, from everything.... I still can't help it but to fall into it, still.

I have been waiting for opportunities, waiting for the right time to get things back in place again. Every time when there is something to hope for, it just comes topper down.

给我勇气。

为我加油。

下雨天

Love this...

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

I do believe rainy days do make people more emotional...

Do you?

beijing

I thought I won't be going out in beijing... I was all prepared to hibernate, order room service, watch my hongkong series online and sleep all I want. Some of the girls wanted to go out, so I tagged along. Slept for 3hours after checking in, then we headed out to hunt for jade. Yes. JADE. 2 of the girls are looking for jade. So we travelled around, had Coldstones (yummy ice-cream from states so we assume the milk they use is also from states? hopefully... gee.. =p), steamboat for dinner (I smelled like a steamboat myself after coming out of the restaurant..hahah...), then to supermarket before heading back to the hotel.

It's getting cold here actually. Not very important but just a thought that comes across my mind right now. I have to wake up like super early the next morning. Tell me about it.

Certain things, certain relationships are just made to change. That includes us. Me and you and me and you and.....

Love.

flying off

Was talking to one of my friends and I told him I am flying to beijing. His response was, "wah... you don't anyhow drink milk hor!" *laugh*

Anyway, I think my PMSing is pretty bad. My mood isn't very composed.

Will be back on the 27th afternoon. Till then. =)

Love.

A380 conversion

Finally finished my A380 conversion today. I have been sleeping less than 3 hours these 2 days. The night before the 1st day of conversion, I was out to airport to pick someone then to supper together, and by the time I reached home it was already 2plus in the morning. I slept at nearly 4am and I woke up at 6ish morning. Last night, the same thing, just that I didn't go out but yet I couldn't sleep. Woke up at 6ish this morning too and my eyes were closing on me while I was driving. Drank many cups of coffee today but it didn't seem to work at all. I was like so stoned.

Reporting for beijing tomorrow's night and I am still comtemplating about certain decisions that I am going to make. What should I do to make myself don't look so stupid? What should I do to still keep some dignity to myself? What should I do if I really really want certain things? What should I do if it doesn't turn out the way I want? What should I do?

hard to come by

Those moments seem so hard to come by.

有多舍不得啊。。。

我们之间的距离，叫做信任。

enough

I have been waiting since the very first day. Till now, I am STILL always the one waiting. I have enough of it. I wanna wait no more. I have been waiting for people all my life. (okay, maybe for the 24years of my life. haha...) 不想再等了。让人家等我吧! 哈哈哈。。

记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开

to YOU

*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
22nd Sep..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
A Special Day for someone..?
*princess belle* says:
haha
*princess belle* says:
y
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Erm..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Nth actually..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Just asking..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
And like, weird that you're at home.

Happy Birthday, to YOU.

不一样了

很奇怪，这一天本来是留给我的，本来我是应该有特权的。
但现在我已经不再是那个最重要的人了。
不一样了。

home...FINALLY!

I am back home, like FINALLY... after flying consecutively for 2 weeks. Reached Los Angeles safely. The weather was fantastic. I had a big time shopping, eating, catching & meeting up with friends in L.A. Back to Taipei from Los Angeles yesterday morning, the weather was way much better than a few days ago. It was super sunny. I did my nails, i had my bubble tea, my taiwanese local specialities, I shopped & in all, it was all good. =) Paxed back to Singapore this morning & I managed to catch Sex and the City the movie onboard. It was fabulous. & not forgetting, I have been meeting wonderful people (*keep my fingers crossed*), people that make my flying life more interesting & enjoyable, people that make me truly appreciate & love what I am doing right now.

"she was a smart girl until she fell in love..."- Sex and the City.

Love.

typhoon

The typhoon in taiwan is really bad. I hope I can still make it to los angeles. Most of the shops were closed, roads were flooded, wind was strong and fierce, rain was heavy and endless. I had shabu shabu again. It's something I won't miss when I come to taipei. However, despite the rain, I still managed to get to the town area, ate my shabu shabu, did some shopping. *girly grin*

怎么办。

不完美

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪

完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

後来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵

我的完美成了罪

Beautiful Lahore with Wonderful Crew

Lahore was beautiful with a set of wonderful crew. Lots of happenings and lots of laughters. 6days just flew past like a breeze.

Some random thoughts... I think I am really affected by certain things that I learn to know about certain people. I don't know why. I don't know how should I be feeling towards certain people. I am quite skeptical about my feelings. What is true, what is real and what is not?

I just wonder when can all these mixed feelings be sorted out and when can my direction be clear ahead?

I am back!

I am back, after a few months. But I didn't stop writing all these while. I just had a change of outlet to pen down my thoughts.

http://yolenebelle.blog.friendster.com/

My past few months thoughts were all in there.

But now, I am back again. =)

I miss strawberrymelts.

Am currently in Lahore. I have been doing flights back to back. It is tiring, no doubt. And after returning to Singapore tomorrow's morning, I am off to 8days Taipei Los Angeles flight again the next day. This is how packed my schedule is.

But I am enjoying, so far.

*grin*

Love.

Went shopping just now. Bought the new light pink longchamps bag in small size & a pair of blackie diamond birkie. But I just realised I didn't check my sandals. I have both of the same side! Was packing my stuffs into my cargo & I just realised only. How silly of me right? Shall go back for an exchange when returning from new york. By the way, I'm in frankfurt now. Nice weather, nice food, nice company but I'm feeling miserable. Down with a very serious sore throat now & my voice is like too sexy to sing or talk.

Feeling miserable too. Cos of.......... You know why.

New york tmr!

Happy birthday to me.

I finally turned "6" on 29 february 2008. The much long awaited day. No elaborate celebration. Just around people whom I love. Thank you all for the warmest wishes. I have received them all. Happy birthday to me.

May I find joy & happiness in everything I do.

Love me ok. =)

vicious cycle

Was reading my past posts & I laughed. I almost forgotten I was like that "those times". Somehow, I really miss having him by my side. The way we used to be right from the start, the way we looked into each others' eyes. the way we showed & told each other how much we enjoyed the company, the way we say "i love you". Everything seems like yesterday. I think..... I have lost.

A friend told me something yesterday. "Every happiness comes with a heartbreak. Every heartbreak comes with a happiness. It's a vicious cycle."

Too much

Too much shit happened lately around me & they are like too much to handle. Human beings' feelings are so fragile & they can actually change overnight. Or maybe it's a build-up & it just exploded like that when it got triggered.

Out of all, we are like the still & only surviving pair. Haha.








I miss my friends.....

shopping & eating in osaka

Shopping & eating in osaka are really crazy. I love japanese food's lover so it's definitely a feast for me over here. Shopping is equally amazing. The pretty packaging for the cosmetic & beauty products make me go wild. Haha. I think anything in japan is nice & pretty & cute. I wish i live here. The only negative point is I don't know how to speak japanese lei. Must start learning sometimes soon. I have been saying but I never do it. Haha.

Anyway, the weather is freezing but I kind of used to it. Alright. I have to go. Flying back to singapore soon. Till I'm back ok?

=)

I'm not thinking. Not thinking too much. I'm trying....

the lost me.

sorry. i promised earlier that i gonna update more but you know i just lost that motivation. life hasn't been exactly smooth & sailing. i thought a brand new year things may get better but somehow we still have to work on it somewhere. ok. maybe we have to wait till after the lunar chinese new year. hopefully. my wishes granted & my prayers worked.

anyway, i have been spending like crazy for the past few trips. but you can't blame me. taipei, hong kong, san francisco. how to resist the temptations you tell me? & i'm heading to osaka next. japan lei! it's another spending trip. i know i gonna try curbing my spending but how hard it can be. how often you get japan flights right? haha...



how long can this happiness last?

hello!

hello! i went missing from blogger for quite awhile. but don't worry, i'm fine. i'm just taking a break from everything.

anyway, i'll update more about my life when i'm in hong kong. flying to hong kong later. so bye bye people...

love all.

belle.