"in the twist of black and white, you will still see colours even at the slightest glimpse."

for you.

love.

I bought my new phone! Samsung Omnia in white, 16gb. It wasn't my first ideal phone in mind but i thought it looks rather classy and chic though, and the salesperson was nice and cute! Haa.. I haven't start exploring, just started charging the battery for the very first time. Shall play with it after my hongkong turn. Yes. I am called up to do hong kong turn. But it comes with 2 off days. Hence I am taken off my jarkata turn which means I only have to do my 380 london on monday night! I have the weekend off! Yey! Hehe... Zoukout anyone? =p

Had high tea at carousel, royal plaza on scotts just now. The spread was pretty good! I love relaxing afternoon like this, eating good food, drinking coffee, hanging out around with friends and loves. :)

And....I found my perfect snowman for my car already! Haha... Will post the perfect snowman picture up after I take a snap shot of it.

Good night. It's another battle tomorrow...

Love.

yolene and hera!

Just came back from supper with a long time no see good friend. Hehhe.. He said I always fly him aeroplane. Lol. Cappuccino with traditional cheesecake for the night. =)

I almost lost my car keys just now. It's a long story. Not exactly long but I am just lazy to explain it here. But I still found it in the end. All thanks to the kind soul. Lost and found. This kind of feeling is serenity. =p

idiotic

It is so idiotic. Reported sick for an indian flight and they called me up for an indian turn. Some more the reporting is at 0535. How "nice" to me huh? I know I am silly. I have the taste of my own medicine already. It could all be avoided but I still choose to make it happen. Good thing we only worked one sector. I caught some movies but didn't complete them cos my eyes refused to stay awake. I was so tired that I had to go down to the crew bunk to take a nap. We were given the permission to do so. Lucky us. =) And we get like 2.5 times of the IFA? At least not so bad. I can't imagine working both sectors of a bombay turn.... *roll eyes* Ha... But all of us got complemented for our good work and sincerity. So it's still a pat on the shoulder. Hehe...=p

My collleague teased me just now, saying, "i thought i saw an angel!" Thank huh? It maybe said out for fun or to make someone's day. But it defintely made me smile, at that very moment. Thank you! Especially to those who have been sincerely nice to me. I really really appreciate it. =) =)

Errands day tomorrow! =)

xoxo.
yolene

A&W and Big Boy

My fav. =) And I manage to taste it again in texas after so many years! I still remember those days when I had my root beer float every other day.
*grin*

My youngest brother POP lor! Hehe. Haven really seen and have a proper chat with him for very long. Only manage to catch him for awhile just now and exchanged a few sentences. Big boy now huh? =)

Love.

爱情。。。并不需要炫耀。
认真相爱过，而又肯定与认同彼此的存在，这段爱情还是算曾经美丽过。

谢谢你。。。给过我最美丽的爱情。
谢谢你。。。留给我最珍贵的记忆。
谢谢你。。。让我知道什么是爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢。
谢谢你。。。带我走过最难忘的旅行。
谢谢你。。。留下最痛的纪念品。
谢谢你。。。爱过我。
谢谢你。。。林源伟。

但是。。。

对不起。。。我已经不爱你了。

希望这次这个决定我不会后悔。
我们。。。以后就各自精彩吧!
=)

I kind of miss hawker centre's food actually. Satay, stingray, bak chor mee, fried prawn noodles, rojak, chicken wings, chicken rice, chilli crabs, prata, ....... *drools*

=p

"My own life has been much more than a fairy tale. I've had my share of difficult moments, but whatever difficulties I've gone through, I've always gotten the prize at the end."

回家了

回家了。
回到了现实。
回到了我该面对的原点。

有些决定，现在后悔了。
我该怎么办?

一次机会，也有可能是最后机会。
可是这个机会怎么会让我那么后悔这个机会的存在?

Finally had some homecooked food for dinner. Chee Keong cooked rice, campbell soup, egg, and some canned food. Though those were not dishes that would make you go "wah, wow!" but they were good enough. Am sick of pasta and pizza. Thank you for the dinner! =)

My friend said I can be stronger. I told him if I am not strong, I wouldn't be standing here, right in front of you now. Then he said, "yes but you can be stronger."

How strong you want me to be?

I was at polo raulph lauren store at san marcos. I picked up a polo tee for myself. Then I walked to the men's session. I was so tempted to get an identical / similar one in the men's cut. Karen walked over and asked me, "who is it for?" I smiled and put the polo tee back on to the shelf.

Jamie said "how lucky is it for guys to have crew girlfriends. they always have all kinds of brands from all over the world."

But some people just couldn't appreciate then.

Back in moscow. Had a pretty good rest last night. But suddenly I feel exceptionally lonely...

Very.

Suddenly...I think I don't like my hair colour and my hairstyle. Gonna do something about it when I come back. Haha... *giggles...*

san marcos

The road trip to san marcos was splendid. We woke up very early in the morning, rented a big van (but i think it looks more like a big car), the FO drove, we stopped by for mac's breakky, and in 3hours or so time, before we knew it, we were at san marcos. The place was big, with all the popular states brands and other big brands, you name it. We got really good deals. =)

It was tiring though, cos the place was huge and we had to walk quite a bit. And all of us just got hungry like every few hours. We had the long missed A&W for dinner! Everyone was so delighted when we spotted the restaurant as we drove past. I love my root beer float! Hee.. =p

Everyone was like dozing off in the car on the way back except the driver and the navigator. Felt a little bad though. They were busy nagivating and trying to stay awake to drive and get us back to hotel, while the rest of us just dumped all our shopping loots in the car boot and fell asleep on one another shoulder. *laugh*

Still have some last minute shopping and things to get at the mall near the hotel tomorrow. Have to get up early, be at the shops at the earliest timing which they are opened and be back in time to prepare for work. Probably going to get some food and drystores to last me for my returning stays in moscow. I don't think I would be going out this time. It's too cold to be true now. Haha. And I think I am falling sick. Flu and sore throat sydromes start to show. I just pop two panadols and my vitamin C, with lots of water.

Hope it just get better. =)

Love.

My little santa! love.

Thank you for listening. =)

Currently at texas now. Gmt -6. I am feeling so jaded. And I am still comtemplating if I should join them to the factory outlets tomorrow. They gonna rent a car and drive out. Left-hand drive in states and it so gonna be my first time. Maybe I wont be driving or we will take turn to drive.

It's still a long way home...

And suddenly I don't know if I still miss you as much. I guess I still do think of you at random times during the day and the night.

I recalled those times, when we said we missed each other...

I give myself 40marks today.

=)

minus three

Moscow, minus three degree and I am feeling kind of calm and peaceful. I just realise I always seem to sleep better when I am overseas. Maybe I am away from all the stress and pressure, away from the things and people whom stir up my emotions. This kind of temporary emotional getaway is much needed for me. Perhaps I am just running away, I am just avoiding, as long as I feel better.

Using the free wifi at the hotel lobby now, with chee keong besides me. =)

完结篇

这个完结篇，到底该怎么写呢?

你曾说是我让你相信爱情。。。
你曾说我是你最爱的人。。。

我想写一个让你，让我，让所有人都会开心幸福的完美finale.

可以吗?

Mr Santa Claus

Mr Santa Claus in my car... =p

Just now the flight once again proved that I dragged and hated hongkong turnaround. We practically gobbled down our food at every spare minute we had. You know you will never enjoy the food when you eat too fast. But we didn't have a choice. Hungry, tired but no time. I hope they come up with a 3-4days hongkong flight or something. And not always making us turn and turn and turn and turn. But I know this hope is very unlikely.... =/

I kind of miss hong kong actually. Maybe should plan a short trip to there or something....

Hor??!! =p

只要是听到周杰伦的歌，都会让我想起你。。。

festive of love

Last time I really love to be driven. Now I still love but I think I love driving the car myself more. Haha... But girls has to be girls sometimes. Girls should be driven by boys and girls should be pampered by boys. I self-proclaim to be an independent girl. I can do a lot of things by myself. But boys don't like girls who are too independent. So it's good to be dependent at the relevant times.

I think I want to buy a santa claus or a snow man soft toy for my car. I want to feel like xmas everyday. Xmas, always the festive of love... =)

Just came back from manila turn this evening. I am really amazed at my energy and professionalism. I just came back from taipei yesterday late evening and I have less than 3 hours of sleep last night and I woke up at 5-ish this morning to prepare for work. And it's a whole day affair. I was at work with smile and more smile and my usual charismatic flare. (haha...) Colleagues said "you look like you have the most beautiful story painted for you. "the girl with her dream job, her dream life and her dream prince charming." Thank you for looking so highly of me. I also hope it's all true. No explanation and I continue to smile, like what I always do. The best answer to all unexplainable and unanswerable questions. =)

And I think I am really amazing, to be able to face all the challenges that you throw at me. You have been putting me into tests, testing my patience and love for you since the very first day till now and it's still ongoing. The trust is long gone and how am I able to believe you again?

I don't want to be brave anymore.

I have many roles to play till I don't even have time to be myself. Just myself. Things are getting too complicated. Many people come into the picture and many things just surfaced and happened one after another. Maybe god is painting a story for me.

I don't want to be brave anymore.

Preparing to check out hotel and fly back to singapore. Will be back this evening. And I have a turn tomorrow morning. I am so tired and this tiredness is so unnecessary. I do have a choice, don't I?

Everything happens for a reason.

三年前的相遇。。。
两年前的结合。。。
几个月前的分离。。。
今天的遗憾。。。

I believe it's all 命中注定.

Dont ever say regret if you don't even know what you want.

a little girl

I am like a little girl, waiting for her examination's result. She is very very very nervous and very very very scared that she will fail. She studied very fast for her examination and she really put in a lot efforts this time round.

But she believes...she had tried her very best. Passed or failed, she shall leave it to the destiny and let it decides for her. God can see and feel. He knows she is amazing.

Love.

taipei ximending

人在台北...

I am not extremely excited about this city this time though...

The usual food and shopping spree. I actually planned to roam alone but there were some new colleagues around, so I became the host. Ha. ;p

Had lunch today at this restaurant located at ximending, with the concept of restrooms. Everything, their deco, cutleries, food... Pictures are the evidences! =)

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我?

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh.

Really.

She is not as strong as she thinks she is.

And the most frustrating thing is... She can't even face her own feelings truthfully.

She is tired of pretending.

But her pretendious front and her smile are the only protection shields she has for herself.

I can't even trust myself now.

I am sooooooo angry....with myself!

story

A friend just told me..."eh i think this song is telling your story.."

HA... Thanks huh. But really, thank you for being there all this while. I don't deserve such kind treatment from you. 我没有你想象中的好.

Read my story then...*laugh*

江语晨-我太乖
作词:陈镇川
作曲:陈少荣
专辑:晴天娃娃

手机挂满了色彩对话却是一片灰白
线上匿称是期待等的人却总是离开
答应他我会乖奖品却是在发呆
你们说的我不信我心里都明白

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖不怕被忘了宠爱
谁说男人坏女人才爱

Thank you BEN!

Specially for you.

Hope you claim your credits already.

So that you can sleep in peace. =p

Haha... Haha...

wise decision

Walking down the street of Florence, I wished I know what is the next step to take. "You will make a wise decision." Thank you for believing in me. =)

loneliness

Most guys are scared of loneliness. And it is proven. Not just one guy told me that. There was a few. So I guess, it is true. Men look strong and hunky on the outside, but actually deep down inside them, they are really afraid of loneliness. They need people or someone to be there for them, to feel being loved and being taken care of.

When a guy says, "I just want to be alone". He is actually much lonely that he thinks he is. Someone to go through the ups and downs in life together, someone to laugh and cry together, someone to discuss matters together with, someone to be there always.

Someone... whom a man asks for.

I always get what I want in the end, most of the times. But people don't know how much efforts I put in, how hard I tried.

"你说我不该不该 不该在这时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆"

Suddenly, I love this song. One friend sent me an sms the other day.
"什么都是假的， 只有你的心是真的，因为你的心在跳."
Thank you.

Drove mummy to orchard for lunch just now. Been really long since we had a meal together. Thank you mummy for your love. I know you really care. I know who I should love. I just get a little lost sometimes.

belle.duomo.florence.

Am back from milano. Went to duomo and florence. Very beautiful city. I am going to head to venice the next time, with the special someone if possible. Because venice is such a romantic island, I want to be there with the special someone. The most ideal plan would be to spend a romantic night stay at venice before heading back to milan the next day.

Looking forward to that very day. =)

I have a little damage at duomo. I bought my gucci. But I am happy. =)

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

belle @ milano

"believing in the future and happiness ahead". - belle @ milano, love.

亲爱的上帝。。。你有听到吗?
我的心跳得好快。
我那焦虑不安的心情。
其实我真的好害怕。
不过我相信。。。你会一直守护着我的，对不对?

milan milan

I will be leaving for Milan for 5 days. Thinking where should I go this time. Vernice?

加油，yolene.


加油.

Youngest brother

Youngest brother just sent a sms text to me...

"Tomorrow I go field camp le. Don Know will come back alive anot. Take care of yourself. Take care of dad n mum as well..."

What is this?

Faint...faint..faint...

Silly boy..

大坏蛋

亲爱的上帝。。。
我喜欢上了一位男生。
可是他是个大坏蛋。
而且是个超级大坏蛋。
但不知怎么了，每次见他，我都好像忘了他是个大坏蛋。
天啊!
大坏蛋。。。。

you say

I slept early last night, much earlier than my usual, which was so unusual of me. I thought sleeping will be good, so that I won't have to think. But when I opened my eyes this morning, all the thoughts that have been waiting for me the whole night, started to haunt me.

I really think my 6th sense is damn strong and accurrate. A lot of things and incidents are happening and they all proved my 6th sense right. I am astonished too.

You say you regretted. For real or for show? How much weightage is there in this sentence?

You say I understand you the most. You say i always read your mind. But really very sorry. Now, this very moment, I think I have lost the ability to do so.

Why? Ask yourself. You know why.

我好像太高估我自己了。。。
第一次是纯真。
第二次是无知。
第三次就是愚蠢。

at least

"at least you don't have to put up a strong front with it."

thank you. =) it's in my car now. i guess it's a good reminder for me at all times.

thank you. =)

have to wake up in less than 4hours time for work.

sweet dreams!

The shoot was...tiring. A little fun in the beginning but soon it got draggy, boring and tiring. I can't remember how many outfits I had changed. Thank you my dearest friend for those little surprises. Thank you for being so thoughtful. I don't think I can be like you, always thinking and sparing thoughts for everyone. I am really very thankful, from the bottom of my heart. =)

And...thank you for the lovely night.

human map

I am back, home, feeling really relieved and...extremely tired. The flight was exhausting. Long hours and I didn't rest well before the flight. I was too engrossed with my dvd, and I forgotten my needed sleep. But ok, at least I am home now. Very contented to be at where I am now. Haha. =p Thank you mummy & daddy for picking me up just now. =) =)

There is a photoshoot tomorrow. And now I am trying to figure out how to drive to amoy street. I am seriously very bad with roads.... *guilty grin* A few months back I still had my "human map" with me, driving me to places that we had to go. With this "human map", I was never worried or scared that I would lose my way. 有他在，好像就不会迷路。=)

Anyway, it's alright. I will find my way. Good night!

Love.

Xmas is coming!

Christmas is coming! =)

dainty

love.

strawbeRRy beer

Didn't have my usual duck rice for lunch yesterday. We had fish and chips with strawberry beer. Yes! Strawberry flavour beer which is totally cool. *wide wide grin* It tastes more like gassy strawberry juice. And it's pinkish red in colour somemore, which is so girlish. *beam* I think it's more like a girl's drink. Hehe..

I bought fruits salad and chocolate bar for myself, wine and some other random food stuffs for friends, all from mark and spencer. Then I bought my granola yogurt cluster. They come in strawberry flavour too, so I got both the raspberry and strawberry, 2 each! =P

Last night was spent watching Fated to Love You, eating my fruits salad, chocolate bar and my granolar cluster mix. Cried a few times watching the show, it was a peaceful night actually, all by my myself. =)

Going roam around the london city later. I hope it doesn't rain, please? Bye bye loves. =)

london

After the ultra long hours flight, I was stoning away in the crew bus, listening to my mp3, skipping songs of that particular singer, because upon hearing his voice would screw up my emotion especially after such an overnight, long hours, a380 flight. Starring out of the windows, my mind and body were tired.....

I think I sprained my neck in the crew bunk during the rest period. Yes. I know I keep getting bruises, I keep injuring myself at work and sometimes at certain don't know where and when I hurt it occasions. Belle can make you shake your head at her clumsiness, like what he used to do.

London is raining and I just woke up from my nap. I suppose it will be the usual duck rice for lunch later, and probably I will just walk around, taking some pictures, buy some usual mark and spencers grcoeries for the night, while I watch my dvd and read my book. And I must buy the raspberry granola cluster yogurt mix from the "boots pharmacy"later. I love it so much that I think I gonna buy a few to last me for the next few days. Hehehe... And I saw "ben and jerry" ice cream vending machine at the hotel lobby earlier on. You know what's on my mind? The thought of standing in front of the machine, looking, thinking and hesitating what flavour to buy makes me happy. A girl.....when she comes to her loves, she doesn't know how to say no and she doesn't know how to let go. *grin*

Pound is dropping like crazy, meaning it's a good time to shop. *hurhur...=p* Maybe I can watch a play tomorrow's night too. Lots of random ideas, but I like it, especially in a foreign land, living the way I like, doing things that i enjoy, smiling at things, people and images that make me happy. =)

彩虹褪了颜色
我的窗前缠绕着
寂寞哀愁一地洒落
这一季的烟火
没有照亮我
只为别人闪烁
离开的时候 有些话没亲口说
再多的承诺 未来也难预测
孤单的自由 没有想像中快活
我已不知所措 连回忆都心痛
你说耐心等候
就算心里百般舍不得
还是要放开手
一个人的生活
日出又日落
每一天都折磨
能不能到梦里 被回忆带走

黄丽玲 - 离开的时候





有时候我在想，如果你也听说，那会是怎样呢?

好累哦。。。虽然很累，却还是想拼命保护这种感觉。
也许不会有任何结果，也许这个人永远也感觉不到我的努力，也许这个人永远都不会懂，但我还是要保护这种感觉。
笨死了!哈哈哈。。。

最怕。。。这种感觉会不见。
所以。。。我很小心。
直到有一天。。。我累死了!哈哈!

其实还蛮羡慕你的。。。因为你可以比我更勇敢的去爱，你可以留在他身边。

Okay. Off to london later. Will be away for a few days. Till then. Bye bye.

Love.

:)

Did a jarkata turnaround earlier on and I will be off to london tomorrow, or rather later, tonight. I gonna re-visit london again after so many months. =)

A friend just commented, "hey i think you look so much more radiant and prettier now. you look so much more sunny now! last time there was always this sorrow feel in you, like a troubled little girl." *laugh X 10 times* A friend who hasn't seen me for a while, a friend whom I just bumped into lately, a friend who used to be there to hear my little girl stories... He said, "i think it's a good sign. maybe it was the right choice to dump away that chapter."

Hahaa... This friend. =)

There were many times when I kept telling myself and others, promising myself and others, that it would be the last time. I not gonna talk about it anymore. But the story seems to go on and on. 总觉得自己很没用.

And there were many times I want you to know, I wanna tell you. I wanna show you the efforts. But I didn't.

In order not for others to look down on me, laugh at my plight, I need to look 100times stronger and 1000times better than before. Life is good ahead huh. I think. :)

你这只猪.....还好吧?

somebody's Angel

"always remember that in some way or another, you are somebody's Angel, even if you don't know it..." - belle.

请不要感动。
因为那是笨蛋的行为。
只有笨蛋才会那么爱。
也只有笨蛋才会心痛很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久。




我就是那个笨蛋。

Thank youuuu

Wanted to bring mummy out but was dilly-dallying since I woke up, then it rained, so we decided to stay indoor.

Was watching Mayday's new song, "突然好想你" MV. The lyrics is like a duplication of my feeling. Amazingly, totally! Ha...

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息

最怕突然 听到你的消息

AND...

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行

然后留下 最痛的纪念品

You won't understand, not even you. I am sick of listening to all these. I know some real friends do sincerely care but really, you are not me. Don't tell me what to do. Thank youuuu! =)

be who you are and say what you feel

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind..." - belle.

Ghost stories were shared among us during the overnight flight that arrived a couple of hours ago. They kept our sleepy minds awake. Creepy yet interesting. A little out of the wit yet fascinating. *wide grin*

I was trying to catch up on my new show, "fated to love you" but my disc kept dying on me like after every fifteen minutes. It's either my dvd player or the disc. I hope I'll be able to watch it later. :)

Do you believe sometimes it's kind of fated to meet somebody and to love that somebody? I do believe. =) Fated to meet you, fated to love you, fated to cry for you, fated to do all sorts of things for you, this kind of feeling can be too overwhelming till you question the reality of it.

Time to get some sleep before starting my day. It so gonna be a beautiful sunday!

Love.

pizza, wings and beer

Pizza, Chickem Wings and Beer always make the best friends together. =)

Somehow, I wished I was really drunk and high, so that I could don't remember things, don't remember you and just remember myself! =)

Off to work again tomorrow morning. Life goes on and on and on, even when everything esle changes. =)

Very weird... It just feels different now. Towards certain things and certain people. Or maybe it is just me. The cynical me.

And I like to make comparison between myself, people I know and some random others. Which can be so irrelevant, said by some of my friends. Hahaha...

And friends that you can really talk to, deep talking, seem very hard to come by. Or like I said, it's me. I prefer keeping certain things and thoughts to myself.

你比从前快乐,
对吧?

一种我不能给的快乐。






Thank you my lovely friend, for making me smile for this very second. =)

Just came back from Narita, Tokyo and I hurt my back while I was bending down to pick up my own luggage. Stupid right? Now I have problem turning my body to the left. That is how bad it is. The flight was....okaaaaay. A little more familiar with the new aircraft than before. But the remembering of everyone's name was quite a challenge, especially when there was a change set of crew. This morning there were like more than 30 over of us sharing the coach together to the airport. Teamwork really really counts especially working in such a big plane.

请告诉他
我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他
我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

JJ. Simple lyrics. But yet so dear to the heart. Very often the simplest thing is actually the toughest to conquer.

Love.

you should know

The flight was a nightmare. Glad it's over. =) Life has better things to think of and care for, rather than brooding over unwanted issues.

You should know how you feel. And you should know what you want. The kind of feelings and happiness that can let you be yourself. You know it, trust me.

Love.

我们之间好像永远隔着很多很多的阻碍，让我们无法再靠近。

花海

静止了 所有的花开
遥远了 清晰的爱
天弥漫 爱却更喜欢
那时候 我不懂 这叫爱
你喜欢 站在那窗台
你好久 都没再来
彩色的 实际让人很空白
是你流的泪晕开
不要你离开 距离隔不开
思念变成海 在窗外进不来
原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来
不要你离开 回忆花不开
请你等重来 我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂 她爱着大海
情歌被打败 爱已不存在

Hong Kong turn tomorrow. Thank you for the "wonderful" flight. Till tomorrow night then. =)

Love.

后面

喜欢走在你的后面，这样的我才会看得到原来你一直都在我的视线里。

that is me

I get emo like very often. Maybe that is part of me. But I want to say... I AM PERFECTLY FINE. In fact, very good. So don't have to worry about me. I know you guys care but I am still a very happy girl. Just like to get into emo thoughts that make me think and think even if I know there will not be an answer in the end. Writting or blogging down my thoughts are the best ways that I can ever think of. I talk to people but sometimes I like to be alone. I like to be all by myself. I like to keep things to myself. I have to have that little privacy in me. Something that people may not know about me, something that is only known to myself.

I enjoy the freedom of letting my thoughts run wild and emo.

Yes. This is me.

"我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走"



我到底输给了谁?
输给了你?
输给了自己?
输给了她?
还是输给了时间?


好难的一个问题。

Greeting from Moscow

Hi. Moscow has been great. Not that I really really lurve the place but the companies that I have with me were totally sweet? Okay. I don't exactly know what is the right word to use. Haha... But anyway, these few days I didnt go anywhere. I slept, had the famous pasta and tiramisu, listen to my Jay's songs, watched They Kissed Again 2, cooked together with the girls, girls' talk, plain relax thoughts and mind though with occasionally disturbed calls and smses. Haha... Okay... I am just kidding. I miss you guys. My favourite friends and my family. Kind of wanna see my favourite people soon. =p

Flying back in a few hours time. Internet time is running out! Bye bye!

Love. =) =)

disturbed

Was trying very hard to catch some sleep before going for work later. But I kept tossing here and there, very disturbed by smses and some random thoughts. Ha... So I have decided to get up, blog my last entry before slowly going to prepare myself for work.

原本跟自己说好要让心走开，可是却还是情不自禁往向你那里走。
你应该不会知道。

Ok. Stop thinking and time to get ready! Bye bye! =)

Love.

leaving for moscow

"In the end, it'll be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."

Leaving for Moscow, Russia later. I believe it's freezing over there. But I am all equipped. My winter gears, my comfort food, my laptop, my dvds, my Jay's new album, my Cleo magazine. =)

Will be back on Tuesday's early morning.

Ciao & love. =)

a simple and sweet way to say LOVE

A simple and sweet way to say LOVE. =)

Just some random picture taken from somewhere. It isn't specially meant for me though I am secretly hoping it is. Lol...

说好的幸福呢

一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱断了 梦怨了
开始你不该信疑 一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

Jay always never disappoints me. Jay is always Jay. =)
My favourite song from his new album.
"The Promised Happiness".

去听听看。。也许会让你想起曾经说好要和你幸福的人。
去听听看。。也许你也会被感动。

heard so much

Sometimes you just heard so much from different people and you don't know who to believe. Everyone tells you things from their perspective, their side of story. But how much truth is it in there? Does it matter still anyway?

If it doesn't, I wouldn't be writing these out.

Hmmm...make sense.

Anyway I have a "battle" to fight tomorrow. An overnight indian turnaround. *roar*

Love.

remember

Came back from taipei yesterday evening. Yes. I seem to fly there a lot. The 2 days were tiring. Worked, ate, laughed, met up with friends and trying to enjoy every little bit of taipei like I always do whenever I go there.

Met a friend last night. Somehow I saw myself in him. Similar love stories, similar sorrows, similar pains and tears that look so familiar. I hope you will feel better. You will get over it, one fine day, and the day will definitely come. =)

This song keeps playing in my mind, suddenly...

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走得太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

Guys who sing & play

Went timbre just now for drinking. The gig performed by the 2 guys was really fantastic. Guys who can sing are attractive. But guys who can sing and play instruments at the same time are even more impressive.

我喜欢会唱歌的男生，可是会唱又会弹的男生更加可爱!

哈哈哈。。哈哈。。

出街

It will be a good day.

开心地出街去咯!

for the special someone

A letter for you... maybe the last letter from me to you, for now, at least.

I know you may never read this. But I still need to write it down somewhere, just for you.

To tell you the truth, it wasn't easy for the past few months. I imagined your presence, I reminisced our memories, I had buckets of tears and many sleepless nights. Many many times, I missed you so much. I tried to occupy myself with work and friends. I looked strong. I appeared non-chalent. Everyone just thought that I seem to move on very well. But it all came with a hope. A secret hope that was deep inside me that tells me that you will come back to me. The belief that you will look back when everything else settles. I dare not say it out. I dare not tell anyone. Because I know they gonna say I am stupid, silly, desperate, the ex-girlfriend whom refused to let go and blah blah blah.

There were times when I thought I can fall in love again with a new person. I tried and I failed. Just because of the secret hope, the secret belief that I kept holding inside me. I had already grieved over the lost of you for the past months. The sorrows, the bittness are too much to bear now. I think.....I don't want to fight the battle anymore. I know you have already moved on. I know you have already recovered way before me. I was the only one who was lagging behind, thinking of every single possibilty that may bring us back together.

Many times when I see you, I really so much want to hug and tell you that I miss you but I just can't do it anymore. I have lost the courage. The kind of courage that I used to have when we first started 2 years ago.

I guess it's time to stop all these. Certain things just can't go back to the original beginning. Like the one thing that you used to tell me when we just parted. You said you couldn't find any reason why we should go back to the way we were before.

Reason. Do we really need a reason to love a person?

悲伤到这里就好了。我累了。我不要在等了。

我会很好。你也会很好。

我们都会各自幸福下去。

我不会忘记你，也不会忘记曾经的我们。

希望你会找到一个比我更爱你的人。

我们就到这。。。