CNY Reunion with 6B4

More than a decade of friendship and still counting. =) It was a whole lots of great fun with them. Received 2 wedding invitations from the gathering. Seems like moo moo year is a good year to get hitched. =) Oh well, it USED to be my ideal year too.

I think time is bad. My SSS7 was safe. =)





Is it really over or is it just not the end yet? I am quite eager to know.
就算别人都说 我没什么出息.

the pink phone

I found this phone inside a pink box lying at one corner of my room just now. Almost forgotten its existence till I seen it once again. I realise it actually looks quite pretty. *lol* Okay...I have another spare phone to use again! =)

超经典，独家拍摄。=)

music clinic friends

I still remember those days in Music Clinic... Met up with 2 of my those days singing classmates just now. It has been eons since I last seen them. I used to wonder and ponder why did I even join the school in the first place? I still remember I was dragged to the music workshop by a friend. I wasn't very interested initially, until I saw the performance of the 2 guys. =) There it went. I fell into the trap, and never got up since then. Haha..

It had been a wonderful phase in my life afterall. I met a couple of good friends there, the fun we had, the place that I met him, they were all nicely lined up for me and I didn't even realise until one fine day. God had arranged this chapther for me and it's called FATE. =)

Today, I am still glad that this chapter exists in my life storybook. =)

二十五度C

The flight was long and tiring. But it didn't stop me from meeting the good friend. =) We caught "The Wedding Game" together and had Macdonald's supper! The movie was okay... not exactly fantastic, you don't have to use your brain to understand the plot, ha... mostly I just love the clothes and the wedding gowns they wore in the movie. Hehe...

"爱，不该有四季，而且每一分钟都该是二十五度C。
这是爱的最佳温度。
我。。。还是相信爱情。=)"

爱错

My random thoughts came along like a gush of wind. Life is really too short to be unhappy and to worry. Forget about what's going to happen next. Just LIVE LIFE now. Do what you always want to do, do things that you will never think you will be doing, dream and only dream BIG, take risks, take gambles, life is like a gamble anyway, LOVE, LOVE whoever you want to love, even though you may love the wrong person, things may not worked out, but still, just LOVE.

即使爱错也没关系.... =)

cny in London

Chinese New Year in London isn't too bad. We had duck rice and dishes for reunion, and I did my shopping at Primark and Westfield, I had English Breakfast at this cafe called the "Muffin Man", had delicious peking duck and sweet and sour soup at the Chinatown here, I have great company with me =), my room seemed extremely comfortable and cosy this time, caught the Hairspray musical with the girls, drank the most yummylicious chocolate milk. It's creamy, thick, chocolatety and sinful, but I just love. (^^)

new year

Happy Lunar New Year. Though I am not home with my family and loved ones, I know everyone will still be happy, looking forward to a beautiful new year ahead together. But....most importantly, you know you love me! =)

很感谢送年货到我家的朋友。
我很感激。
只可惜不是你。。。

off to work! bye bye!

love.

弟弟刚刚才问。。。今年的新年他会来吗? 应该已经不会了吧?
我答。。。不会。再也不会。除非有奇迹出现。不过不知从哪天开始，我已经不相信奇迹了。=)

Off to London later, and spend my chinese new year there. ..*shrugs*

简单爱

今天睡醒的时候，仿佛好像从一个做了很久的梦境醒来。
以前常常说自己很笨，但还是心甘情愿的付出。
只以为爱。=)

朋友们看在眼里，都会给我几句安慰的话。
说我不笨，说我不傻。
只是我太乖，看不见他的坏。

有一天，他也对我说了同样的话。
他说他自己原来也很笨，很傻。
也只因为爱。
我立刻回应告诉他，他不是。
因为我自己也是笨的可以，傻的可以。
原来爱情不是一加一，努力付出不一定就会有结局。

如果今天他再告诉我同样的话，我会告诉他，"你真的很笨，很傻。而且是笨到家了，傻到家了。" =)

昨天听着电台DJ说，"其实幸福和快乐根本不难，如果你懂得知足长乐，每一天都会充满希望，充满爱。"

有时候简单就是一种幸福。
我们应该学会去更珍惜，去更爱早就在我们身边的幸福。
也许他们没有我们要的一百分，但请问我们自己也能给别人一百分吗?
我们每一天都在学习，不是吗?

我要简单爱。
一种简单而没有伤害的爱。=)

It was once again proven that caffeine doesn't work on me. I made myself a big cup of coffee after my dinner cum supper, took my time to remove my nail colours and repaint again cos I thought I need a fresh set of manicure for my london flight tomorrow. After I was done, I fell into deep sleep while waiting for my manicure to be fully dried up. It was a good 2 hours of power nap and I really needed that. I read from a magazine the other day. It said the glow from your face after a good night of undisturbed sleep is even more dewy and beautiful than the glow you have after you have good sex. Nod head and agree! *laugh*

The jarkata turn earlier on almost drained me out. You know sometimes I do HATE my job for certain reasons. Haha... But sometimes I do feel appreciated, from my passengers and fellow colleagues. The satisfaction is more than you ever need. When you know how to love people and when they actually feel your love and they love you back, that is more than enough. =)

One of my bosses from a flight asked me the other day, "eh yolene you got go for interview or not?" I replied, "huh"? And she said, "nor...interview la...promotion la..!" I laughed and said, "sister, your sister here not eligible yet lei..." She said, "oh, i thought you very senior already cos your work really very good." And she smiled. I smiled back and said, "thank hor! sometimes I worked till I wanna vomit blood can! haha.." And in my heart I was thinking I don't think I can even stay till promotion.

"maybe the lack of signs is a sign"

我想这样的睡着，just like a baby.

=)

beijing

The new beijing hotel we stay is really beautiful. It somehow resembles the ritz carlton hotel in singapore. The bath tub by the window, the big bed with a flat screen tv in front of you, plus the wireless keyboard that claims to enable you to surf the net on the tv, (i think i rather use my own lappy. it's much faster and "smarter". haha...), the in house movies.

But I didn't have time to really enjoy the room. Had typical chinese food for dinner, then we had the most expensive foot and body massage. We practically walked along the streets in the freezing cold weather, trying to get some decent places for massage but seemed to no avail. They were all equally expensive. I think shanghai seems a better place to get really cheap and good massage. The funniest part was, the staffs there thought we are together and they made us change into their pyjamas in the same room. It was hilarious la. *laugh* So we had to back face each other to change, with me occasionally, jokingly teasing him say "hey you don't peek hor...!". And he would reply saying oh it's black, oh it's pink... What a company I had for that night. Haha...

We sank into deep sleep throughout the massage, ok, maybe not exactly throughout but almost. Was so tired after the flight and I only managed to sleep like 2 hours before the flight. Now you know why I hate early morning flight. I always can't sleep the night before. When we headed back to our rooms, it was midnight. I was tired and sleepy but I wanted to watch a movie before I sleep. I told him I am going to watch "the grudge 2". He said okay he is going to watch that too. If there is any ghost, he will come to my room and save me. *roll eyes and faint*

I wish I have more time around. It's work again when the sun rises again tomorrow. *pout*

幸福的阶梯

我往着幸福的阶梯攀爬。
途中，我遇见了两个敌人。
一个叫阻碍，另一个叫狂风暴雨。
它们真的好烦哦，跟得我好紧。
有很多次想不爬了。
可是每次却在那一瞬间，一个天使就会出现了。
它告诉我，"我为你准备了一份礼物，它叫做"幸福"。这份礼物就在阶梯的最顶端。一份属于你的礼物，我不给别人。你真的不爬了吗?"
于是，我还是很努力的爬着。
好期待打开礼物的那一天! =)

as long as

Went for a fringe cut just now, like (AGAIN!!). ;p This is like the umpteen times I cut in a month. I cut twice in singapore, then I went hong kong to cut again and this afternoon after I woke up from my nap, I suddenly got so irritated with my hair and I decided to cut it one more time again. Took my car, went to the salon, met this really nice lady who was so patient with me. But I was nice to her too. I was so taken in by her words that I actually purchase the hair gel that she claimed can make my hair shine like a star. *roll eyes* I also bought a mini hair-straightener from her which I thought it was rather cute. Light and small to make it travel fuss-free, easy to use , it costs only $18 which I thought it's rather reasonable, and most importantly it's pink! Haha...

And I finally found a pouch for my omnia. And for the first time, I thought the purple is nicer than the pink. It probably isn't the most perfect storage casing for my phone, but it's sweet enough for me to love it for the time being :)

I bought lots of rubbish here and there, from really random shops. I always find a reason to buy thing, like I tell myself oh I think I may need this I think I may need that. And sometimes I buy things for my favorite people too.

Anyway I was back from melbourne this morning. The flight was ermmm...overwhelming. I am glad to be back home. =) You know many many many times, you just want to find a reason to convince yourself that whatever you do, whatever you say is still of some worth to another person, especially when that person still means something to you. For example like a special friend who you don't want to see him getting hurt and you just want him to be truly happy and nothing else. But here am I thinking, I am in no position to say anything and I know it's not going to be appreciated. So I will stay off. ;)

As long as you are happy, for now.

Good night people!

Love.

someone's girlfriend

I want to be a little girl again. Get excited over flowers and chocolates, rather than louis vitton, prada or chanel, given by boys. If I am someone's girlfriend now, I will make him folded stars, like those times in school. Haha...

Ok.. Not really. But seriously, if I am someone's girlfriend now, I will help him wash his car, at 100 bucks per wash. Haha..

Like I always promise, but I never do. :p

避风港

一个人真的有那么大的能力吗?
教会另一个人该怎样去爱，怎样去关心他所在乎的人。

曾经是我最想依赖的避风港。
现在的我希望这个避风港会继续加油。

也许会有一天，我们都会发现，我们才是彼此最可靠的避风港。
也许不会是最爱，但我相信一定会是最珍贵。

someone

"when you finally found someone who you want to spend the rest of your life with, you want the rest of your life to start right away."

Beautiful day ahead, i hope. =)

hello kitty

My pink sony camera suddenly died on me. It was just barely one year old.

And all of a suddden, I have many hello kitty, pinky accessories for my car. I bought some in hong kong myself, and some were from you, which surprised me.

You never fail to be you. The you whom I can't seem to get away with all these while.

他的眼神都不美丽却还是带走我的心跳。

原本应该比谁都勇敢，我却在他的面前承认了我也想被保护。

心跳

你带走我的心跳，可是你的心跳却不是被我带走。
心跳，还我。

最幸福的事

最幸福的事。。。应该是结婚的那一天吧!
穿上华丽的礼服，牵着彼此的手。
深情的望着对方，时不时情不自禁的接吻。
然后说好要一起变老。
=)

Thoughts after attending the wedding. Haha... Off to Hong Kong for the next 3 days for a short holidays. It's quite a last minute decision. Anyway, till I am back ok! =p

You know it feels kind of weird? empty? that I have to attend the wedding dinner ALONE. As in without a partner beside me. Ha. I know many of you are rolling eyes at me now. And yes, I am that superficial in a way. I always think it looks better to have someone beside you at a function. Even the groom says "actually I wish I can invite him too since I have met him before but too bad..." And he laughs, and I laugh too. The most ironical laugh I guess.

Congrats Terry and Jolene! =)

Even when everyone else thinks I am the dumbest, the silliest, I just smile and walk away.

被误会的感觉真的很难受。
可是。。。我已经没有那种力气去解释。
你们觉得怎样就怎样吧!
可能这开始就是一个错误，而我明明知道自己其实可以更精彩， 却还是想相信一次。
而你也不曾想保护我。
我只要一次就好。

"Your mind is consumed with trying to figure out a person or puzzle in your life and it is tougher than it looks. Of course, there is no answer forthcoming so you may need to ask a friend for help."

It's snowing. Been stuck with the freezing weather for the past 8 days in 2 countries. I can feel my running nose. Glad to be back home tomorrow. =)

love, yolene, in frankfurt.

new york city

I always love new york. Despite the extreme chilly weather, I still find myself falling in love with the beautiful, vibrant and lively city.



And most importantly...I found myself in new york city! =)

Love.

something new

It's good to have something new to kick start a brand new year. People said so and I agree. *cheeky smile*

如果你有在读，我的灵魂想请问你，我该如何对你继续呢?

damaged cargo bag in frankfurt

My cargo bag is damaged. One of the wheels is missing and the handle is coming off. And the most "wonderful" part is I will only be back in singapore next week. Am in frankfurt and going to new york during the weekend. What a first flight to start off the year. *don't worry yolene, everything will be okay! just stay positive! i keep reminding myself. =)*

Later we still have company new year lunch at the hotel restaurant. I thought it's already 2nd and they still hold some kind of lunch, trying to bond us together. Okay... Actually I shouldn't complain. Just sian 1/2 that my bag is broken and I have new york to go next. How to contain my shopping loot? Haha...

By the way, "even bliss can be a piece of art" entry is misleading. Haha... I don't have a new boyfriend. Thank you to the photographer who makes it looks like a blissful picture which is filled with love. It's a sign of strong friendship. =)

happy 2009! with love.

It's a brand new year...

我要重新再来。
更认真的对待生命，对待爱。

I look forward.

One more day... Kind of 舍不得 actually. Hehe.

Let me recall...2008 has been quite an eventful year for me. A lot of things happened....

I broke up with the man whom I used to love very much. The man whom I used to think he was the one. The man whom I used to want to share ups and downs, good and bad, and everything together. And yet, I never told him once before that I actually needed him too.

I lost some friendships because of certain reasons.

But I gained new friendships because of certain reasons too.

I witnessed people who genuinely love and care for me for who I am.

And I witnessed people who do not appreciate me and took me for granted despite how hard I try, how much efforts I put in.

I flew around the world, for now and in the near future, I think I will still continue to put on my pair of wings to enjoy the beauty of the world.

I bought the most expensive present for myself. My beautiful white honda jazz.

The journey alone to endure and to face the challenges was not easy but when I look back now, I smile. Not because it's over. I smile because it happened.

I look forward to 2009. =)

Even bliss can be a piece of art...

我。。。还是输了。

reality vs fantasy

I am back from zurich, till the end of the year. =) 3 more days and it will all be history.

Happy and excited... because there is new hope, new beginning, new start for everything.
Sad and disappointed... because I can't seem to recall much that are worth remembering this year.

Have you ever come across something that you really really like but you have to keep reminding and convincing yourself that you no longer like it anymore? It's like having an angel and a devil in yourself.

The reality, the fantasy. Which one will you choose?

christmas, boxing day, zurich.

Everything else in zurich is closed because it's boxing day and yesterday was christmas. Flying on a christmas day wasn't too bad actually. Zero pax in first class, zero pax in business class, 17 pax in economy class, with 15 cabin crew, 4 pilots. This was my first time. >< Who travels on christmas day? But it was good for me. I had a bad hangover from the eve party, I slept for 3 hours and I was forced to wake up for work. This flight was much needed. Hehe... But I am prepared to work on my way back home. 3 in first, 29 in business, 222 in economy, tentatively. =)

Met mindy and jermaine last night. They were in zurich too but they were heading back to singapore one day earlier. We had hours of chat at jermaine's room. You know la...when batchgirls get together... Hehe... All the juicy news, gossips, latest updates in our life and the people around us... And it really gets me into thinking...that perhaps I could have looked at things in my life in a different way, handle my own emotions and personal life in a more appropriate manner that is deemed to be of more beneficial to me and my well-being. But sometimes I think too, it's my life. I decide on what I want. I don't have to follow what seems to be more rightful for me.

I have been sleeping, reading newspapers and book, eating my cup noodles and snacks, then sleep again. I thought I should head to the gym somehow. =p Probably going to the hotel restaurant later for dinner. I need proper meal. =p

Merry Christmas!

The hangover last night was quite bad. =/ Not really my intended celebration but we all had a little bit of fun together. =) Merry Christmas! I am off to Zurich later... Will be back on the 28 and off till the year ends. Quite a good deal huh? Hehe..

本来以为会是一个不能说的秘密，但它好像很早就被看穿了。
我也在这个时候对自己承认，那是一个从没逃掉过的感觉。
原来。。。悴落的时候想你更多。

the time before xmas...

I think...I really sux at touch-screen phones, or phones that are too tech-savy. My hello kitty phone from (last year xmas's pressie) and my current newly bought samsung omnia. And now I am back to my sony ericson again. (my this year birthday pressie)

Now I am thinking what should I do with the new phone... Learn to play and like it, sell it and get a new phone or stuck with my current phone for the time being.

Life is never too easy. Haha..

=p

thank you and you

Reporting was at 1040 and they called me at 0900. I was still in a daze when mum said an operator machine was talking to her when she picked up the phone. Ha.. Left my house at 1010, drove to the airport and surprisingly I still have time to go toilet for touchup. Haha..

I received xmas surprises again! Thank you and you. For all the love and care. Really appreciate each and everyone of you in my life. I thought this year christmas will be a little lonely without the boyfriend, now i guess this isn't so. =)

睡着了

睡着了，才会感觉到原来自己很害怕，很寂寞。
也只有睡着了，才敢在梦里放下尊严，承认自己其实还很在乎。
梦醒了，我们都回到了原点，一切归零。

Standby-ing for 380 today. I am not called up yet and please... I hope company doesn't even think of calling me ever for today. Haha... I have another normal standby tomorrow in which I think most probably they will call me, though I still do hope they don't, in which I doubt so. *sigh* Anyway, I will be heading to zurich on xmas day and back on 28! =)

I gonna pack my unwanted clothes, shoes, books, toys for the salvation army. My stuffs are way too overwhelming for my room and I think we should donate in kind to the needy. Yup yup. It's about time to contribute to the society. I have been living practically well and it's time to share our love to the others. I am thinking of child sponsorship too. Am still checking out the details. Once everything is confirmed, ta..da...it will be okay dokie!

love.

My dearest friend gave me a surprise! The Five Love Languages book! Thank you thank you! Hehe.. It's quite ironical how we met but I guess everything has a reason for it to begin and to happen.

=)

杨丞琳 - 在你怀里的微笑

杨丞琳 - 在你怀里的微笑

可以吗 让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉
知道吗 你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
爱随着风飘荡飘过了你
最终飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡 哪里也逃不了
我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道 再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲密的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到
让我暂时的依靠
那是份张止痛药 很快会失效
你只要再哄我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲
记住我拥有过的好
记住在你怀里微笑

emo emo... haha..

kindness

Something to share...

"I had been harsh with my wife by cutting down her ideas and telling her that what she said was not logical. I raised my voice and told her exactly what I thought. She walked out of the room, and I returned to the ball game on television.
Thirty minutes later she walked in with a sandwich, chips, and a Coke, all neatly arranged on a tray. She placed the tray on my lap and said, "I love you." Then she kissed me on the cheek and walked out. I sat there thinking: This is not right. This is not supposed to happen. I felt like a jerk. Her kindness overwhelmed me. I put the tray down, went into the kitchen, and apologised."

The wife demostrated the kindness of authentic love, and it changed her husband's heart. Kindness seems to be the key to love. When someone is unkind to you, you look for a way to be kind to that someone. This isn't easy but it can be done. When it is done, it brings love and joy to you. =)

"Receiving love is a beautiful result of loving others, but the pure joy of love comes first from having a loving attitude, no matter what we get in return."

love.
belle

I received my first xmas pressie yesterday. Thank you! Though it isn't something extravagance but I love the thought. =p

Just that this year xmas, the first pressie isn't from....uh hem...anymore.

=)

Name of the dish: Happy Glutinous Balls

Fillings: L.O.V.E.

Cook: Mummy lor.... =)

saved. =)

My nails are saved. =) But it took me 3 hours to do so. But I guess it was all worthwhile. I needed the repair like very badly. Hee...

Orchard was so crowded. Maybe because it was a saturday and xmas is around the corner. Shopping for pressies and xmas parties tends to be more intensive. There were xmas carol, beautiful lightings and deco, xmas shows and performances put up by various church and other communities. The ambience was surprisingly good. And I myself unknowingly felt in love with the festive atmosphere. *wide grin*

Dinner was at sushi tei. Wanted to catch a movie after dinner but I refused to take any seat from the first 3 rows. We didn't do any booking so it was kind of impossible to get a good seat. We ended up at starbucks for coffee and I much needed that. Frankly speaking, I haven't been sleeping much. Though caffeine doesn't really work on me, but subconsicously I still do think it does help a little. =p

I bought 2 books from Borders. Twilight by Stephenie Meyer and Love As A Way Of Life by Gary Champman. He is the author of the multimillion-copy bestseller, The Five Love Languages. I have been looking for that book too but it was out of stock. I can't wait to read! *excitingly claps*

there is always new thing.

A friend commented that my life is full of happenings everyday. There is always new thing. I guess so. That's why I said earlier, it's not easy to be me. My colleague mistaken my cargo bag for hers and she went home with mine just now. After a long hours 380 london flight, that is the last thing that I want to know. I thought my bag is still in heathrow airport. Anyway, it was quite a drama BUT... I got my bag back eventually, thankfully.

Suppose to have my primary school xmas gathering BUT... I returned home late, had dinner late, showered late, got ready late and end up they were planning to head home soon, like no point I drive down and they are heading back. They said "we all worked today lei...very tired you know..." I am like hello guys, your sister here not working meh? I worked even longer hours, physical and mentally drained by my passengers and the long hours on flight. Yeah.. My class had more guys and I was like the minority.

My friend is meeting me for supper. He says "don't have to force yourself if you don't wanna go, i very chin chai one... i understand from long flight you will sure be worn out...but i can still ta-bao to your doorstep if you are hungry or if you wanna see me..haha.." This man... Hai... *i shake head..haha..*

I hope I wont be out too late. I still plan to wake up early tomorrow to go do my nails. My gel nails are horrible. I have broken three of them. And I wasn't a B2 or D2 at work. *roll eyes* And I suppose I have a dinner date tomorrow. And I have to get my Twilight books. Didn't manage to get them from london. Yeah...endless "and" because there are just too many tasks to be accomplished these few days when I am still around in town. I have yet to tidy my room so that I can get a new bed for the new year. I have been wanting since like months ago, a new bed. =p

Alright I need to go. He is reaching in awhile. I want to be driven tonight. =)

And to ben... call me anytime when you are ready and free to talk. I am here. =)

Good night people...

love.

look forward

I was trying very hard to get some sleep before I fly again later but I just can't seem to tuck myself in. Still have my bacon and avocado salad in the fridge for me to finish. But I am all ready to go home... =)

Flying really makes time flies faster than usual. I have been running from clouds to clouds for two years plus. But I feel I have yet to see the world. And it's plain boring to see the world alone. Yes. I have colleagues and friends to keep me company when I am away. But you know the feeling is different. I want to see the world together with someone special. Does it mean I have to find a fellow crew boyfriend? Haha... But it isn't easy to be a crew's partner. I have to admit. The skeptical, the insecurity, the temptation (okay, maybe temptation is everywhere but my job permits a higher tempting opportunity...lol..).

When I had a boyfriend when I was flying,....

I hated long flights.
I loved off days in singapore when he was around.
I wished he would and could sms and call me more often when I was away.
The first section that i zoomed into at abercrombie and hollister was the men's section.
My thoughts always ran wild when I was all alone in the hotel room by myself.
I was always happy to talk about him to my fellow colleagues and friends.
And probably he didn't quite understand what I was going through and why I was feeling such way because he wasn't a crew, then.

But those were the days la. It doesn't matter now anyway. Haa..ha.. Just reminiscing those memories and moments, once in awhile. Heheh... =p

I promise. =)

I wish I have something/someone to look forward to again, whenever I am back.

=)

Love.

如果可以。。。
我希望我不用被后对着，才敢哭泣。

如果可以。。。
我希望我可以降低身份去追，去爱我想要的东西。

如果可以。。。
我希望故事的下一集还是由你来为我写。

If I can...

I hope I don't have to cry alone when no one sees.

If I can...

I hope I can be extraordinary brave to pursue and to love the things and happiness that I have always been wanting.

If I can...

I hope you are still the writer for my new chapter.

But bear in mind, they are all "If I can", "如果可以". Some people are just blinded to see that I am here. Haha.. Anyway, just some inspirational thoughts. I am glad I will be home tomorrow and off for the weekend! *cheekily smile*

Thank you Joseph. =)

May your wife has a smooth delivery next year! Look forward to your little baby boy okay? =p

What happens when you get too bored in your room?

Pretty Woman

Tv is showing Pretty Woman now. Julia Roberts and Richard Gere. Oh boy, if you ask me, Pretty Woman really tugged at my heart and soul and made me laugh, all over again.

The fairytale with reality and it should be the way.