night trail in sfo

Met the good friend last night. He drove me to a random japanese restaurant for dinner, then he brought to this night trail walk with him. It was dark, walking along the grasses and bushes, he got his mini torchlight to lighten the path as we walked. It was cold, mad darkness, you heard birds crying, the unusual serenity of the surrounding, the dark under tunnel which I thought no one would actually go there at this hour cos you wouldn't be able to see a single thing without a torchlight, and to my frankly, I was pretty scared. Haha. But I had his strong arms to guide me along the long and hypothetical path, to another amazing place he was bringing me to. =)

The view was bewildering. I saw the Golden Gate Bridge from another side of the island. I witnessed the calm and the astonishing night view of California. And at the other end of the bridge, it's San Antonio. I would so loveeeee to visit that city one day.

Actually I have more to write about, but I gotta run to prepare for work. Going back to Seoul in a while. Till I reach Seoul, I promise. ;p

Bumped into dear Joey in San Francisco.
Tell you more tomorrow.
Need to head to the bed, like very badly. *cover mouth & giggle*

ZZZZZ...

sfo!

I can't get enough of the fisheye effect, so I must show it off, with more products. Hee. =D
Just arrived San Francisco. With a tired body, injured finger, but a mind to shop later. *LOL* Already washed my uniforms and am now removing my nail polish and blogging at the same time. Trying to multi-task and oh well, it all seems to work. :) Am so going to take my time to shower and head out for a walk.

Maybe it's all destiny.
=)

fisheye

Thank you ling for helping me to develop my fisheye photos. I so love my fisheye camera, maybe slightly even more now. :)

Capture those moments of love around you. =)

BK Craze:)

Dragged myself out of the bed at 10ish in the morning, pour the cereal I bought from Christchurch in a big bowl, open the fridge, see no milk, I use soya milk instead. Scoping, munching with my half-open eyes. Showered and got my wheels moving to Pomo Centre. Spent 2hours plus there, watching some old hongkong series they were playing on their dvd player. And now, I have a fresh new set of nails. ;p

Was so hungry after the nails thingy and I so craved for Burger King okay. (don't ask me why. I just want to have a burger from Burger King. unusual craving. ha..) Knowing Mr Chua was in town, but I was late by that split second. People already "dabao" and just hop into a cab heading home, for flight later when I returned the call. He almost burst my phone while I was doing my nails and just when I was done and needed someone to eat Burger King with me, he's gone. *smack forehead*

Couldn't find Burger King near my place. I settled for Mac instead. Happy still. So much so for the little craving. =)

Leaving for Christchurh later, then to Seoul and San Francisco. Gonna be a busy and packed month ahead.

Nevertheless, welcome Marchy! Wondering what surprises you have for me. ;p

Love.

spring

今年的春天好像..... 有点不一样.

I love spring.

=)

♥

~The important thing is to not be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past & recognize that every day won't be sunny. & when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember that it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, & those stars lead you back home. ♥~

How enlightening huh? Hee...

Just drove home from work. Waiting for daddy to buy supper back for me. Isn't he sweet? In and out of love times and times, the only man who never forget to love me, the only man whom I can be very sure who will love me forever, is him.
Muacks daddy!

2cents worth

Had a nice home-cooked dinner at danny's place. Didn't know he can cook so well. Along with his friends, it was dinner followed by wine and more wine. And I was vomiting while walking home. Pretty lousy huh? Passer-bys stopped and asked if I was okay. And hey I am good at rolling eyes, someone said. Haha. Though I couldn't remember how I replied those strangers, I think probably I was rolling my eyes at that point of time. HA!

In life (my life), there are many passer-bys. And they all add on to the chapters of my life. And some passer-bys aren't really that passer-bys actually. Seriously I wish they do stay. But I am weak. I don't know how to tell. There is a phase, there seems to be an imaginery deadline. Once I bypass it, I won't be able to get it back. Like I always believe, once you miss it, it's gone forever.
也许只是那一刹那的触动，
那一瞬间的感动，
但到最后，
有些人也只会是你一辈子的好朋友。
可能庆幸它没开始，
也有可能会觉得可惜它还没开始过但却已要结束。
但心想，
不是彼此终点的两个人，
根本就不应该浪费时间。
对吧?

My 2cents worth.
=)

Super random thoughts at these hours...
I can't stand myself too! *laugh*

Off to bed.
Still have to work in the afternoon later.
Good night=p

难免还是会有那么一点伤感。

我要加油, till a day when I don't even feel a bit of grief at all.

:)

a lighter note

I don't know what's wrong with me. First it was mouth ulcers, then it was rashes and now I woke up with a phelgmy sore throat. All three not a single one recovered, and they are all together now. #$%^&*!

Called up for Jarkata turnaround tomorrow afternoon and then I will be taking a short break from work for a few days. That's a lighter note. :)

What happened when someone is so eager to see you for that 1minute, just to pass you Bonjela, because he heard (or rather read from facebook) that you have ulcers?

I was just plain ranting about my mouth ulcers and I didn't know there are people who actually take it so seriously. Or maybe he has been doing this to many other girls. Sometimes it's how they get plus point. Haha. Mean it or not, still....
Thank you. =p
Much appreciated.

I have been having red patches all over my legs and they are so itchy Someone says maybe it's eczema and it happens to people who fly a lot. Boo!

gmt+7

Heya! Pretty much awake at this hour, time checked, it's almost 2am Singapore time. I didn't catch a single wink last night. Was tossing and turning, and my stupid iphone alarm burst out real loud at 430am, i jumped out from my bed, feeling that tad little bit of disappointment, that I didn't sleep at all, and it's time for work already. To add on, I discovered 2 ulcers on my lower lips! My idiotic younger brother is horrible. He said, "jie, asked you don't kiss so hard with the guys already. you see la, now 2 ulcers." And then he went "hahahaa... I go shower le..going camp..don't ask me give you a lift to airport huh...not very on the way..." Hell, is that my brother? *laugh*

Good thing it's not long working hours just now. Managed to check in hotel pretty early, I logged on to the net, downloaded my shows, showered, read Cleo and dozed off, woke up in the evening, just nice for room service and my shows were ready. Went back to sleep again after my dinner and shows. Didn't manage to get into deep sleep though. But I don't care la. Coming back home soon, I can't wait.

Love from gmt+7
:p

momentum

It feels so strange, like when I was working non-stop consecutively for many days, I kind of enjoy the momentum and the idea of being away, away from family, friends and everyone. But when I have more than 3days in Singapore, the thought of going back to work the following day just dragged.

How's your weekend? Mine was calm, peaceful, relaxing, well spent. Having meals with people whom I haven't met for ages, talking to people whom I wanna talk to and not forgetting spending some quality time at home, even if I am lazing around, doing nothing. Highly selective. Haha. Sorry. I was just feeling pretty much anti-social for the past few days. Living in my own world, indulging in my own fantasy. Quite good actually. No disturbance. I don't have to bother or care about what others think or say about me.
Love it. =D

early birthday

Birthday came early this year.

I was granted 3 wishes.

I hope they all come true soon.

:p

too busy

Have been embracing a lot of cold weather for the past few months. Just when I was contemplating earlier on if I should make a work trip to Switzerland right after I come back from my 9days work trip from Frankfurt New York, it was a decision between extra income and the time spent in Singapore. I have decided to give it a miss eventually.

Ya... I was "too busy" to come out with a conclusion, and that's why it took me forever to even conclude such simple quotation. To think I am so busy to even reply the simplest message. Yes, I think I am very busy showering, packing stuffs, and yet trying very hard to stay very awake on the computer screen after not sleeping for 36hours, just to catch up with the people whom I deem are important in my life.

When life gets hectic, work gets busy and my mind and body get drained out, all I need is for you and you and even you, to say, I understand.

Gmt+1.

17 Again

Just finished watching "17 Again" on the HBO channel, and had a great cry over it. And.... Zac Efron is super hot. *hehehe*

Time to head to the sack. Good night!

Dancing to the cold

Happy new year and Happy valentines! How's the atmosphere in Singapore? A little miss home, a little miss to be around with the loved ones. Thank you all for the well wishes. Still get that bit of excitement receiving messages from certain names. I was frozen in Frankfurt, and now the Big Apple is the same, or perhaps even worse. Snow covering both cities, strong wing blowing at your face, that thrill chill all over your body. Still love the Big Apple anyway. Dancing to the cold. :p *cover mouth and giggles*

calm

My mood is a little calmer today. Like someone said, there will never be another you or you or you. Everyone is unique. No one can replace another one. So, I am thankful for each and everyone of you in my life. Maybe my feeling for one may not be as overwhelming as I felt for another one, but I can't deny that feelings still trigger and for all you know, it does matter after all. *shrug* I don't even know what I am typing now and if they even make sense. Haha... Well, I am glad the spring is here. Happy Lunar New Year everyone. I will be away to Frankfurt and New York for 9days. Will be a tiny winy bit late back home for the festive, but I know you'll wait. =)

Haven't met you, yet

Michael Buble, Haven't met you, yet.

Heaven:)

Even since yesterday, that sense of madness seems to be coming back again. The courage that used to be so unbelievable, that strong urge to believe a miracle seems to be happening anytime, soon. I can't sink myself into that mode again, I kept reminding myself. But I can't help it but to wonder if it is such that god is returning what he has taken away from me?

Maybe, I just haven't met you, yet.

Good day everyone. Should be heading to the bookstore to get some new books later. Been so long and I crave for some new inspirations. Hehe.

Love~ =)

Crazy night

Came back home this morning. It has been a great getaway to Italy. Would definitely love to visit the city again with the loved one. Now back to hometown, thinking maybe certain things didn't change after all, only to realise at this point of time, they have already changed.

Wishfully thinking portraits are always beautiful, story lines are always written specially for me, but I am wrong. I can't help it but to stir my emotions. And for moments like when you thought certain people are different from the rest, and you let your guard down, and to end up slapping your own face and to realise certain people are the same like any other one. After a whirlpool of emotions and troubled unsorted thoughts, I guess I am okay already. Some things, some people are meant to be given up in order to get emotional and mind peace. Right to say so?

Back to today, I was catching up some time with mummy, then headed out for awhile to run some errands, and to meet the unexpected. And I kept questioning myself was that an illusion? Or was that a sign from god, to make up for what I had lost? Been having too much emotions lately. Getting worked up for the slightest things, and feel like crying when listening to sad emo songs. Perhaps no one understands, and I can't bring myself to explain. It wasn't a bad month actually. I am just....lonely maybe. Been flying too much, away for too long, missing out so much, and perhaps people have already forgotten me, forgotten to say "I miss you".

Crazy night.
Ciao.

belle & roma

Time was spent visiting the famous architectures of Italy, eating pasta and pizza, indulging in red wine, tiramisu and gelato. And I just realise running outdoor in this cold weather can be so satisfying and mind calming. You get to sweat all out and you can just practically beat the cold and keep yourself warm. *applause* =)

Enough of pasta and pizza. I am missing chicken rice and mee pok dry already. =p

battle with the rain

Weather wasn't too friendly in Roma. It was a battle with the rain and the cold wind. Drenched, hungry and tired. Far away to a foreign land, and yet there are people whom I met for the first time, actually care and listen, more than the people whom I was hopeful for. Somehow it makes me feel I am still that little bit of more important than the rest. Thank you. It feels so good to know there are people paying attention to you and actually bother a lot about your feelings and well-being.

I have a temper that not everyone can tolerate. I whine about the silliest things, get upset over the unnecessary matters, and get pissed off at people for maybe unexplainable reasons. But at the end of the day, I am still the Yolene that all of you know. Thank you for bearing with me.

:)

clap and dance

Working to Roma later.

*clap and dance*

=p

Lurve~

You know sometimes you really have to crack your mind and squeeze your brain juice to come up with phrases and sentences to update your facebook's status. And when you run out of ideas, perhaps it's better to keep it blank. Came across a friend's status this afternoon,

"Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give you a baby. Give her a house, she will give you a home. Give her groceries, she will give you a meal. Give her a smile and she will give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if you give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit..."

I can't help but to laugh and agree. =p

love london

I seriously think I am more suitable to live in the european gmt. 5am sg time and I am still widely awake, despite the flight delayed and hectic work earlier on. London is beautiful and cold, as usual. Had quite a bit of shopping for the loved ones and myself, and still don't feel quite enough. My internet was down for the past few days but I had a good time all to myself, roaming one of my favorite city. :) I am kind of used to the cold weather actually, sipping a tall black cafe americano from starbucks was a bonus, besides enjoying the bus rides, the crowds that I walked past, no worries, no disturbances, just smiles that kept me accompanied for the past few days. =)

And those thoughtful phone calls that I received from some people after flight were comfort to the hard 15hours of work. Thank you. Those were just what I need.:)

不小心

怎么看见他，会让我不小心的想起你。

hardwork

这世界上，很多东西都是需要努力的。
最亲的家人。
最要好的朋友。
最爱的人。
他们都需要你很努力的付出。
也许幸福不会永远，
但起码，现在的我们是在一起的。

从朋友变成情人，这种努力是不是更要加倍?

我相信这世界一定会有一个故事因为我而发生。
在这个故事里，我就是主角。=)

去一趟伦敦，也许心情会好一点。
说不定，会有意想不到的收获。

that circle

Fate that's gone, we can never have them back. Some people try so hard to find that kind of fate back, without realising it's already gone forever. Looking at some past photos, they just reminded me. I almost forgotten I was actually that happy. Like what a friend just told me. You can never be 100% happy. There's bound to be sad times. Just remember the good times, you will be a much happier person that you thought you will be. How true right? But very often, I am so forgetful. I always forget and I dwell on the sad times more. And I just have to keep remind myself to move out from that mood-stirring circle.

Tea time was at TWG cafe. It was good. Love the scones. Love the sinful desserts. Love the wide range of tea. More than you see on the SQ plane. =p

"If you claim to have feelings that you do not have, that is hypocritical. . . But if you express an act of love that is designed for the other person's benefit or pleasure, it is simple a choice." - Gary Chapman

that biscuit tin

You know we always see old people from tv, keeping their money and valuables in rusty biscuit tins. We think it's silly but somehow or rather, maybe it just sets one's mentality that our important things and memories can be well-kept and looked after inside that metal piece.

I actually have one myself too. But mine is more cutie sweetie kind. I know you want to roll your eyes now. Haha. Anyway, it's actually a forever friends biscuit tin. I kept all my neo prints and love getty inside. Out of coincidence, I opened the tin which I haven't touch for years just now. In just split moments, I retrieved so many past memories that I actually forgotten, and people whom I had accidentally forgotten. People who were once so close, how can I don't remember?

And some random condoms with the Japanese cat figuring prints. Duh... Don't ask me how they got there. And I am equally puzzled why such stuffs are in my drawer, stuffed inside my forever friends biscuit tin for years. I am not that kinky. Haha...

So, do you have an old rusty biscuit tin that you kept all your memories as well? Maybe you can start having one. Years down the road when you open it, you may discover some surprises.

:p

routine

Days have become so routine that I find no meaning to blog them down. But I am good, pretty much, still. =)

I hope you are too.

Cheers & loves. :)

the morning note

Some people are really just meant to be friends, only. No matter how many possibilities you can link up with, there are bounds to be loopholes that you can't pretend you don't mind at all. Not so generous afterall, HA.

Well, on a lighter note, Frankfurt is cold but not snowing like last month. Was searching high & low for months over Europe for my LV Noe, and everywhere else seems to be out of stocks. Yesterday headed to town to help friend to get her bags, tried my luck at LV again, popped by, hoping they would give a nod of head and tell me the good news that, "yes we have Noe!", I was once disappointed again.

London end of the month, if it isn't going to be disrupted by my standby before that, I shall hunt down the LV stores again. Can't wait for London actually. :) I miss my strawberry scones and those English breakfasts, and most importantly, the musicals and the shopping.

Pork Knuckles and Beef Goulash soup, accompanied with German Riesling, quite a delicious way to end the evening yesterday. I wonder what's up for later?... =)

Off to the gym first.
Bye Bye loves.

called UP

Called up for Frankfurt tonight.

Embracing the Europe cold and wind again.

Till tomorrow.

=)

flashes of the past

Re-organising the room, digging out at areas you thought you have forgotten, rekindle many flashes of the past. I saw my schools' report books, the stars and hearts folded nicely in bottles from admirers during the schools' days, some old photos that fell behind the cupboard, now half covered with dust, the missing earring that I always thought I have lost it, birthday cards more than a decade ago, and many more photos that bring back a lot of old fond memories.

I paused, think of the past, the good old school days, many many things I had done last time, and for a moment, I realised it has been so many years. And till then, that I felt I am actually happier in the past, somehow. I don't know why. Maybe growing up has changed me. My thoughts were less complicated, less complex in the past. I don't think so much and I have lesser worries. And now, very often I am so lost in my own thought, or maybe even in my own world too. \

I always used to think growing up is tough. Now I think growing up and getting old, seem even tougher.

strange envious

It's kind of a strange envious of a very good friend who got attached around the same time as you or maybe perhaps slightly later than you, getting emotionally engaged, probably walking down the aisle in no time with her perfect half, happily together ever after. Years of ups and downs, and still holding on strong, like a saying that goes, "no matter what happens, as long as we are together." They manage to stick to that vibe. And then you are probably left thinking, does fate decide how our stories end or continue, how many people you have to encounter to realise the missing puzzle in your life? And why sometimes you are deemed to go through much more than many others to enjoy happiness?

The journey seems unpredictable. People stay. People leave. And some who stay, change. Feelings change, hearts change. Many with different goals, different priorities, and somehow they just don't fit into your life now and they probably won't either, fit into your future. And leeching and holding on to those, are probably a waste of your time and emotions.

Just keep walking.

:)

pretty huh

Maybe I will chop and colour my hair like them...=)

Pretty huh~
=p

Let Me Shop

Paris. It was snowing. Half-embracing the cold, half too eager to shop. The heater in the room didn't seem to be working. I practically have to hover myself with blanket and walk around the room with my jacket. Cold red rashes all over my legs and I couldn't help it but to keep scratching them.

There's a sudden urge to snip my tresses away, with strong bangs, blunt cut and cool colours. Maybe I shall do it this Saturday.

I think as the days go by, people start showing true colours and I start noticing who are the real ones.
To love me dearly or just leave me alone, please.
:)

Love.

Amour

Was still packing my running shoes and gym clothes into my bag, just clicked on the web, and realised there's no gym in the Paris hotel. I have to pay Eur15 per day to go to the gym opposite the hotel. What a shame.

The weekend that just past was peaceful. Attended Gerald and Michelle's solemnization, catch up a bit with the old friends. And it's back to reality again. Going Paris tonight, the city of Love. :) One day I must climb up the tower with my Love. It may seem a little over-rated but it somehow symbolises Love.

Someone just commented 2days ago, said I love to roam around. Yeah. I love roaming around, even for nothing, no purpose, no itinerary, sipping Starbucks, eating ice cream, enjoying the wonderful breeze and scene of the world, indulging the sights in front and far ahead of me.

Can't wait for roaming in Paris.

Amour~
=)

Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship

Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship
by Bonnie Yuill

Don't be fooled by the male ego. Men look for more in a relationship than an attractive women who will cook him a good meal and wash his clothes every once in a while. What he really needs is your admiration.

He needs to communicate with you
A lot of men need to be in a relationship more than women do. Surprising? Not really, when you think about it. Women usually have close relationships with their friends. They talk about health problems until they feel better. But men don't. As Helen Fielding's character, Bridget Jones, says, 'Women have emotions and men have football.' Men are competitive and so, in general, they rarely share their emotions or problems with each other, as they think it makes them look too weak. When he needs to open up and talk about his feelings, guess who he eventually shows his vulnerable side to? You!

He wants to be your hero
Knowing that he can make someone else happy makes him feel good inside, because he has the power to change things. And what bloke doesn't secretly want power of some sort? At least if he can't always be top dog at work, he can be a star at home. Instinctively, he aspires to be Spider-Man or Superman, to be your hero, to be able to make things right: to be appreciated, to be someone's knight in shining armour. So when you are disappointed or unhappy, he feels responsible. What matters is that you are happy and then he's got one less thing to worry about. Strange but true.

He strives to make you happy
The number one reason men leave relationships is because they feel as though they can't meet their partner's needs. This makes them feel inadequate, and it makes them feel as though there's no way their partner can feel respect for them. For women, communication seems to be the top priority in keeping the relationship going but, quite honestly, men don't understand this constant need to talk about things over and over.

For men, the relationship is a success if they feel respected and if they make their partner happy. This is why a new conquest is exactly that. he feels as though he is in charge, he is once again someone's knight in shining armour.

If you resent him because you feel overworked and under-appreciated, stop doing so much, you are probably destroying your relationship! He doesn't want to feel responsible for you rushing around, worn into the carpet, and most men really don't notice whether the housework has been done or not. What they want is respect and appreciation. 'All we really want from women,' a (male) friend recently told me, 'is for you to smile at us.' (And probably one other thing, if he thought about it for longer than a millisecond.)

Sex makes him feel loved
Sex has the same effect on men as romance does on women. So the reverse is also true: no sex = no love, no approval, no acknowledgement. They get that same sad, unloved feeling that you get when you don't get flowers, your partner looks at other women or ignores you.

You are his (secret) reason for living
He needs you because you inspire him to do better, he has someone to do things for, goals to reach, a reason to go out and conquer the world. What's the point of being disgustingly rich and powerful if there's no one to share it with? What he needs is the gift of you.



Haha... Worth a thought.
:p

帮你记得

一首让我有一点小感动的MV。
也许你也该听一下。
:)

帮你记得。

Noted.

Was at Marina Keppel Bay for dinner just now. A beautiful place. Great for hanging out, sipping wine, till late, under the moonlight. :) But it isn't that accessible. You definitely need a car to go in there. Love looking at those yachts and calm sea that accompanied.

Have been down with sore throat and flu bug for the past 10days or so. I, myself feel a wee bit of irritated too. Still, thank you to all who have asked and have shown their concern. The accompany to the visit to the doctor, the pi pa gao and lozenges. The smses and calls. Much noted. :)

love just happens

Read this story somewhere....

"we got to know each other thru our handphone number... well, he was suppose to msg the girl he like but in turn he msg me..both of us were complete stranger but juz happened tt the girl's number 9xxxxxx48 and mine was 9xxxxxx84..

and we are still together after 5 long yrs..."

Sometimes....love just happens huh...

=)

sweetness after dinner

Sweetness after the dinner. :)

It's supposed to make me feel cloud-floating but my thought kept wander off to the far away dreamland.

I tell myself, I will be okay.

evening

Still have an hour before the clinic reopens again. Was tidying and packing my room, and I gave up. Only managed to settle one corner. Too much mess and random things around. And I have no idea how to handle them. Till I figure out.

Got to do a Bangkok flight tomorrow evening. A favor for Jolynn so that she can go for her exam and a favor for myself also cos she is taking my standby on 10 and I can attend Michelle's solemnization in the afternoon. Quite perfect. Hehe... =p

In need of some movies therapy. I think I already miss out quite a few good shows. And to some people, I am sorry that I flew some of your aeroplanes. Unintentionally with some intentions, but I will try to make it up.

Ever feel disappointed at people or at events in your life? There was disappointment because there was hope. Even you know there's a chance of being set into disappointment, don't give up
the chance to be hopeful. I am still trying to be very positive. Haha...

Very often we say good friends, close ones, dearest ones, even if you don't see one another often, emails, sms, phone calls do the tricks as well. They compensate the missing time with one another. But then again, ever wonder, it's just not enough if you all never meet face to face. True?
Yeah...at least for me, I think it's.

Okay...time to get change, visit mr doctor and go for dinner.

I hope your evening is good.
I am thinking.

:)

hand of love

Has 2010 been good so far? For me, I think it's still not too bad. A week of sore throat and flu, I am surviving and fighting well, still. Bravo. But I guess a visit to the clinic seems needy if they never go away. Met michy earlier on. Am so happy and excited for her little big day on sunday. A dinner together before she becomes mrs. Great catching up of the old days, present and the future. Congrats on finding the mr right. :)

Embrace~ :)

Been a week, and it hasn't recovered. Woke up umpteen times in the night to clear the throat and half-blocked nose. Quite a torture. Having breakfast now. And then it's time to prepare for work again. Coming home~ =) The sixth day into twenty ten. Maybe something good will happen. *just trying to be positive* Ha... =p

Read someone posted this on Facebook, "The price of love is your ego. The two can't co-exist. Which one do you want?"
Very true isn't it? Very often we are greedy we want both huh? And end up having nothing left. Was reading someone else's blog too and she talked about how deeply in love and how much she has sacrifice for the relationship, and still sometimes feels hurt and unappreciated. Maybe the problem isn't her, neither is all his Exes. It could be him, himself.?

I don't know. I maybe wrong. Anyway, the black coffee tastes exceptionally good today? Why huh? Maybe I shall make a 2nd cup before heading for the shower.

Have a great day everyone, be in at work, school, home or if you are out with your friends or loved ones. Remember it's a new year, not worth to be angry with people or matters, it's more worthy if you yourselves are happy and say more praises than criticisms. You will feel the day will end with a little tad of sweetness even if it has been a hard day before.

Embrace~ :)

Love.

happy endorphins

They say exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. And I totally agree! Just came back from the gym. Bumped into colleagues and friends all over. Crew room was just beside the gym and they were having a party down there. Drinking, dancing and making noises. Was running half-way and my crew came to disturb, increase the running speed tremendously on my machine. And after gym, was even dragged to drink with them. Down with flu and sore throat, plus I just exercised, efforts shouldn't be wasted huh? And yet people claimed alcohol is good for flu and sore throat? Ar...whatever.

Just had a cup of yogurt and a green apple. Feel pretty healthy still. Ready for a shower, tidy up the luggage, paint the nails, watch some drama and sleep. Ok..or maybe I should read. Hehe...

Good night!

sick belle

Fallen sick.

Sore throat, flu, cold, waking up every other hour to clear the throat and nose. It was irritating. That explains the swollen eyes. *roAR*

Milan is colder than expected. Light snow, strong wind. But the delightful part is the italian food and the Sales that was everywhere. Pasta, pizza and tiramisu, and all the big brands. Abercrombie is here too. Took a picture with one of the hunks. The body that craves every girl. Haha.

Just came back from shuttle to Barcelona. Had lunch and did a little supermarketing. Need to gym in awhile. *yawn*

milano love~

来到了米兰，还是有点小紧张。
一年没来了。
对它还是有点小偏爱。
比想象中还要寒冷的天气，真的有点震撼。
虽然感冒了，但还是觉得幸福。

米兰的怀抱，我很期待。
现在该去洗个热水澡，敷了脸，睡了美容觉。
希望我起来的时候，可以看到一瞬阳光的小意外。

=)

first flight

Ever being judge for being someone whom you are not? Very often, we tell ourselves, we tell our loved ones not to be too bothered or affected by what others have to say about you. But sometimes it just pricks that little bit still. We all have emotions and feelings. Just that don't be too carried away.

Off to my first flight of the year later, Milan. =) Haven't been there for a year. Time to breath the cold air over there. Though still not feeling exactly well, throat still irritates pretty much, I am still looking forward. =) And yet I can't wait to be back. Can't wait for the few off days to be around. And the good friend's solemnization on 10th. I have a SSS7. Need some savior.

Alright. Till Milan, I will be good.
=)

Love~

first day

I start off the new year with an ultra sore throat, and it tags along with a sexy voice. Nevertheless, I have a strong feeling it's still going to be a great year. With lots of happy surprises, delicate success and true happiness. I am hopeful you see.... Hehe... =p

A friend smsed me earlier on this afternoon. He said one of his new year resolutions is to see me. *laugh* Been years since we last met, since poly days maybe? Or maybe not so far apart. I can't exactly remember. And I was always the harder one to meet. He claimed. Ha. Well... and it seems like it all depends on me to fulfil this resolution.
*grin*

Every year we set new year resolutions for ourselves and how often do we actually follow and fulfill the targets we set for ourselves? I am so guilty of that.

Life has been good so far, but definitely it can be better. I am still enjoying life up in the air. Though some of the days can be demoralising and unmotivated, I whine and complain and bitch about how shitty some colleagues or passengers can be, there are still wonderful people around and efforts put in are made worthwhile. In the new beginning, I hope I can be more patient with myself, as well as the people around me. A lot of things can paint a different picture if I could be patient and listen to what the other party has to say, before jumping into conclusion that, that is it.

I hope I can be in better control of my own finance. Stop spurring unnecessary money on unnecessary things and start a stronger saving plan for the future. It's for my own good la huh?

Get my ass moving more often and exercise more regularly! There is a strong need for me to get shapier and the best to shed some kilo off my body. Seriously, is there a faster way? Please don't tell me diet pills or slimming salons or ask me don't eat. Haha. Ok. I shall look forward to results.

Some people think I look icy-cold or dao when they don't know me. But frankly I can't help it. I look this way lei... I will try to be a little friendlier. In case if I don't smile or I look like I can kill you with my eyes, I am sorry but this is Yolene. Ha. Love her or hate her. ;p

No more time wasting. People and things don't wait for you. I keep reminding myself.

Appreciate and treasure the people around me. Don't lose them without knowing actually they are so important to me. Life is too unpredictable for you to realise things when it all becomes too late.

What else? Maybe I will add on to the bucket list as the days and thoughts come by.

I hope it has been a great start for all of you. It doesn't matter where you are now. It doesn't matter who you are with now. Somewhere, someone out there, at some part of the world is thinking of you. And God is kind. He has planned a wonderful year ahead for each and everyone of us. There maybe hiccups along the way. But bear in mind, it's always the obstacles that make us successful at the end of the day.

So...did you just love me a little more now than before? Or did you just kinda miss me already? Haha...

Happy New Year!

Love ya all! ~

reflection

Sprained ankle, throat inflammation, and the stress from work have been pulling me down, adding some weights to my already tired-out body, mind and soul. But I suppose things will be good as the time goes. The new year is meant to be fruitful. =)

2009 has been a good year, in general. It marks the complete end of my relationship with someone who used to be very important to me. No more strings attached or left-over emotions. Had some qualities time with friends and loved ones. Made some wonderful friends, had some genuine relationships together. Work was smooth, quite. Money wasn't quite well spent though. I could have been a little more careful with my expenditures. Some time was wasted, missed opportunities and stuffs. But we all learn right?

Look forward to a greater year ahead. ;p

aussie moments

Maybe sometimes it just wasn't your day. I shall not elaborate much. Those unhappy moments shouldn't even be remembered.

Off to Sydney later evening, for some aussie moments. =)

Lost

Sometimes I wonder what's next. I don't want to waste any more minute of my life waiting, guessing or hoping for something that is not for my own good. Occasionally, I got lost. Got lost with my own emotions and thoughts. I let my thoughts run too freely at times that I don't even know which is real, which is superficial. Very often I have to draw myself back, in case I get too overboard. I reminisce the past, imagine the future. But I guess what is more important, should be the present I am in now. Be it good or bad, I am living in it. This is something I have to keep reminding myself.

Good night for now. Back to work in a couple of hours time.

=)

popiah

Received a call this afternoon, claiming I won a lucky draw from watching The Broadway Beng. I am like...okay...but I didn't take part in any? Then a loud laughter bursted out over the other end of the line.

Thank you ah...popiah ah beng!
Haha!

Was browsing the change of flight board and I saw this posting....

"My life very bad, dun offer me anything worse. i will bang wall, if u dun hear from me, means i banged wall. thanx pp! happy flying!"

Duh....
What's up with her?
*roll eyes*

merry christmas~

merry merry christmas~
I hope your christmas is filled with love.

:)

It was quite an comfort to receive those cards and small little gifts in my mailbox, after my unforgetable, drama-mama frankfurt/new york flight.
Thank you.
:)

cosy gmt+8

Frankfurt airport closed, heavy snow, delayed for 5hours on ground, diverted to Bangkok, paxing back to Singapore, it was whole lots of drama. Total tiredness. Just like that day out of New York. But whatever it is, I am back. :) Back to the cosy gmt+8. Just in time for Christmas, though I really don't mind being around in countries that snow for a white Christmas. Hee...

We have worked hard enough.

XOXO.
=p

playing with snow

Was out playing with snow.
It was hell loads of fun! :)

Was just skyping with a guy friend, and he just gave me a hell of time.
Maybe the problem lies with me. I just get agitated easily.

less than perfect

Some words being said, some actions being taken, some things being done, perhaps, maybe they shouldn't be erased. After all, they are your histories. In some ways or another, one point or another, I am sure people do mean what they have said or done. If not, why in the first place even bother to pen those thoughts down?

I guess it isn't about being the perfect icon in the other person's heart or mind. It should be more like being a less than perfect icon, so that people can all learn how to perfect one another together. Sometimes, it's the less than perfect attributes that are attractive! How irony.

Cold snowy night in Frankfurt. :)

cupcakes

Another reason why I always love New York. The minature stuffed cupcakes. Perfect for my sweet tooth. =p

cosy mood

Snow in New York seem extremely beautiful. It was too beautiful and too cold to be true. Was stuck in the plane for 5hours, waiting for de-icing of the snow. The journey from snowing New York to snowing Frankfurt seem to take forever. Frankfurt is all covered with white snow. The trees looks like Christmas trees. Looking at the state of it, I think Santa Claus is coming to town. =)

Crispy Duck Rice with Bean Spouts in the room.
Such cosy mood.
;p

frozen red apple

New York is nice but extremely cold. Starbucks was my best friend for the past 3days. American breakfast, Christmas shopping, Christmas crowds, those Christmas trees, Christmas songs and the Christmas snow. How not to heart the frozen red apple? =p

new PINK toy!

Belle and her new PINK toy!
Location~ New York City.

Love. =)

I LOVE you.

" I LOVE you 2day, 2morrow, 4ever. " Awww... Simple yet utterly sweet, especially in this cold weather of minus one degree. :) It was lightly snowing today. Pasta, pizza, spinach mushroom, haagandaz ice cream, jumbo sausage, the xmas market, gummy bears, the light-hearted mood, quite a perfect day.

All ready for NYC. =)

almost frozen

When two persons are having different goals in their life for the next few years, is it still worth being together? Maybe not? When priorities in life are not the same, maybe letting go right at the beginning is the best decision, than to feel the pain and lost in the end. Just something to ponder on, in general. :)

Anyway, I am almost frozen, at zero degree. My room seems exceptionally cold too, even with the air conditioning off. Can't wait for lunch later~ *beams*

you have been missed.

Belle has been good, and busy. =p Sleep seems like a luxury to me at times. Been trying to squeeze every possible time I have left, minus off the time working and the time spending abroad, to at least hold a decent conversation or have a proper meal together with the friends and the loved ones.

Though I never/seldom say, most of you have been missed. :)

Love from Osaka...

:)

Deserve love and loved.

Hello~ I was missing for a few days. Pretty much wanted to grab that few minutes to blog down the little events in my life for the past few days. But the new internet connection at home is really disappointing. It is not stable and I can easily get myself disconnected within minutes. I hope this will last for awhile before it dies on me again.

Life has been good, so far. No hiccups. Maybe it's also because I am looking at things differently now. To those who matters, you know who you are. =)

Happiness isn't the fruit of a day or two. It's a journey that you ought to go through, it's a blessing you have to enjoy.

Deserve love and loved. :)

Have a great weekend!

morning in Dubai

The morning in Dubai seems a little more perfect than usual. Last night mini surprise was a success. Happy Birthday dude~ =)

Captain said today has got sand storm and it's better for us to stay indoor. I guess so. Anyway, we are heading back to Singapore this evening and eventually reach tomorrow morning. I can't wait. Heh...

People who don't know you well make unnecessary remarks and comments about you. How do people actually find time to do that? Do you think I should even care? Maybe they do bother for a while. But I know my conscience is clear. And to those who truly care, I believe they are on my side. Are you?

Was blow drying my hair, thinking about it. Maybe it's a vicious cycle. Conclusion. That's it. Perhaps, the ultimate result will surface soon. And it's over, or going to be over, almost completely and totally.

Right. The food is here. My buddy for the flight is waiting for me to eat together. "I wash clean clean wait for you." What the hell... Can't believe it comes from him. Haha... Famished.

=p

dream

I just got woken by a very scary and horrible dream. I dreamt of a very fierce vampire who was going after me. I kept running. And he kept chasing. No one was there to help. He bite the left size of my face and it turned really damn ugly! ( was NEW MOON too much? no lei...ermmm...)

And worst, someone decided to leave my life, completely.

I jumped out of my bed, perpetually.

p/s: the room is freaking hot because it's winter now and there is no air conditioning, only the heater is on. i tried opening the windows, the wind was too strong to come in. what the f***!~

When life becomes a nightmare.....

at least...

I always love to hear nice things from people. Words that are sweet to the ears, maybe some are just for shows and they may not have truly meant what they said, I just adore the fact that at least they make efforts to please me. The occasional smses and calls whenever I am overseas, work like wonder dosages that keep me going before I come home. Lies or truths, maybe they aren't that important after all. At least, I am not being left alone, for too long.

@ Istanbul

I ordered American Breakfast for Dinner, (yup, since it's 24hours all round the clock and breakfast is yummy & tasty isn't it...=p), my stomach almost burst. Someone said he wishes I will grow from Abercrombie size 0 to Abercrombie size 10. That will be his Xmas's wish for the year. Such a nice and wonderful friend I have. Gave me his only wish. Bloody hell.

And someone said during work just now... "yolene you damn M.F. lei...." I was like what the hell, scold me vulgarities.. he said...M.F. = Man Fan.
*diao* *laugh~*Thank you very much lei. And people could actually call from door to door to ask if I was having earache....cos he claimed all of them were talking about how "M.F." I was at the back of the galley.

Haha...
Belle @ Istanbul.

hearty afternoon

When a place is too big and we don't know where to start, a map comes in handy. We spent the whole afternoon inside Dubai Mall. Food, shopping, random ransack of shops, Starbucks coffee and cheesecake. Quite a hearty afternoon. :)

I am not an angel. A little spoilt, a little overwhelming at times. So you think you still like belle? ransack thoughts at gmt+4 when I woke up. =p

I am weird. I think I am in love with occasional bickering with certain people. But eh...maybe it shows some level of importance. If not why I even bother that level of engery? Ha. Madness. Okay...maybe keeping up with me and my temper isn't that easy after all. Ha.

Off to Turkey laterrrr!~ Gmt+2~

Catching some rest first.

Happy Sunday peeps!
Love. =)

the journey to UAE

The queue at the terminal 3 crew check-in counter was the longest ever. It was until the entrance. I kept looking at my watch. I had only 10 minutes left. I felt like cutting queue. Telling some fellow colleagues up ahead that I was really pressed for time. But on a second thought, I thought everyone else could be rushing for time too, plus the queue was long enough to annoy and people smacked their foreheads.

Reporting was at 2140. I managed to check in at 2138. I never walked that fast before. Reached the briefing room at 2140 58 secs. Phew. I made it. Shake hands and smiled like angel. I was welcomed. Haha.

Had the most ridiculous group of middle eastern mums with their overly-pampered kids and maids in the premium class. The 7hours they gave us was hell. Mum asked me to wear socks for the son, excuse me, I am not your maid. Kids with no mannerism, maids who acted as if they were queens as well. Worst, the mums thought they were kings. Even other passengers were annoyed by the noise and the discomfort they had caused to everyone. Worse than indians. Sorry. I am that racists.

Everyone went to tap internet in the crew room once we checked in. All in uniforms, plugging in and out the cable and my this old laptop, the battery was a killer. It didn't work long. I brought my adaptor to the crew room, tapping internet while charging. Once tapped, I practically had to run back to my room in case the battery went off and the lappy shut down by itself. My friend had to run with me. Cos I carried my lappy while he carried his and held my adaptor. We were fast enough. Heh.

Was so tired. Had a pretty good rest but it never seemed enough. We had late lunch at silver eagle and I am pretty motivated to head to the gym later, since it's just on floor and 24hours operation, Hola~ =p

Time is a magic

Am eating nasi lemak, home-made winter melon soup, home-made barley. Yummy, warm and tasty dinner at home. :)

Going to be away for 7days later. It's amusing that I know many people due to my job and there are many important people in my life, but yet it's so hard to find time to come together. We always say real good friends, true loved ones don't need you to see them every time that often, occassional phone calls, smses, msn, facebook will do the trick. But I like seeing them, talking to them, in persons. I may seem very independent, but somehow I think I need quite a bit of attention. HA. Please start rolling your eyes now. Ha. Yup, that's me. Phone calls, smses are important, the time spent together are equally important. Despite quality is always better than quantity, but somehow we have to agree that, feeling does fade over time, not only to the intimate ones but also to friends. Friends drifting apart, relationships turn bland and boring. Time is a magic. Really. You will get over things and people that you initially thought were impossible.

Sometimes you just lose things, lose people, lose feelings, lose relationships, without you realising it. So.... it's good to back track la! Make sure that everyone is served. *laugh*

impressions

Osaka was nice and cosy. The people I were with, were great company. Ramen, strawberry shortcake ice cream, sushi. Drools~ =p

Going Osaka again next weekend, and am still looking forward to it. Going to be away for 7days to the middle eastern region tomorrow. Am looking into some self-improvement moments like heading to the gym, reading books, do some soul-searching and stuffs. Haha... Should be wonderful. *beams*

Was reading a quote that someone wrote..."You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."
True isn't it?
Quite impressive and I kind of like it.

You know we always have impressions of people. Some make greater impressions than others. Just when I want to perceive a good impression about certain people, I heard things and rumours which totally go against my idea. I am in no position to judge, and I thought I want to believe what I see and feel, but somehow some stuffs are just....ermmm...fishy? Maybe. It triggers me to think perhaps the sudden rush that I thought I have was temporary and it wasn't real. It was just a moment of fascinating. Haha. Oh well, rock and roll la.... That's life. Hehe... At times we just need phases like these to help us to realise and appreciate the genuine ones around us. But very often, being a little bit superficial, I tend to overlook. We all learn, right?