LAX

In Lax now. Seafood port for dinner and some beer to end the night with the guys. Now it's just perfect for bed. *grin*

Good night people. So looking forward to breakfast and shopping tomorrow.

Love, Belle~

8days later

3hours for me to sleep. Heading to Tokyo later. Am not very excited though. I can't wait to come back.

8days later~ *pout*

*yawns~* Good night!

was happy

I was so happy, cos my hair can still be up and pong pong, after struggling to tie my barely can tie up hair for almost an hour. Few hours of work only and I already felt that tired. No choice, auntie here is getting old already la... Work a little bit more I complain, stand a bit longer I will faint. Age is catching up. Haha.. And today I was especially in deep thoughts. At the crew's seat, when serving food, and even when talking to my colleagues. I couldn't be that good in multi-tasking huh? Hell, what was I thinking sial...?

Leaving on a long work trip this Saturday. I am so hoping to see Sakura along the journey. Maybe I will be lucky? Hehe...

Well, good night people. And very sweet dreams! :)

Arteastiq

Went hightea with the girls at Arteastiq that day. It was a very cosy & girly cafe , accompanied with classic english ambience, quite a perfect place to go with your girlfriends for some girlish gathering. However, I think...perhaps your man will like it as well, cos you like it ma, so he has to like it lor. Haha... so bring him one day. Hehe...

Check out their website, http://www.arteastiq.com/ and then fall in love with it! =p

Was back to training centre for SEP these 2days. Was so tired and that I almost could have fallen asleep at every corner. And the only thing to keep me awake was facebooking and msning in class. Haha.

I don't know how am I going to tie my hair later. It barely can tie up now. I want to grow my hair, so that I can have pong pong hair again. =p

Hmm....what else? Hmmm.... Oh I think guys nowadays are so much more sensitive than girls huh? Was in class and a friend messaged to ask if I wanted to have dinner together. Just because I didn't reply immediately, he claimed I was being attitude. Or could it have be really me?

Flaring up at the slightest matter, getting upset over things and people just because I thought they didn't meet my expectations, dealing with sensitive new age guys and the list goes on. I was looking and browsing through those evidences of the past, and they made me miss how everything was actually used to be. We were all admiring and appreciating one another's good sides and not blaming one another just because we didn't get the care and concern we wanted. Not that things have changed so dramatically now, not that people have changed so dramatically now, is it because we just don't know how to get along with one another anymore? And then to decide, "cannot get along ar...forget it, move on and never look back."

Moving on, and yet we still like to peep and secretly hope for some unexpected miracles.

belle thinking

I was thinking, just thinking, that our lives get so busy that we don't talk to our friends and loved ones, and perhaps sometimes we don't even have time for ourselves. And the most comfortable measures to still stay connected with one another are probably through facebook, msn and smses. When was the last time you said "I miss you" to those you really care for?

Seriously, I don't remember when was the last time I actually said it.

So, are you missing anyone right now? Or maybe you won't know what you have been missing until it arrives or you won't know how much someone or something actually meant to you until one day when you know you have completely lost it. No?

yolene-ish

Was having this casual meaningless conversation with a colleague at work earlier on. And then now, he just sent me a msg through WhatsApp, talking about the same topic again!

"honestly, you don't have the mistress look,but really got the high maintenance look lor. my 2cents worth."

*smack forehead*

ROLL EYES.

2days ago at another work trip, the set of colleagues thought I look the most bitchy of all.

Well, well, maybe it's really me la.

Some people think I don't eat at hawker centres, only dine at high-class restaurants and hotels.

Some people think I have many LV, Prada, Miu Miu and Chanel.

Some people think I have plenty of money to spend, either from my dad or their classic illusion of "yolene has a super rich and handsome boyfriend who can buy her whatever she wants."

Some people think I look (am) aloof and arrogant as if I own the world. And I don't give a damn to those unnecessary people and things around me.

And worst of all, some people even think I don't deserve to be nice to at all, just because they think I didn't treat others well. I am stuck up and as usual, like what many others commented, "yolene is super hard to please lor...."

We always choose to remember the unhappy incidents, but always forget about the kindness that people give us, and those happy occasions.
What to do? We are all human beings. Nice things are harder to remember. I so agree, cos I always remember the evil and nasty sides of people. *laugh*

I don't bother anymore. One day, or some day, someone of a greater worth will come along. Someone who doesn't need me to pretend to be someone I am not. Someone who likes me, just become I am that yolene-ish. Haha... ;p

Unrealistic expectations lead to unrealistic disappointments.
And it all boils down to what you know? Stupidity.

Manila later. Give me a good one.

20march

20 march.
saturday.
wet and rainy.
feel like sipping wine and listening to jazz or those old pop rock.
or read a book and fall asleep.
just do something, probably. =p

have a great one everyone. :)

Bless You.

Back from Melbourne. Was quite a splendid flight, minus off the "evil step mother" and some weirdos. Haha... Otherwise, it was tiring but good, with some people worth remembering. ;)

Got to hear some news about a friend's mummy. Somehow a part of me wish to be there, another part of me thinks it probably going to be so weird, especially when I am going to see certain people and friends around. I think the whole atmosphere gonna be so weird, so awkward. Moreover, things have changed, people have moved on and grew out from the past. Or is it just me that think this way? Oh well, I hope he is coping, really.

May God Bless You.

A day in Melbourne

A day in Melbourne... :)

Mel...before the summer goes away..

Leaving for melbourne tonight. Been changing away all the aussie flights for the past few months, but this time around, I decided to visit the melbourne city for once again, before the summer goes away. :)

You know it's kind of strange that you have to constantly convince yourself of the many possibilities that may arise, and then to realise every time when you are almost reaching the final destination, that this isn't the destination you want to arrive at. You don't know why, and yet you are scared when you leave that destination, you may regret. But then again, you know deep down in your heart, that's not your ultimate choice, not your ultimate destination you want to reach upon. Hell loads, too much thinking! Haha...

Fisheye madness

Fisheye madness.

Totally. ;p

Mr Teddy

Would you adopt me, please?
Mr Teddy, said. ;p

Home after 8days. Was crazily tired. Maybe I am old and fat already. This kind of lifestyle can kill me someday. Though, as much as I really love it.

A course to attend tomorrow.
I can't wait for 5.30pm, for it to be over. Ha.

You know it's so strange having to flip through albums and albums, recalling past memories, and then to begin wondering to oneself if there was love in the first place? I know it's so unnecessary but there are just times when you want to question the uncertainty. But probably now the answer isn't important anymore. Because, it's not going to make any difference. Hee. :)

I try diverting my attention to other stuffs and people in my life. And just when I thought that diversion is possible and maybe comfortable, people disappoint me or rather perhaps it's not they disappoint me, it could be me who just don't understand why certain things or certain relationships turn out in a certain dimension that probably I can't bring myself to accept.

Maybe the liking just isn't enough.
Maybe the love just isn't enough.
Maybe it's the wrong timing.
Maybe the expectations are way beyond the abilities.
Maybe it just doesn't mean to be in the first place.

And then to speculate why the hell do we still want to prove things wrong, and continue indulging in those little tiny hopes that may surface from those loopholes, secretly wishing some miracles do happen and piece every bits together to form a picture together?

Anyway, do you understand what I am writing? I am getting a little confused myself here. Haha...

Don't worry. I am perfectly fine and happy. Just that at some point of times, I get emotionally carried away and I wish I could hear from you, or maybe you, or probably even you and you.

Okay good night!

(=

(=

he said...

He said,....

"After my father passed away, everything seems to make sense. No matter how many times you fail, how hard you fall, as long as you still have your life, you can always start all over again. I had been through the lowest point in my life. Nothing can go lower than that and I never forget.

I came to Singapore at the age of 13. Straight away after I got off the plane at Changi Airport, I went to clean the bungalow at Pasir Ris resort. My mum was already there cleaning and I went over to help. Money didn't come easy. My mum said for the sake of better life and education for me, my brother and sister, everything was worth it. I was the youngest janitor you probably ever seen in schools. Even the principals were skeptical about me at such young age, doing all the work, cleaning the toilets, sweeping the roads, going through the lifestyle that an normal teenager shouldn't be leading.

Time was tough. My parents, myself and 2 siblings, we stayed in a one room flat. 5 persons squeezing and trying to live, but we all survived and somehow contented, because we are together. My family was together. That's what matters most. We often got loan sharks splashing paint at our door, knocking our doors in the middle of the night. It was the landlord who left all these trouble shit behind for us to handle. It was often nightmares, nightmares and followed by more nightmares.

I am very grateful for today. For whatever I have now. Not just my job, my car, my house but for all the incidents and events that happened in my life. If I am given a choice, I will still choose to come to Singapore again in the first place, going through the same thing again, meeting the same people in my life again. If not for all these, I wouldn't be who I am today."

Tears were stirring in his eyes.

I can't wait to see this friend in sfo again.

;)

And oH...that Mr. Tan was on my flight just now. He was going back to Singapore from San Francisco. And the most ironical part was, he was seated on my business class aisle. Hell so freaky. What can be so coincidentally?

Whatever la. Can't wait to wake up to eat.
Haha.. ..
Goodnight=)

Dongdaemun

Checked in the room at 845pm, Seoul time. I decided that I was not hungry, and neither do I want to sleep early. Changed out of my uniforms, I didn't even rest my legs, put on a jacket, took a cab, ALONE to Dongdaemun. Spent almost 3 hours there, spent some money, concluded that I was happy and contented for the night. =p

Hungry and sleepy, like right NOW!
Better sleep first.
My mask and bed is waiting for me.

I think I should see a skin doctor when I come back. Been getting all the red spots and rashes attack ever since. Yucks.!

night trail in sfo

Met the good friend last night. He drove me to a random japanese restaurant for dinner, then he brought to this night trail walk with him. It was dark, walking along the grasses and bushes, he got his mini torchlight to lighten the path as we walked. It was cold, mad darkness, you heard birds crying, the unusual serenity of the surrounding, the dark under tunnel which I thought no one would actually go there at this hour cos you wouldn't be able to see a single thing without a torchlight, and to my frankly, I was pretty scared. Haha. But I had his strong arms to guide me along the long and hypothetical path, to another amazing place he was bringing me to. =)

The view was bewildering. I saw the Golden Gate Bridge from another side of the island. I witnessed the calm and the astonishing night view of California. And at the other end of the bridge, it's San Antonio. I would so loveeeee to visit that city one day.

Actually I have more to write about, but I gotta run to prepare for work. Going back to Seoul in a while. Till I reach Seoul, I promise. ;p

Bumped into dear Joey in San Francisco.
Tell you more tomorrow.
Need to head to the bed, like very badly. *cover mouth & giggle*

ZZZZZ...

sfo!

I can't get enough of the fisheye effect, so I must show it off, with more products. Hee. =D
Just arrived San Francisco. With a tired body, injured finger, but a mind to shop later. *LOL* Already washed my uniforms and am now removing my nail polish and blogging at the same time. Trying to multi-task and oh well, it all seems to work. :) Am so going to take my time to shower and head out for a walk.

Maybe it's all destiny.
=)

fisheye

Thank you ling for helping me to develop my fisheye photos. I so love my fisheye camera, maybe slightly even more now. :)

Capture those moments of love around you. =)

BK Craze:)

Dragged myself out of the bed at 10ish in the morning, pour the cereal I bought from Christchurch in a big bowl, open the fridge, see no milk, I use soya milk instead. Scoping, munching with my half-open eyes. Showered and got my wheels moving to Pomo Centre. Spent 2hours plus there, watching some old hongkong series they were playing on their dvd player. And now, I have a fresh new set of nails. ;p

Was so hungry after the nails thingy and I so craved for Burger King okay. (don't ask me why. I just want to have a burger from Burger King. unusual craving. ha..) Knowing Mr Chua was in town, but I was late by that split second. People already "dabao" and just hop into a cab heading home, for flight later when I returned the call. He almost burst my phone while I was doing my nails and just when I was done and needed someone to eat Burger King with me, he's gone. *smack forehead*

Couldn't find Burger King near my place. I settled for Mac instead. Happy still. So much so for the little craving. =)

Leaving for Christchurh later, then to Seoul and San Francisco. Gonna be a busy and packed month ahead.

Nevertheless, welcome Marchy! Wondering what surprises you have for me. ;p

Love.

spring

今年的春天好像..... 有点不一样.

I love spring.

=)

♥

~The important thing is to not be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past & recognize that every day won't be sunny. & when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember that it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, & those stars lead you back home. ♥~

How enlightening huh? Hee...

Just drove home from work. Waiting for daddy to buy supper back for me. Isn't he sweet? In and out of love times and times, the only man who never forget to love me, the only man whom I can be very sure who will love me forever, is him.
Muacks daddy!

2cents worth

Had a nice home-cooked dinner at danny's place. Didn't know he can cook so well. Along with his friends, it was dinner followed by wine and more wine. And I was vomiting while walking home. Pretty lousy huh? Passer-bys stopped and asked if I was okay. And hey I am good at rolling eyes, someone said. Haha. Though I couldn't remember how I replied those strangers, I think probably I was rolling my eyes at that point of time. HA!

In life (my life), there are many passer-bys. And they all add on to the chapters of my life. And some passer-bys aren't really that passer-bys actually. Seriously I wish they do stay. But I am weak. I don't know how to tell. There is a phase, there seems to be an imaginery deadline. Once I bypass it, I won't be able to get it back. Like I always believe, once you miss it, it's gone forever.
也许只是那一刹那的触动，
那一瞬间的感动，
但到最后，
有些人也只会是你一辈子的好朋友。
可能庆幸它没开始，
也有可能会觉得可惜它还没开始过但却已要结束。
但心想，
不是彼此终点的两个人，
根本就不应该浪费时间。
对吧?

My 2cents worth.
=)

Super random thoughts at these hours...
I can't stand myself too! *laugh*

Off to bed.
Still have to work in the afternoon later.
Good night=p

难免还是会有那么一点伤感。

我要加油, till a day when I don't even feel a bit of grief at all.

:)

a lighter note

I don't know what's wrong with me. First it was mouth ulcers, then it was rashes and now I woke up with a phelgmy sore throat. All three not a single one recovered, and they are all together now. #$%^&*!

Called up for Jarkata turnaround tomorrow afternoon and then I will be taking a short break from work for a few days. That's a lighter note. :)

What happened when someone is so eager to see you for that 1minute, just to pass you Bonjela, because he heard (or rather read from facebook) that you have ulcers?

I was just plain ranting about my mouth ulcers and I didn't know there are people who actually take it so seriously. Or maybe he has been doing this to many other girls. Sometimes it's how they get plus point. Haha. Mean it or not, still....
Thank you. =p
Much appreciated.

I have been having red patches all over my legs and they are so itchy Someone says maybe it's eczema and it happens to people who fly a lot. Boo!

gmt+7

Heya! Pretty much awake at this hour, time checked, it's almost 2am Singapore time. I didn't catch a single wink last night. Was tossing and turning, and my stupid iphone alarm burst out real loud at 430am, i jumped out from my bed, feeling that tad little bit of disappointment, that I didn't sleep at all, and it's time for work already. To add on, I discovered 2 ulcers on my lower lips! My idiotic younger brother is horrible. He said, "jie, asked you don't kiss so hard with the guys already. you see la, now 2 ulcers." And then he went "hahahaa... I go shower le..going camp..don't ask me give you a lift to airport huh...not very on the way..." Hell, is that my brother? *laugh*

Good thing it's not long working hours just now. Managed to check in hotel pretty early, I logged on to the net, downloaded my shows, showered, read Cleo and dozed off, woke up in the evening, just nice for room service and my shows were ready. Went back to sleep again after my dinner and shows. Didn't manage to get into deep sleep though. But I don't care la. Coming back home soon, I can't wait.

Love from gmt+7
:p

momentum

It feels so strange, like when I was working non-stop consecutively for many days, I kind of enjoy the momentum and the idea of being away, away from family, friends and everyone. But when I have more than 3days in Singapore, the thought of going back to work the following day just dragged.

How's your weekend? Mine was calm, peaceful, relaxing, well spent. Having meals with people whom I haven't met for ages, talking to people whom I wanna talk to and not forgetting spending some quality time at home, even if I am lazing around, doing nothing. Highly selective. Haha. Sorry. I was just feeling pretty much anti-social for the past few days. Living in my own world, indulging in my own fantasy. Quite good actually. No disturbance. I don't have to bother or care about what others think or say about me.
Love it. =D

early birthday

Birthday came early this year.

I was granted 3 wishes.

I hope they all come true soon.

:p

too busy

Have been embracing a lot of cold weather for the past few months. Just when I was contemplating earlier on if I should make a work trip to Switzerland right after I come back from my 9days work trip from Frankfurt New York, it was a decision between extra income and the time spent in Singapore. I have decided to give it a miss eventually.

Ya... I was "too busy" to come out with a conclusion, and that's why it took me forever to even conclude such simple quotation. To think I am so busy to even reply the simplest message. Yes, I think I am very busy showering, packing stuffs, and yet trying very hard to stay very awake on the computer screen after not sleeping for 36hours, just to catch up with the people whom I deem are important in my life.

When life gets hectic, work gets busy and my mind and body get drained out, all I need is for you and you and even you, to say, I understand.

Gmt+1.

17 Again

Just finished watching "17 Again" on the HBO channel, and had a great cry over it. And.... Zac Efron is super hot. *hehehe*

Time to head to the sack. Good night!

Dancing to the cold

Happy new year and Happy valentines! How's the atmosphere in Singapore? A little miss home, a little miss to be around with the loved ones. Thank you all for the well wishes. Still get that bit of excitement receiving messages from certain names. I was frozen in Frankfurt, and now the Big Apple is the same, or perhaps even worse. Snow covering both cities, strong wing blowing at your face, that thrill chill all over your body. Still love the Big Apple anyway. Dancing to the cold. :p *cover mouth and giggles*

calm

My mood is a little calmer today. Like someone said, there will never be another you or you or you. Everyone is unique. No one can replace another one. So, I am thankful for each and everyone of you in my life. Maybe my feeling for one may not be as overwhelming as I felt for another one, but I can't deny that feelings still trigger and for all you know, it does matter after all. *shrug* I don't even know what I am typing now and if they even make sense. Haha... Well, I am glad the spring is here. Happy Lunar New Year everyone. I will be away to Frankfurt and New York for 9days. Will be a tiny winy bit late back home for the festive, but I know you'll wait. =)

Haven't met you, yet

Michael Buble, Haven't met you, yet.

Heaven:)

Even since yesterday, that sense of madness seems to be coming back again. The courage that used to be so unbelievable, that strong urge to believe a miracle seems to be happening anytime, soon. I can't sink myself into that mode again, I kept reminding myself. But I can't help it but to wonder if it is such that god is returning what he has taken away from me?

Maybe, I just haven't met you, yet.

Good day everyone. Should be heading to the bookstore to get some new books later. Been so long and I crave for some new inspirations. Hehe.

Love~ =)

Crazy night

Came back home this morning. It has been a great getaway to Italy. Would definitely love to visit the city again with the loved one. Now back to hometown, thinking maybe certain things didn't change after all, only to realise at this point of time, they have already changed.

Wishfully thinking portraits are always beautiful, story lines are always written specially for me, but I am wrong. I can't help it but to stir my emotions. And for moments like when you thought certain people are different from the rest, and you let your guard down, and to end up slapping your own face and to realise certain people are the same like any other one. After a whirlpool of emotions and troubled unsorted thoughts, I guess I am okay already. Some things, some people are meant to be given up in order to get emotional and mind peace. Right to say so?

Back to today, I was catching up some time with mummy, then headed out for awhile to run some errands, and to meet the unexpected. And I kept questioning myself was that an illusion? Or was that a sign from god, to make up for what I had lost? Been having too much emotions lately. Getting worked up for the slightest things, and feel like crying when listening to sad emo songs. Perhaps no one understands, and I can't bring myself to explain. It wasn't a bad month actually. I am just....lonely maybe. Been flying too much, away for too long, missing out so much, and perhaps people have already forgotten me, forgotten to say "I miss you".

Crazy night.
Ciao.

belle & roma

Time was spent visiting the famous architectures of Italy, eating pasta and pizza, indulging in red wine, tiramisu and gelato. And I just realise running outdoor in this cold weather can be so satisfying and mind calming. You get to sweat all out and you can just practically beat the cold and keep yourself warm. *applause* =)

Enough of pasta and pizza. I am missing chicken rice and mee pok dry already. =p

battle with the rain

Weather wasn't too friendly in Roma. It was a battle with the rain and the cold wind. Drenched, hungry and tired. Far away to a foreign land, and yet there are people whom I met for the first time, actually care and listen, more than the people whom I was hopeful for. Somehow it makes me feel I am still that little bit of more important than the rest. Thank you. It feels so good to know there are people paying attention to you and actually bother a lot about your feelings and well-being.

I have a temper that not everyone can tolerate. I whine about the silliest things, get upset over the unnecessary matters, and get pissed off at people for maybe unexplainable reasons. But at the end of the day, I am still the Yolene that all of you know. Thank you for bearing with me.

:)

clap and dance

Working to Roma later.

*clap and dance*

=p

Lurve~

You know sometimes you really have to crack your mind and squeeze your brain juice to come up with phrases and sentences to update your facebook's status. And when you run out of ideas, perhaps it's better to keep it blank. Came across a friend's status this afternoon,

"Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give you a baby. Give her a house, she will give you a home. Give her groceries, she will give you a meal. Give her a smile and she will give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if you give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit..."

I can't help but to laugh and agree. =p

love london

I seriously think I am more suitable to live in the european gmt. 5am sg time and I am still widely awake, despite the flight delayed and hectic work earlier on. London is beautiful and cold, as usual. Had quite a bit of shopping for the loved ones and myself, and still don't feel quite enough. My internet was down for the past few days but I had a good time all to myself, roaming one of my favorite city. :) I am kind of used to the cold weather actually, sipping a tall black cafe americano from starbucks was a bonus, besides enjoying the bus rides, the crowds that I walked past, no worries, no disturbances, just smiles that kept me accompanied for the past few days. =)

And those thoughtful phone calls that I received from some people after flight were comfort to the hard 15hours of work. Thank you. Those were just what I need.:)

不小心

怎么看见他，会让我不小心的想起你。

hardwork

这世界上，很多东西都是需要努力的。
最亲的家人。
最要好的朋友。
最爱的人。
他们都需要你很努力的付出。
也许幸福不会永远，
但起码，现在的我们是在一起的。

从朋友变成情人，这种努力是不是更要加倍?

我相信这世界一定会有一个故事因为我而发生。
在这个故事里，我就是主角。=)

去一趟伦敦，也许心情会好一点。
说不定，会有意想不到的收获。

that circle

Fate that's gone, we can never have them back. Some people try so hard to find that kind of fate back, without realising it's already gone forever. Looking at some past photos, they just reminded me. I almost forgotten I was actually that happy. Like what a friend just told me. You can never be 100% happy. There's bound to be sad times. Just remember the good times, you will be a much happier person that you thought you will be. How true right? But very often, I am so forgetful. I always forget and I dwell on the sad times more. And I just have to keep remind myself to move out from that mood-stirring circle.

Tea time was at TWG cafe. It was good. Love the scones. Love the sinful desserts. Love the wide range of tea. More than you see on the SQ plane. =p

"If you claim to have feelings that you do not have, that is hypocritical. . . But if you express an act of love that is designed for the other person's benefit or pleasure, it is simple a choice." - Gary Chapman

that biscuit tin

You know we always see old people from tv, keeping their money and valuables in rusty biscuit tins. We think it's silly but somehow or rather, maybe it just sets one's mentality that our important things and memories can be well-kept and looked after inside that metal piece.

I actually have one myself too. But mine is more cutie sweetie kind. I know you want to roll your eyes now. Haha. Anyway, it's actually a forever friends biscuit tin. I kept all my neo prints and love getty inside. Out of coincidence, I opened the tin which I haven't touch for years just now. In just split moments, I retrieved so many past memories that I actually forgotten, and people whom I had accidentally forgotten. People who were once so close, how can I don't remember?

And some random condoms with the Japanese cat figuring prints. Duh... Don't ask me how they got there. And I am equally puzzled why such stuffs are in my drawer, stuffed inside my forever friends biscuit tin for years. I am not that kinky. Haha...

So, do you have an old rusty biscuit tin that you kept all your memories as well? Maybe you can start having one. Years down the road when you open it, you may discover some surprises.

:p

routine

Days have become so routine that I find no meaning to blog them down. But I am good, pretty much, still. =)

I hope you are too.

Cheers & loves. :)

the morning note

Some people are really just meant to be friends, only. No matter how many possibilities you can link up with, there are bounds to be loopholes that you can't pretend you don't mind at all. Not so generous afterall, HA.

Well, on a lighter note, Frankfurt is cold but not snowing like last month. Was searching high & low for months over Europe for my LV Noe, and everywhere else seems to be out of stocks. Yesterday headed to town to help friend to get her bags, tried my luck at LV again, popped by, hoping they would give a nod of head and tell me the good news that, "yes we have Noe!", I was once disappointed again.

London end of the month, if it isn't going to be disrupted by my standby before that, I shall hunt down the LV stores again. Can't wait for London actually. :) I miss my strawberry scones and those English breakfasts, and most importantly, the musicals and the shopping.

Pork Knuckles and Beef Goulash soup, accompanied with German Riesling, quite a delicious way to end the evening yesterday. I wonder what's up for later?... =)

Off to the gym first.
Bye Bye loves.

called UP

Called up for Frankfurt tonight.

Embracing the Europe cold and wind again.

Till tomorrow.

=)

flashes of the past

Re-organising the room, digging out at areas you thought you have forgotten, rekindle many flashes of the past. I saw my schools' report books, the stars and hearts folded nicely in bottles from admirers during the schools' days, some old photos that fell behind the cupboard, now half covered with dust, the missing earring that I always thought I have lost it, birthday cards more than a decade ago, and many more photos that bring back a lot of old fond memories.

I paused, think of the past, the good old school days, many many things I had done last time, and for a moment, I realised it has been so many years. And till then, that I felt I am actually happier in the past, somehow. I don't know why. Maybe growing up has changed me. My thoughts were less complicated, less complex in the past. I don't think so much and I have lesser worries. And now, very often I am so lost in my own thought, or maybe even in my own world too. \

I always used to think growing up is tough. Now I think growing up and getting old, seem even tougher.

strange envious

It's kind of a strange envious of a very good friend who got attached around the same time as you or maybe perhaps slightly later than you, getting emotionally engaged, probably walking down the aisle in no time with her perfect half, happily together ever after. Years of ups and downs, and still holding on strong, like a saying that goes, "no matter what happens, as long as we are together." They manage to stick to that vibe. And then you are probably left thinking, does fate decide how our stories end or continue, how many people you have to encounter to realise the missing puzzle in your life? And why sometimes you are deemed to go through much more than many others to enjoy happiness?

The journey seems unpredictable. People stay. People leave. And some who stay, change. Feelings change, hearts change. Many with different goals, different priorities, and somehow they just don't fit into your life now and they probably won't either, fit into your future. And leeching and holding on to those, are probably a waste of your time and emotions.

Just keep walking.

:)

pretty huh

Maybe I will chop and colour my hair like them...=)

Pretty huh~
=p