disturbed

Was trying very hard to catch some sleep before going for work later. But I kept tossing here and there, very disturbed by smses and some random thoughts. Ha... So I have decided to get up, blog my last entry before slowly going to prepare myself for work.

原本跟自己说好要让心走开，可是却还是情不自禁往向你那里走。
你应该不会知道。

Ok. Stop thinking and time to get ready! Bye bye! =)

Love.

leaving for moscow

"In the end, it'll be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."

Leaving for Moscow, Russia later. I believe it's freezing over there. But I am all equipped. My winter gears, my comfort food, my laptop, my dvds, my Jay's new album, my Cleo magazine. =)

Will be back on Tuesday's early morning.

Ciao & love. =)

a simple and sweet way to say LOVE

A simple and sweet way to say LOVE. =)

Just some random picture taken from somewhere. It isn't specially meant for me though I am secretly hoping it is. Lol...

说好的幸福呢

一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱断了 梦怨了
开始你不该信疑 一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

Jay always never disappoints me. Jay is always Jay. =)
My favourite song from his new album.
"The Promised Happiness".

去听听看。。也许会让你想起曾经说好要和你幸福的人。
去听听看。。也许你也会被感动。

heard so much

Sometimes you just heard so much from different people and you don't know who to believe. Everyone tells you things from their perspective, their side of story. But how much truth is it in there? Does it matter still anyway?

If it doesn't, I wouldn't be writing these out.

Hmmm...make sense.

Anyway I have a "battle" to fight tomorrow. An overnight indian turnaround. *roar*

Love.

remember

Came back from taipei yesterday evening. Yes. I seem to fly there a lot. The 2 days were tiring. Worked, ate, laughed, met up with friends and trying to enjoy every little bit of taipei like I always do whenever I go there.

Met a friend last night. Somehow I saw myself in him. Similar love stories, similar sorrows, similar pains and tears that look so familiar. I hope you will feel better. You will get over it, one fine day, and the day will definitely come. =)

This song keeps playing in my mind, suddenly...

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走得太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

Guys who sing & play

Went timbre just now for drinking. The gig performed by the 2 guys was really fantastic. Guys who can sing are attractive. But guys who can sing and play instruments at the same time are even more impressive.

我喜欢会唱歌的男生，可是会唱又会弹的男生更加可爱!

哈哈哈。。哈哈。。

出街

It will be a good day.

开心地出街去咯!

for the special someone

A letter for you... maybe the last letter from me to you, for now, at least.

I know you may never read this. But I still need to write it down somewhere, just for you.

To tell you the truth, it wasn't easy for the past few months. I imagined your presence, I reminisced our memories, I had buckets of tears and many sleepless nights. Many many times, I missed you so much. I tried to occupy myself with work and friends. I looked strong. I appeared non-chalent. Everyone just thought that I seem to move on very well. But it all came with a hope. A secret hope that was deep inside me that tells me that you will come back to me. The belief that you will look back when everything else settles. I dare not say it out. I dare not tell anyone. Because I know they gonna say I am stupid, silly, desperate, the ex-girlfriend whom refused to let go and blah blah blah.

There were times when I thought I can fall in love again with a new person. I tried and I failed. Just because of the secret hope, the secret belief that I kept holding inside me. I had already grieved over the lost of you for the past months. The sorrows, the bittness are too much to bear now. I think.....I don't want to fight the battle anymore. I know you have already moved on. I know you have already recovered way before me. I was the only one who was lagging behind, thinking of every single possibilty that may bring us back together.

Many times when I see you, I really so much want to hug and tell you that I miss you but I just can't do it anymore. I have lost the courage. The kind of courage that I used to have when we first started 2 years ago.

I guess it's time to stop all these. Certain things just can't go back to the original beginning. Like the one thing that you used to tell me when we just parted. You said you couldn't find any reason why we should go back to the way we were before.

Reason. Do we really need a reason to love a person?

悲伤到这里就好了。我累了。我不要在等了。

我会很好。你也会很好。

我们都会各自幸福下去。

我不会忘记你，也不会忘记曾经的我们。

希望你会找到一个比我更爱你的人。

我们就到这。。。

manchester. love.

回家的感觉真好.....

leaving on a jet plane to manchester...

Leaving for manchester later...

It should be the right choice I guess?

Why make things more complicated and only get myself more headache in the end?

So I suppose I am doing the right thing.

Confused still, I don't know what is the next rightful step to head on. Or maybe there is no such thing as what is right, what is wrong. Just believe in things that do happen.

Many many times, we just let our emotions lead us.

I have so much to say, to much to tell, but how do I?

Anyway, I hope manchester is nice. Haven't been there for more than a year.

Till then.

Love.

可能

Somehow, I don't wanna lose anyone because of another person.

可能很快就会有答案了。。。

Time for bed. It's like 4.15am over here at sydney. My first a380 flight. Not that bad. One more sector to go later before I reach home.

Good night.

Muacks & love.





还有想你。

illusion

Did my nails AGAIN today because I broke one of them onboard the other day. It is so stupid and a waste of money actually but I can't stand having a broken nail. So they are all pretty now again. Hehehe...

I am broke now. I spent like 500 over bucks on my new range of skincare just now. But I think they can last me for months. And the salesgirl she is so good at talking that you can't say no to her. There goes my money. Make sure those skincares can "woah" my skin with the after results. Hah...

Do you know the feeling of having something you wanna say but you just can't say it out? Simple, clear and precise message you wanna bring across but it just takes you tons and tons of courage to do so. How can I convince myself that everything doesn't matter? How can I convince you that there can be magical? How can I be so sure that we will be okay this time?

Sometimes I wish I can just say whatever I want to say.

Whenever I think of you, I tell myself it is just an illusion...



Love.

为我加油。

Actually I know what I really want, but can I really get what I want ultimately?

So tired, from everything.... I still can't help it but to fall into it, still.

I have been waiting for opportunities, waiting for the right time to get things back in place again. Every time when there is something to hope for, it just comes topper down.

给我勇气。

为我加油。

下雨天

Love this...

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

I do believe rainy days do make people more emotional...

Do you?

beijing

I thought I won't be going out in beijing... I was all prepared to hibernate, order room service, watch my hongkong series online and sleep all I want. Some of the girls wanted to go out, so I tagged along. Slept for 3hours after checking in, then we headed out to hunt for jade. Yes. JADE. 2 of the girls are looking for jade. So we travelled around, had Coldstones (yummy ice-cream from states so we assume the milk they use is also from states? hopefully... gee.. =p), steamboat for dinner (I smelled like a steamboat myself after coming out of the restaurant..hahah...), then to supermarket before heading back to the hotel.

It's getting cold here actually. Not very important but just a thought that comes across my mind right now. I have to wake up like super early the next morning. Tell me about it.

Certain things, certain relationships are just made to change. That includes us. Me and you and me and you and.....

Love.

flying off

Was talking to one of my friends and I told him I am flying to beijing. His response was, "wah... you don't anyhow drink milk hor!" *laugh*

Anyway, I think my PMSing is pretty bad. My mood isn't very composed.

Will be back on the 27th afternoon. Till then. =)

Love.

A380 conversion

Finally finished my A380 conversion today. I have been sleeping less than 3 hours these 2 days. The night before the 1st day of conversion, I was out to airport to pick someone then to supper together, and by the time I reached home it was already 2plus in the morning. I slept at nearly 4am and I woke up at 6ish morning. Last night, the same thing, just that I didn't go out but yet I couldn't sleep. Woke up at 6ish this morning too and my eyes were closing on me while I was driving. Drank many cups of coffee today but it didn't seem to work at all. I was like so stoned.

Reporting for beijing tomorrow's night and I am still comtemplating about certain decisions that I am going to make. What should I do to make myself don't look so stupid? What should I do to still keep some dignity to myself? What should I do if I really really want certain things? What should I do if it doesn't turn out the way I want? What should I do?

hard to come by

Those moments seem so hard to come by.

有多舍不得啊。。。

我们之间的距离，叫做信任。

enough

I have been waiting since the very first day. Till now, I am STILL always the one waiting. I have enough of it. I wanna wait no more. I have been waiting for people all my life. (okay, maybe for the 24years of my life. haha...) 不想再等了。让人家等我吧! 哈哈哈。。

记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开