Those were the days.....

Was browsing through my yahoo photo albums just a moment ago. Memories started to flow back. Most of the photos were actually taken this year but my feeling was felt as though it was quite sometimes back. Looking at my own photos, I realise my look has changed over the past 9 months. In fact I think everyone somehow look alittle bit different in each set of photos taken at different time frame though maybe the duration apart of taking the different sets of photos are not very long. What am I trying to say? I think I sound abit confusing. Haha. You know what I mean ya?

Missing all my friends. Missing all the good old times we had in school. Strangly, I'm missing the time when we had to rush for projects & the time when we had to burn mid-night oil for exams too.

Why do time have to pass so fast? Sigh.....

Those were the days.....

A Date with Jillyn

Met up with Jillyn for dinner today after like sOOOOO many years. Haha. She has grown prettier & slimmer! Jillyn babe, are you reading this? Haha. It was quite fun. We went to eat Pasta Mania at Scotts. We each ordered a plate of pasta & after that we felt that it wasn't filling & satisfying enough, so we order a small size pizza to share. Chicken & mushroom pizza. Yummy! Haha.

We went walked around after that & we took some pcitures too. We were like hiding at one corner along the 2nd level corridoor of Far East Plaza to take the pictures. So funny. Haha. Still havn't get off the kick of photography & we continued to take some more on the bus when we were on our way to Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station, using my camera fone. Haha. I love to take pictures. Capture moments with your loved ones. =)

It was a pretty enjoyable catching up session but I'm REAL sleepy now. Lol. Gotta work tmr. Sigh. Shall go for my beauty slp now! Heh. Byeeee!

Help Please!

Today's work was ok cos I really got nothing much to do. Basically just doing my own stuffs, surfing the net & slacking. Haha. But it's fine lar actually. Cos it's a friday today! Again! Haha. Always looking towards for friday. Hee.

Had an appointment with agnes for eye-brows trimming right after work. After that, I had a date with Meifang. We went shopping & dinner. Spent $$ on shopping again. Come to think of it, I am feeling alittle guilty now. :/ I need to save $$. Gotta learn how to save. Stop! Control! Resist! Save!

Well, I think I need a new image. I'm looking freaking terrible these few weeks. Don't know what got into me. I look so tired & restless. My face is dull & I feel fat when I'm not eating alot. Or mabybe I'm just too stress? I really don't know. But this has been going on for long. Arghhh... I need some help!

Jay Chou's Songs

藉口

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够随
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我

搁浅

久未放晴的天空 依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚 风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援 我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞 笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我 我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害 我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在 我睁开双眼 看着空白
忘记你对我的期待 读完了依赖 我很快就离开

Was listening to these 2 songs repeatedly just now. Just to share with you guys. They are really nice & I love them! Maybe partly it's because they are by Jay Chou. Woohoo... Haa...=)

BloGGinG

Yes. It's sOoOo common & popular now. Was browsing through my friends' blogs & friend's friends' blogs & so on. Alot of them seem to be really very "pro" in doing their blogs. I admit I'm a blog-dummy. I only know the basics. Lol.

Blogging is like a online diary. I didn't have the habit of keeping & writing a diary initially until I discovered about blogging. It creates a space for me to write down my thoughts. Daily thoughts. ( If only I'll to update my blog punctually everyday. Haha. ) =) I think it's pretty amazing as you have something for you to look back & reflect on when you are reading your own past entries.

Currently, I'm not in a hurry to learn everything about blogging. At least for now. Heh. Anyway, I'm glad that I started blogging & I guess I'm getting fonder of it more. Each day. :p

A long long time

Yuppie! As per above title, it has been a long long time since I last blogged. 2 weeks? i guess so. Just alittle bit of laziness + alittle bit of "tired"ness + alittle bit of "busy"ness to blog. Haha.

Work was rather busy last week (12sep-17sep). Amazingly. This seldom happens to me. Alot of work & things to be done but I think I still manage to juggle well. Hee.

Celebrated Emily's Bday on sun (19sep). Her bday falls on thur (23sep). Early celebration for her. Just the 2 of us. Quite fun. As usual. Met in town. Initially wanted to had our lunchs at S'pore Meritus Mandarin Hotel. The environment is cool & the food menu looks pretty gd but the prices is even more attractive. Haha. Eventually we ended up eating at a Japanese restaurant (can't remember the restaurant's name) at Paragon. Food was not bad. Very soupy & light. Make us feel so healthy. Emily's treat. Heh.

Then we went shopping after lunchs. Spend $$ again. Girls. Never get enough of clothes, earrings, bags, etc. But shopping does make me happier alittle.=) Headed down to Haagendazs at Esplanade for ice-creams. Yummy! But the scopes were small & rather expensive.

More shopping again. Lol. We both bought a bag each. After that we went Kuali for dinner. Penang food. The food was not bad too. Met some funny act cool guys there, as if thinking they were very handsome. Puke.... Shall not elaborate more. Haha...

Took some pictures. Show you guys one below. Pretty girls wor. Lolx.



Oh ya. Let me complain about something. I think I'll freeze to death one day in my office. The air-con is really killing me!!! Arghhhh....

Alright. Time for bed.

Will update again.

Good night!

So Tired... I need some Beauty Tips...

I just simply feel so tired & lethargic these few days. Don't look as good as before. Lol. What has happened? I need to regain back to my pretty face & vibrant attitude soon. Haha. Any beauty tips to share? Anyone? =)

Don't feel like typing anymore. I'll blog again when I feel & look better. Heh.

Shall go for my beauty slp now.

Sweet dreams to me!

Byeeeee!

Moodless

I feel Moodless.....

Disappointment

Some people claim that they know me very well. I find it so hilarious. Especially the person saying that doesn't even fit into my catagory of "You know me well". I don't understand you at all? Hello. Pls. As if you really know me that well.

Say what you want. I am not appreciative. I am an attention seeker. I am flirtious by nature. & what more? I don't need you to tell me how nice you are or how sweet you are to me. I am not dumb nor stupid. I am a human being & I have got feelings. I am sincerely trying all my best to treasure all my relationships with my loved ones. I know what to do. What gratitude you want from me?

You can go around telling people how much efforts you have put in & this is what you get in return. Go ahead. Yeah. If that's what you want. You are the victim & I am the villain.

I can't believe this's what I am to you & I can't deny that I am not pissed.

Disappointment.

Do you know something?

It hurts.....

A Moment of Joy

Went out with Emily today for our "usual" catching up session. Heh. The meeting today was like extremely or exceptionally nice. Orchard again. Hah. We went for unintentional shopping. Lol. I bought a top, a pair of earrings & a hairclip. Pretty satisfied. Heh. Emily got more. Haha. No la. As in she spent more den me. She got herself a dress, a tube top, a bag fr Xcessories & hmmm... That's all? Mabye. Cos that's all I can remember. Hee.

Ate Haagendazs ice-cream. The new lychee flavour. Yummy! & we paid like only 2 bucks or so per person. One for one promotion coupon fr Cleo. Cheap cheap. Heh.

Time was slow today. It was like we went to alot of places & we thought it was getting late but it wasn't. Something likes that. Get me? Maybe god wants us the best buddies to spend more time together. Haha. But the feeling was great. A moment of joy. Especially today. =)

Settled down at Bakerzin (They got a new name. Used to be called Baker's Inn) at Paragon for dinner. The food was really really nice. We ordered pizza, pasta, camomile tea, new york cheesecake & mango mousse. The waiters & the other customers must be stunned that we 2 girls could actually eat so much. Glutton. Hah.

Tonight's tuition was not very productive. I took a cab down fr Hg Mrt to my student's hse cos I was late. Hiaks. Waste my cab's fare. So sleepy throughout & the boy was not concentrating at all either. At least I tried my best to teach. It's not easy to be a tution teacher either.

Happy Teachers' Day

So nice. Pri schs, sec schs & JCs get to rest on sep 1. It has been quite a few years since I last celebrated Teachers' Day. I can still remember vividly that years back when I was in my pri & sec schs, I would always buy presents for my teachers. I bought flowers, pencil holders, cards, bottles filled with coloured sands, chocolates..... The teachers who are nicer to me would always get the better presents from me. Haha.

If I'm not wrong, I remember that we always did ACES Day Workout on Teachers' Day in pri sch. There would be teachers & some students standing on the platforms or stages to guide us with the steps. After that, we would have some talent time or concert performances for the teachers. Then when the concert ended, all the teachers and the principals would come up to the stage & cut the Teachers' Day cake, open bottles of champages together.

These are old gd memories. They are the things that you will only do when you are still very young. Who will give a damn about Lecturers' Day in poly? Lecturers' Day is definitely not a public holiday & very few students or I can say no students will go buy presents for the lecturers. Personally, I feel that this is kind of saddening but it is reality. Yeah. Reality.

Anyway, it's not easy to be a teacher & it is even tougher to be a gd teacher. Hence, teachers, you deserve a break. I mean GOOD teachers only.

Precious

Yes. Weekends are precious & precious things never last. :/

Ate Nasi Lemak for lunch than went Coffee Club for desert. Mud pie. Shared it with Mia cos the mud pie was like so big. But it was really nice lar. How to lose weight like that? Lol. Saw the Chen Hong Yu (XIao XIn from the Holland V drama) at the 7-11 near my office. Filming. Pretty charming. Woo. Haha. Went straight home right after work. No clubbing. No shopping. No anything. Yup. No life huh? Cos I got no date. So sad. Lol. Anyway, I was also too tired to go out. Been sleeping really very little & I felt so weak somehow. Moodless to do anything. Hmmm.

Saturday was better. I met up with Yingxiu for lunch. Suntec was caught with human jam. It was like so terrible. Yup. Comex 2004. Made so many people went ga-ga over it. Heh. We settled our lunch at Country Mania. The food was nice & price was gd. Haha. We ordered half grilled spring chicken with mashed potatoes & carrots as sides, salmon penne lunch set (over-baked salmon penne, cream of mushrooms soup & a glass of lemon tea) & brownie with ice-cream. Sinful. But we simply can't resist from not ordering it cos it was like only $1.99? Haha. But it was ok la. We shared. Hehe. We took some pictures. Shall post some here:








Went for tuition at 7.30pm. My legs were wobby & I was like damn tired. But to save bus fare, i still chose to walk. Heh. I took 20 min or so. From Hg Mrt Station Woo. I was like dragging & pushing myself to walk. Phew! i got there in time. It was like 7.32pm? Haha.

The boy was playful at that tuition. But he was rather cute lar. Keep complaining that he wanna slp liao, huh so many to do, can i don't do? etc. Kids are still kids. They talk kids' languages & do real silly things. I mean REAL. The boy told me that everytime when he was careless in his work, he would bang his head HARD on the table. He said he got bruises & bumps on his head sometimes. Silly boy. Haha. Oh ya. His mum bought ice-cream & my tuition susposed to end at 9pm. At ard 8.15pm he actually asked me: "Yolene jie jie... Are you going home already? If you never go back, I can't eat my ice-cream leh. Can you go home?" Wah. This xiao gui was chasing me home! Lol. Well. I was thick-skinned. I stayed put till 9pm. Haha. He also kept asking me to switch roles with him. I would sit for his exams & he would sit for my exams cos he told me his exams so difficult. Hmmm... As if he can do mine. Hai... Kids... Hee. The mum gave me an ice-cream too. Though I don't feel like taking but due to mannerism, i took. Hah.

Went out for a "date" with emily on Sunday. Haha. It had been 2 wks since we last met. Not long lar but we would meet once a wk to catch up but she was ill last wk. So yup. Heh. Starbucks for coffee. Pizza Tanglio for Pizza-Calzone (yummy!). Gusto for deserts-strawberry cheesecake for me & mixed fruits tarlet for her. So full! Chat & chat & chat alot too. 1 of our favourite hobbies. Haha. Then it was time for home sweet home.

There it gone my precious weekend... Am looking very forwards to the next one...

I want to be a mummy!

Found 2 very nice & sweet blogs.

1) http://clie.pearlpan.com

2) http://www.rock.per.sg

These 2 blogs are created by 2 married couples, specially delicated to their children. The 1st blog is a girl. Clie Pan. I think she looks really cute & sweet! I like her! Haha. Her mummy is also quite pretty. The 2nd blog is a boy. Ethan Ong. Very adorable looking & the current blog design is really nice.

Their parents are doing blogs for them so as to keep track of their growth development & personally I think the blogs will create really wonderful memories for the kids when they grow up. They are able to reflect & see what they have done during their childhood times and how much their parents love them. More and more parents are creating blogs for their children & this idea actually stimulate me to wanting to create blogs for my kids in future. Ethan's parents even have other toddlers' blogs who are also done by their parents linked to their son's blog. I think this is really cool.

I suggest that PM Lee can use these blogs to urge & encourage Singaporeans to get married & to give birth to more children. I'm smiling when I was browsing the blogs. =)

Children are gifts from god. When i looked at Clie's & Ethan's blogs, I suddenly felt that it's so great to start your very own family & having your own babies. A doting husband. Adorable kids. =) Hopefully I'll settle down at 25. Having my 1st baby at 27. Haha. Things are unpredictable. Who knows I may be someone esle's mummy before 25? Anyways, this is not the most important issue now. More important now is the Mr. Right issue. Hohohoho...

Diet?

Yeah! Today is finally THURSDAY! Looking soOoO forwards to my weekend. Hee. Well. Work is pretty routine. Boring sometimes. Should i change a job? But I'm like super lazy to go look for a new job again. Search the newspapers, surf the web, go to agencies, go for interviews & blah blah blah... The process makes me sick.

Feel like coloring my hair. But my hair's condition is like hmmm... I dunno. Heh. Maybe I should seek some advice from my hair stylist. Gonna spend $ if I really gonna do & I have been like spending really quite alot recently. When I went to update my bank-book. I got a shock. Dun dare to look at the remaining balance & the transactions. Haha. Ok la. I WANT & am DETERMINED to save $ but it's hard leh. I love shopping & there are so many temptations outside! Help!!!

Ok. The main topic for this blog's entry. Should I go on diet? Some people commented to me that I seem to put on a little bit of weight, look more tone & fit & better. Haha. I'm sad! I don't wanna put on weight. Mabye cos I frequent the gym & that's why i appear "bigger"? Alright. Diet has always been my all time favourite resolution. Some people keep asking me to eat more. Well. Are you guys simply jealous of my figure? LOl. Just kidding. I dun think I have a very good figure. I adore Fiona Xie's good figure! I wish my busts are bigger, arms are slimmer, legs are longer, thighs & calves are smaller, smaller waist, slimmer face & flatter tummy. I am like so greedy. Haha. Typical girl. Hee.

So guys, any good dieting advices, share share la? I admit. I am VAIN. =p

Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Alright. I shall update my happenings for the past few days.

20/08/2004
My Friday
Took 1/2 day leave from work. Woohoo... I was pretty happy cos i had been surfing the net in the office for the past 2 days. But when I was supposed to leave during lunch hr, Brenda gave me some quotations to ask me to update to the PC. It was quite alot but she said I could take my time. Cool. I am really taking my own sweet time to do now. No rushing. Hehe.

Well, the leave I took was because I got an interview with a kindergarden at Punggol North. I want to be a teacher? Uh huh, not really. But not sure what went into my mind that make me keep looking for a lookout for the position of a teacher in the newspapers. Anyway, talking about my interview. I got down at the wrong bus-stop. Suppose to get down at Punggol but I got down at Seng Kang. All becos of an ECON Minimart. When I called up the kindergarden to ask for the direction to the school, the teacher or whoever told me to take bus 83 & get down the bus once I see an ECON MInimart. Ok. ECON Minimart then. I saw one when the bus reached Compassvale. I was still hesitating to get down or not & hence I called up the school again & asked. She said yes. See ECON MInimart you must get down & cross the road. Alright. I did as she told. I got down. Crossed the road. I don't see BLK 105D. They were all BLK no. 200 plus & I saw Compassvale Pri Sch. Fine. I thought it may be further down the street, so I continued walking till I saw Rivervale Mall. I still couldn't find & I was already perspiring like don't know what. The sun was so blazing. How I hope I had a sunglass at that point of time. Haha. I called the school again. I guessed the girl who answered the call must have find me irritating cos I keep calling & she kept telling me to faster cos her boss gng for interview. Shortly, I managed to board another bus 83 & got down at the right bus-stop. Phew.

Punggol is pretty deserted. Like so "wu lu wu lu". Lol. I crossed the road & I finally found e kindergarden. Went in, filled up the empoyment application form & met the big boss. We had a pretty long interview. She said my faculty of studies in poly don't telly with the job scope of being a teacher. I agreed. We really had a long conversation. Talking about being a teacher, life goals & achievements & blah blah blah. She was a nice lady. She gave me some really wonderful advices. She said "Do not job-switch too much that is completely out of what you are currenty doing." I find it quite true. You may not be able to adapt & if you really regret, it will be quite hard to you to make a U-turn. She said she enjoyed talking to me & she said she found me as a very postive person. I know my goals & ambition & I got my sense of direction of what I want. Well, seriously, I was thinking in my heart, "Do I?" But I am happy with the way I presented my interviews and views to her. She also said she could see that I am a more biz person. Before that, I told her frankly that I wanted to study & she said she knew that I wouldn't stay long even if I really become one of their teachers. She said this may hurt the children's feelings as they would feel sad & a kindergarden that has a high teachers turnover rate doesn't reflect well on the kindergarden itself in the pre-sch industry. She said she can offer me relief teaching but not as a real full time teacher with them. Not sure what happened, but after the interview with her I am more sure of what I want. I don't want to be a teacher for long & even if I really wanna be one, it will not be a pre-sch teacher. I want to get myself more established & with more knowledge in the biz world. Pursing a degree in biz is undoubtful for me.

It was pouring really heavily after my interview. It created a chance for me to use my newly bought Espirit umbrella. Haha. But the rain was really big. Either the umbrella is too small or I am too big, I got drenched. Waited awhile at a nearby shelter near the kindergarden. Feel so pathetic. LOl. Rain got smaller & I took bus 82 & i got home. Rested awhile, washed my face, ate something & touched up my make-up.

Meeting Sher at Bugis Mrt Station at 4. I was late though. Guess i reached at about 4.20-4.30pm or so. Heh. We went Swensens for ice-cream. 5 scopes of ice-cream only cost you $1.39! After service charge & GST, it is only $1.60! So damn cheap! We were so happy! Haha... But the flavours were quite limited for us to choose from cos all had finished by the time we went. But nvm. The ice-cream was nice. Hee. We chatted quite abit. Tok about sch, friends & update on the happenings ard us. After that, we walked to Clark Quay cos Sher said she felt like chilling out at Brewreks. It was alright with me but just that I don't really feel like drinking & I seldom drink. Yup. We walked there. I insisted. Don't wanna waste bus or mrt fare. It is so expensive now as we no longer can buy the student concession stamps. Along the way, we settled at Funan the IT Mall for our dinner. The food court. I ate ban mian & she ate yong tao foo. She ate really little. I feel like a big eater with her. Haha. One thing i don't like about the food court is that the guys working at the stalls keep staring at us. As if they never see girls before. Should be pretty girls, to be more precise. Haha. Ok. Dinner done. We went to Brewreks. It was full. Sher worked there before & she knew the people there lar. So we jointed down our names & once they had vacant seats, they would call us. During the waiting part, we took some pictures using my digital camera. I think I looked terrible. Sleepy look & my face colour didn't look well that night. Very shortly, Brewreks called & said we got a table. Ok. We went. Take two sips of ice water. Looked at the menu. Nothing seemed to fancy us. We decided to leave but feel abit paiseh lar. But we didn't really care. Sher just told the waitress that we were not ordering anything & we were leaving. The waitress looked speechless & said, "Oh, It is ok." Of cos you have to say ok. I am not gng to stay there. Haha. So we walked down the Clark Quay street, Sher wanted to show me to the lesbians pub (i forget the name le) but it was like only 9pm. Too early for them to hang out. No where to go & so we went home. Had quite enjoyed myself. But Sher did something that really surprised me. But I am not gng to say it here. Other than that, we clique quite well. =)

My Saturday
Saturday is always a good day to sleep. Hee. I slept till 10 plus or 11 in the morning. Can't remember the exact timing. I never really slept very long cos I slept late but at least I don't have to wake up at 7 in the morning. Grinz. =p Nothing much. Woke up. Ate "brunch". Read newspapers. Watch some TV. Slack around. Head to the gym. Back. Got a new student for tuition. Primary 1 boy. He is pretty cute. Heh. Went for tuition at 7pm. Luckily dad fetched me or else I would be like too lazy to walk to the boy's house. Had my dinner at 9pm. Watch Tv again. Read Cleo. Online. Back to my beauty sleep! =)

My Sunday
Suppose to meet up with Emily but she fell sick. Got a bad sore throat. Poor girl. Ok. I was at home the whole day except in the evening I went to Hougang Mall to buy KFC with my dad. Haha. Watched SCV, read & onlining. Yup. That was my Sunday. Heh.

This is a super long entry. Haha.

Office job is BORING!

This topic spells out my thought. Haha. Office job is BORING!!! Sometimes I really got nothing to do that I can surf the internet the whole day till I don't know what else to surf already. Haha. A super slacking & stressless job. I am seldom busy. Which may be good in one sense & bad in another sense. Just some basic reception cum administrative duties. Frankly speaking, I don't think it needs a diploma holder to fulfill the responsibilities of the job. Hiaks! A waste of my talent. Lol.

Pretty determined now that I don't wish to go into the administrative line in the future when I am really out into the real working world. (This is only a temp job. Most prob studying next yr to get my degree.) I prefer jobs that are challenging & can provide me with great career opportunities and advancements. Seriously I don't think I can go far working in this office. (Though it is a german MNC) :/

I am a job-hopper! Haha. Make it sounds nicer, I wanna gain more different working experiences before I go for my studies. Of course the pay$$ wise is important but I think the process is even more imperative. Been flipping thru newspapers & browsing jobstreet. Hopefully I will be rewarded. Hehz.

Alright. I shall stop here. Going to the toilet. Haha...

Bye Bye Ngee Ann

Today is my school's graduation ceremony. I didn't go. I doubt many people will go also. If most of my friends are going, then perhaps I may consider going. Actually I find it quite pointless to go as in you suppose to reach by 0830 (the ceremony starts at 1000) to practise or rehearse the procedures and I don't think it will start on time either. Must be draggy with the Principal's speech & blah blah blah... Then after the ceremony you will proceed to some reception & yeah... After that, you will mingle around with your lecturers, schoolmates & classmates & most probably you will be bombarded with questions like "So are you currently working or studying?", "Where are you working/studying?", "Don't you intend to further your studies?", etc... Scary... Don't know why. I just hate it when people keep asking me about my future plans. Make me so paranoid. Perhaps I am just unsure of myself. Haha. Nah. I think I know myself & know what I want. I am just "occassionally" fickled-minded. Lol.

Time seems to fly sOoOoO fast. I think many people have been saying that. 3 years in Ngee Ann have gone. Today eventually marks the official end of my poly student life in Ngee Ann. No more lectures, no more tutorials, no more projects, no more common tests, no more exams, no more skipping of lectures & no more taking bus 74. Haha. I always take bus 74 to school. Now I don't take bus 74 anymore unless needed. NEL takes me to almost everywhere in the fastest time conveniently. Haha. Studying is still SO much better than working. I would say I will rather study. Really miss my school days. Hai... Sometimes I just wonder why isn't Ngee Ann offering any degree courses? If there are, I sure take up. Haha.

Bye Bye Ngee Ann! My story in you ends today. You have left me with colorful memories. I am proud to be part of Ngee Ann's history. Muacks! =p

Welcome to my Diaryland

Hello! This is my first entry. Always wanted to start my very own blog but I am just plain TOO lazy. Haha. Well, here you are to my bloggie! =p Created this blog in my office. Got TOO much free time to waste anyway. Lol. But at least I got myself started. Heh. Guess it is time for me to brush up my IT skills as well. Hmmm... Hope I don't give up half-way. Haha... Lalalalala... I am so excited. Welcome to my Diaryland~