Happy Holidays!

New York never fails to bring out the atmosphere of Xmas. This year isn't an exception either, (with the snow missing though). Merry Xmas and Happy Holidays! Let's hope 2012 end on a good note! :)

Toast and cheers

One more month to make 2012 a total memory lane. Nothing much significant had happened except for the few holidays trips of the year. Taiwan, Greece and Krabi. Brother's wedding and blah blah blah. The rest must be not so eventful that I actually couldn't recall anything else! Ha!

No new job ( cos I haven't been looking. too lazy and sheltered in the comfort zone. ), no promotion, no change in status, no achievement so as to speak. But no point in dwelling anyway. Life has to move on. For better or for worse, I always try to persuade myself towards the positive side. May Xmas end this year well and peaceful. And may the upcoming new year brings us good faith and hopes.

To a better year ahead! Toast and cheers! :)

Perhaps it's not that I don't trust people, I don't have faith in people. Probably the reality is that I am the one who don't have the trust and faith in myself.
太执着未必是一间好事. 懂得放手一搏. 或许我会发现更多的真善美.

Dreams

Some say dreams are reflections of reality. Keep having dreams last night. They seem so real. I jumped out of the bed every time. That's how traumatising they are. Lol. I couldn't sleep anymore. Decided to stay up to have an early breakfast before a long long journey back home.

May love brings us home. ;)

ME day.

Yesterday was ME day. Doing all the shopping alone, strolling the streets of London, stopping by for drinks and people watch. That was so good, totally. :)

Some people just can't be alone but I kind of like the feeling of doing all these stuffs by myself, and not having meals and shopping with colleagues you just know on the flight, just because.... you need company.

Am seriously not very keen with people who don't listen. What's the point? Maybe my age is really catching up. The boiling blood in me just keeps stirring and it gets stronger. LOL.

Women who aren't married at 30, maybe are such. I am nearing that. Super scary! Ha!

Flying to Istanbul later. Not really looking forward. Probably using these few days to do some reading, catch up on sleep and get my ass to work out in the gym. *laugh*

The family getting excited over Brother's upcoming wedding. Haha. Lots of tasks to do before the big day arrive. I am kind of excited for him too. The first one among us the 3 siblings to settle down. Happy news! ;)

Find someone who loves you more than he loves himself. How tough.

Feel like I am stressing myself out over a few things in my life right now. I need to keep calm and composed. Smooth-sailing I am not sure either. Just see what comes along. Life may just surprise you sometimes. You never know.

:) Good night!

Good night

Maybe I really shouldn't put up my emotions on the web. But it's really one of the best ways I can release my cope-up emotions immediately.

Have I been expecting too much? That's why I felt so messed up somehow. I wish for nothing but a good night sleep tonight. A real thorough complete rest without dreams and disturbance.

Good night my world. May we all wake up to a good day. :)

Can't sleep. Arghhh. Gonna work overnight & I so going to be so dead. Plus... Flying with a tyrant. Alamak! How comes it's her? When I checked last night her name wasn't there! Okay. Whatever. Have a great weekend people. I will be back on Mon's evening. Happy shopping in Narita again! Ha! Gonna try to snooze a bit still... :)

I hope real happiness come faster. I hope YOU will appear in my life soon. An union because of love & not because age is catching up. An union because happiness only increases & not decreases when we tied together.

I remain positive. :)

Last night was fun, seeing all the friends & batchmates. Everyone is doing so well, looking good and happy. I wish I am somewhere near.

Kick start

Going for another batchgirl's wedding tonight. Congrats Wendy! You look stunningly beautiful. (I saw from Facebook the pictures taken this morning.... Haha) 我也想嫁人咯! Haha... Just need to find the right man to kick start everything. Lol. Looking forward to catch up with the rest of the batchies tonight! I hope it will kick off the "Saturday Blues" that I have been having since morning.

Have a great weekend all! :)

THAT day

I hope THAT day will come soon. So that you will be officially free and happy deep inside. I don't know why but it really hurts me to see you going through what you have to go through right now. I have no freaking idea how does it feel to give up a habit that one has adopted more than a decade ago. It must have felt awful. I wish I can share half of the what you are going through now with you.

I love you.

Summer

Hello July.  You are bringing the Summer to me almost everywhere I go. I thought Paris was hot, Milan was the champ. The sun literally penetrated into my skin, I drank coke zero almost everyday. (despite the period cramps) Nevertheless, I love Summer though. Lots of colours, brightness, laughter, happy people and cold cold desserts indulgences like ice cream...:p

I don't know what's going to come next. I hope everything will fall in place soon. Be it good or bad, I am taking a leap of faith. Maybe I will be surprised by the outcome. =)

Sleepless in Sydney

Sleepless in Sydney. Jinx it.

28years and 3 months old me. I have 1year and 9 months to hit the big 3. Ambitious me I have so much in mind to accomplish by then.

Buy a property with MY NAME on it(hehehe...), save lots more money($$$$), finding a niche in my career(either to move on to a new path outside or I climb up the ladder), marry myself off to the prince charming whom I always dreamt(like those in fairytale. I hope he will appear in my life, soon. LOL).

Enough of those thoughts. Haha!

I better try to snooze for the last few hours. If not I so going to be a zombie at work later. I hope your weekend has been great thus far. Stay happy all! (:

Princess

Am I really behaving like a princess? Everything has to be the way I imagine they should be? People has to do what I think they should do if not I get upset? Should I stop being so sensitive to people and things around me? Should I just be more relax and open minded so that I would be happier?

Am I really that hard to please? I hate myself for that actually. Tantrums thrown and sometimes I really don't meant it. But too late to admit I am a bit overboard and continue to act strong-headed. Haha.. Quite an ass I know... Lol

Back to work tomorrow. London here I come! Praying for good weather and a great new month ahead!

(:

May

Greece is indeed an absolute beauty. The sun (despite getting sun-burnt), the sea, the paranomic view, the friendly and helpful Greeks, the freshest seafood, cheap beer and wine. It was kind of an adventurous journey for me. Being a scaredy cat who is afraid of heights and animals. Lol. Nevertheless, I still think I wanna go back some days. Be more brave, embrace the beauty and take more photos! Ha!

Love holidays but it's about time to tidy up the feelings and mood, and get the momentum right to go back to work. Am hoping I can be more discipline and save more money. Then... probably start thinking about the future all over again. The job, finding the one to spend the next phase of life together, settling in all the commitments. I guess it's never easy. To let go and walk out of the comfort zone, to have a fairytale love story and being happily married. Never easy. Never.

I believe god will lead the way and give me what is the best for me. Looking forward actually. :)

Dear diary

Dear diary,

You are always my best friend whenever I am down. It's a weekend and I did not have a date even though the other half is in town. 30/31 days a month, how many days are given to me? And how many days are officially mine? Even the upcoming holidays, we have to discuss through the phone and not a meet-up to plan the itineraries and book the flights and hotels together. I seriously feel something is missing.

You dislike me for flaring up so often, and I too, dislike you for smoking your health away and you always make false resolution about quitting it. I can't even see the future together because you are not creating one. Tell me what should I do diary? I am lost and confused. At my age of 28, I should move on if things didn't work out right? I don't know. Really don't know how. May god keep lighting up my path, so that I know what to do.

:)

I was randomly surfing on the web and I suddenly remembered, I do have a blog. (holy shit. how can i not remember?) I remembered those days when I blogged almost every day, talking about the events and stuffs that were happening in my life, the people whom came in and out, and practically, strawberrymelts was like my baby, my diary for years.

It has been the 4th month of 2012. And this is my first post of the year. Hi. Hi strawberrymelts! I am back. *lol* And...Hi everyone! How's everything going? Well, let me start off with myself first. I am coming to my 6th year of flying. Not too bad, just feeling a little stagnant at times, and if opportunity really comes along, why not, I may consider moving on. Have been to 2 holidays, thus far. Phuket and Taiwan. How lucky am I huh? Hehe. Am not exactly the sun and beaches person but when I stepped on the ground of Phuket, I really love it. The big blue sea, the islands, the carefree feeling while you are riding the scooter, (okay I was being pillared..:p), the yummy thai food (oh i love thai food!), and the warmth of the people. Went to another city of Taiwan, Tainan. Did a photoshoot there, whch made me feel like a celebrity for a day. And the best part, the hospitality of the Taiwanese.

And having coming so far with you, I thank you for being around by my side. Without you, I would have lost a bickering partner. Without you, I have no one to massage for me when I complaint about a long day at work. Without you, I have no one to cook for me when we are doing long flights together. (instant noodles using cookpot..haha) Without you, many many memories would not have taken place.
Thank YOU. :)

I promise to be back more often!