Friday, December 30, 2011

2 more days

2 more days to bid goodbye to 2011. It has been a relatively good year, bringing me most of the times joy and good news. And of cos, episodes of drama do happen at times. Thank you god, friends and loved ones for standing by me for this whole year. I pray for a good new year ahead for everyone, and may good news and good events keep coming in! :)

Positivity huh? Heh...

Falling in love with this lovely princess already. :p

Friday, December 02, 2011


Always love December. It spells holidays, festive seasons, pressies, weddings, a reason to meet and catch up with friends and loved ones. :)

Though the first day of the last month of the year did not exactly started off well for me, I am still pretty hopeful for that my first flight of December (Frankfurt New York) will be a happy and rewarding one.

Best news for the day though, my dearest boy cleared all his exams! Pop champagne pleaseeeee! :p

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Hope my pathetic eye will recover soon. Leaving for Hong Kong with mummy in a few hours time. Hope to come home with lots of shopping and perhaps a new perspective about life and relationship. Some things just cannot be forced right or not? (:

Good night my friends and readers.

Monday, November 14, 2011

I guess I was a little over my emotion earlier on. I should let things and nature take place by themselves. There must be a reason why things are such.

Off to nightstopping in Shanghai tomorrow then a short trip to Hong Kong with mummy! :)

Sunday, November 13, 2011


I have lived for 27 years of my life, thus far. Don't you think it's kind of pathetic when there is no one to discuss about the future together with you at this point of your life?

With a stable relationship that we are hanging on together, but I just realise there is no future to talk about a couple of hours ago. When you think I don't like kids (but I keep bringing or rather hinting about having my own children), when everyone else, peers and friends around you are moving on to a new of stage of life, but marriage isn't on your list now. And we did not have any plan about our future at all. I feel tense and a need to find out what I really want in my life.

To be with someone you really love, or have someone who is willing to have a future with you. A small humble house, with kids of my own, and the man to grow old together.

Almost 28 in a few months time. It's scary. Kind of.

I hope I will find an answer soon...

Friday, October 21, 2011


如果需要利用小动作, 才能让别人注意到你. 这样会好吗?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Can't wait for Nov 5 to be over.
Give in again. I can't help it.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


就连不开心, 也要一个人. Swallow all the bitterness ba girl. You won't want children of the future to say you are an emo freak. Like some people claim you are. Keep to yourself & stop blogging them out.

I nod.

Smile to a good day ahead!:)

忽 然 之 间

忽 然 之间 天 昏 地 暗
世 界 可 以 忽 然 什 么 都 没 有

I am disappointed, like again.


Should I move on?

A tough decision, really.

Monday, September 26, 2011

This September....

September has been a really busy month. Doing frankfurt new york consecutively, (am currently doing the 2nd one, still a couple of days away till I reach home.) I scream tiredness, like seriously. Last trip, I met Joey in frankfurt. We had pasta, pizza, spinach and ice cream, visited museum with the boy in new york, had our favorite banana pudding, chicken over rice, lobster bisque, lobster roll, lobster ravioli, alice's tea cup for breakfast, thai food in frankfurt and a whole lot of time together, though there were moments when little squabbles and tension arise, but probably he didn't know, there was always this indescribable of joy whenever I wake up from sleep, to find him sleeping next to me.

And yet, I find us not understanding each other as time goes by. Is it the love just not enough or we are not that meant to be after all? Me, being ultra sensitive maybe is an issue. Perhaps I should not have taken everything around us so seriously after all. So what if things have change? So what if feelings have change? The journey ahead of me is still way too long to predict. Lots of challenges to cope with. And who knows one day, when I look back, I would be thankful that all these incidents happened after all, and thankful that I gave us a chance to break our friendship chain and move on into a relationship. I know I have tried.


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Back from Frankfurt and New York!
Will be back for more updates!

Monday, September 12, 2011


Why is everything revolving around the word called "wait"?

Waiting for someone proclaiming to turn into a new person.

Waiting for a future that I desire but I just have to WAIT.

I begin to wonder if this is what I want.....

Like seriously...

Thursday, September 08, 2011

AMS - Life is good.!.

Life has been good. Meeting up with the girls almost every other week, work and more work, but I try to keep myself positive, by reading books, sweating out in the gym during the "i am not lazy" days, indulging in food and bubble tea. Hehe...

Am currently in Amsterdam. The weather is gloomy. Been raining yesterday and today. Had ribs yesterday and thai food today. Ribs was excellent but thai, I could get better one in SFO. Keke... Am satisfied too, cos I went gym in the morning for 1.5hours. *giggle* Didn't get any single bit thinner but yeah, good enough, that my lazy bum was off from my computer chair in the room. Hehe..

Probably going out to buy dinner in the evening, and da-bao MAC back. Haha. Am super craving for the fries. Lol.. And probably a scroll along the river and walking streets if it's not raining and not too cold.

Alright, I hope your day has been good. Can't wait to play lanterns, fly kites, drink tea and eat mooncakes on Saturday! :p

Take care all! =)

Friday, August 26, 2011

Friday night!

Friday night is spent watching tv with mummy, eating home-cooked food, drinking lychee champagne with daddy, and talking to brothers about random stuffs. Was just complaining openly on Facebook that it's boring to stay home and have no date on a friday night. But no doubt spending time at home with family is more joyous than I expected. :)

Craving for movie dates, dinners and beaches, and probably wines too! Polling day tomorrow. Still don't know which tan to vote. Okay, have a great weekend everyone!

May all of you be blessed with love, happiness and more happiness! =)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Back from Athens & Off to Dubai next

Athens is beautiful. And I am pretty much looking forward to explore the islands with him next year. Rather excited if you want to say so. Hehe...

Been hanging around with the same people, mostly girls. Haha... Lost the alluring energy I suppose. Maybe no new guys or existing guys are interested in knowing me better anymore. Lol. Oh well, with the occasionally whining and over whelming emotions, I am happy to be where I am now, to be with someone I deem the dearest to heart now.

I am scared too. Especially, when happiness and unhappiness all arise just become of one person. Sleepless nights when we ended the night with unhappy phone calls, cry alone in my room because the days apart grow longer and longer, (probably that sounds really silly and dumb. I am a 27 woman and yet I get so emotional when handling relationships. wake me up please...) Scared of being too needy...

Okay, please tell me I worried too much and I will continue to be bubbly and cheerful. :) Going Dubai for the next 5days. My bag is stored with a lot of food. Am ready to hibernate myself. Go to the gym, read my book (which I have been lacking for very long), and cook! =p Can't wait to come back. For the off days, election voting and the dearest one.

Life maybe isn't always a bed of roses, but I guess I have found that rose, that solely belongs to me, keeping me strong and hopeful for the future.
It's crazy, seriously.


Friday, August 19, 2011



Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Hate it especially when things weren't just as what you thought they would be.

Hate it when you were so looking forward in the beginning and then it just wrapped up in a way that you were disappointed once again.

Hate it when you have to go to bed like such.

Hate it, totally.

Friday, August 05, 2011


For once, I boldly dare to post picture of myself not putting a single bit of makeup on my face. All thanks to the man at the back, he always assures me that I still look pretty with or without colour. Haha... I know I may not look the best out there, but I definitely feel confident and happy just being myself, no mask on, no cover up, agreeing that sometimes flaws can be a beauty too, and most importantly, with him around to seal away my imperfection without any colour. =)

Heading to Seoul in a few hours time. Another 8days away. August is such a packed and busy month. Let's hope everything is good and I will come home in no time.

Meanwhile, please take care all! :p

Monday, August 01, 2011

Fra with batchgirls

Love doing flights with batchgirls, sharing pizza, pasta, spinach mushrooms and pork chop together. Having coffee and sinful desserts by the cafe, people watching and talking about random topics such as the best way to kill a flying mosquito. Lol... Eating takeaway chinese food in my room, sharing insightful advices about love, relationships and people of your life.

Gonna surf the net for awhile and then head to bed. Buying my new cargo bag later! And my favorite yogurtS! Hehe... Good night peeps! :p

Saturday, July 30, 2011

The mixed feelings...

I hope history never repeats.


Just that sometimes it just feels so familiar that it makes me kind of worried.

As much as how uncertain the future may deem to be, I am secretly desiring you giving me our definition of certainty.

On a lighter note, it's Frankfurt tonight with Batchgirls Cin Cin and Pammy!!!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

been awhile...

It has been quite awhile. I just came back from a really long flight this morning. Both Moscow and Houston have been crazily hot. But we managed to take a 1.5hours of cruise in Moscow, enjoying the hard to come by Summer scenery cos Moscow has always been cold whenever I visit, caught a circus play in Moscow, and wish they could have been a little kinder to those poor animals, did a little bit of shopping in Houston (more so for other people), and solved my long time IHop craving... Hehe...

You know it's incredibly delightful when I got to change to the flight. The amount of smses sent, monetary terms involved and all other hassles. No doubt being able to stay together for 9days was good, but getting along and being accommodating and forgiving towards each other's flaws and habits was a test. I know all my short comings. I get upset with stuffs that maybe other didn't agree or probably he also didn't agree. Maybe things I deem are important aren't seem that important to others and you, and vice versa. Seeing things from where each other is coming from perhaps aren't that easy after all huh..

Words that may have blurted out, without much thoughts could have been the real thing that the other party is feeling. Even when sorry always come in. Walking a journey together, embracing the storms that may come our way. I suddenly feel a little helpless.

May god lead me the way.


One more Jakarta tomorrow and I finally get to rest for 2days.
Yay. :)

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Back from Hong Kong

Back from Hong Kong, but am lazy to blog anything. *lol*...

Hope your week has been great.

Taking a little break from the cyber writing life, and I promise I will be back real soon. :)

Friday, July 08, 2011

A strange sleepless night, totally. It was that uncomfortable. :(

On a lighter note, holidays with the girls is just a day away.

Everything will be fine!

Saying a little prayer...

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

getting boring

It's getting boring here...

So, I picked a random picture taken when I was in London 2 weeks ago. Hehe...

Off to Sydney next and then to my well-deserved holidays! Mixed feelings though but aiyah, heck! It so gonna be fun with all the shopping and eating, and also not forgetting the cam whoring!

Wanna book my tickets for Transformers before they are sold out!
And then to snooze. I better... Heh.
Good night loves. :)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Paris tonight!

Heading to Paris tonight, alone. Yes, months ago when I last went, it was with the other half. Putting up in a new hotel this time round. I heard it's a relatively small boutique hotel, the company is really cutting costs huh?

Hope he get well soon. It's like almost every time, either one of us will definitely get into some sort of "trouble". Is it a sign? Or is it just coincidence? Or is it I am still thinking too much?

Shall get off to prepare for work.

I shall continue to pray for good flights, good things to happen, happy mood, and the well-beings for all the loved ones! :)

Monday, June 27, 2011


Am super thankful for the 4 off days after London, cos the standby wasn't activated and my rest was prolonged. Hehe... Weekend was spent lazing around, mostly sleeping, watching TV, eating at irregular intervals, and cycling at east coast park on the Sunday evening on a 2-men operation bike. :p I should really pluck up on that.

Eye is recovering so it's back to work again tomorrow.

Looking back on days when I was so self-centred, most of the times wanted things my way and till today, this moment, I see myself again, I actually give people a chance to talk before I comment, I listen before I flare up, I think twice before a tantrum, I go makeup-less because someone says I still look pretty like that, I don't have to be always in fancy tops and belts and sandals and I look perfectly fine in tees and birkies. I can be me without pretending.

Thank you...:)

Maybe....dreams do come true.


Saturday, June 25, 2011

Memories are such powerful weapons. They can either linger the good side with you, or haunt you right from the deepest corner in your heart.

Anyway, eye infection is confirmed. Oh gross... Have to go makeup-less for the next few days. Praying hard that my standby is safe from activation.

2 more weeks to holidays! *claps!* :p

Friday, June 24, 2011


Hello everybody!!

How's everyone doing? I just came back fr london a day ago. Had quite a bit of shopping in London and I just got a shock after checking my credit card bills online. Anyway, life has been good. Being able to eat, live, love and laugh. Lol... Caught the musical play "Wicked" in London and it was really good. Kind of tempted to pop by Kinokuniya tomorrow to get the book. Hehe...

Alright, I better snooze. My eyes are swollen. Which means... no eyelashes and eyeliner for me till recovery. That's so sad... :/ Hope miracle happens when I wake up later.

Good night people. I pray for sweet dreams for everyone. (=

Saturday, June 18, 2011

a paragraph of faith

I seem to have lost the momentum to blog down my thoughts, in which I used to do very often in the past. Skipping the details, my daily life has been pretty much the same. Watching movies, having steamboat, eating ice cream, patronizing hawker food during off days, and still living my life in a suitcase, comfortably though but am slowly losing the passion, which I don't know if the passion can ever be recovered back.

Heading over to London for a couple of days. Haven't been there for almost 6months. Should be expecting summer sales I hope. Lol... Am quite contented currently, at this moment. Gratuity and bonus coming in$$$, Hong Kong holidays in less than a month time, and still very much in love with the same person. :) Promises though not given, the future still uncertain, the picture is still blurred, I am letting god to lead me the way, to a path that is meant to be my fate.


Good night ^^

Sunday, June 12, 2011


I was randomly browsing through photos in my lappy and I so happened to chance upon this beautiful picture, snapped from Phuket, the masterpiece by Mr Lau. The sky is clear, the water is so blue, the scenery is breathe-taking, and the couple completed the picture. The kind of serendipity, I want to visit the place with you one day, just the two of us, standing at the same spot, overlooking the clear blue sky and sea, with the warmth of the sun shining at us. :)

Off to work again. This time to Auckland. Am dreading quite a bit. Will be back 4days later. So, take care all! Half of the year has gone. We still have 6 more months to make things in our life a little more perfect than previous, before a new year comes again. So, embrace and all...for the best only. :)


Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Back to reality

End of aalv. It's back to work now. Heading off to Melbourne. Had the most delicious cheesecake ever. Not cos it's all the way from New York, it's cos it's from him. :) May god bless the boy. Hope he gets well soon.

Reaching airport...:p Cya!

Saturday, June 04, 2011


Enjoying my few days of leaves though not going anywhere. No red nails, no heavy make up, don't have to put on that pretentious mask. Just sleep, eat, run my errands, meet my friends, go for tea and desserts, jogging(which I have been lackng), and rethink what I want to do next. There must be somewhere somehow at a point of time, I should move on. Move on to something out of the comfort zone.

Getting news that many friends are getting married. And am especially excited for a very good friend from my poly days that she is tying the knots too. Korea wedding photo shoot, Cartier wedding band, and her walk-in wardrobe! Pretty much like a fairytale comes true. Hehe...

Not easy to find the ONE that you want to spend the rest of your life with. I used to have found mine, but it wasn't exactly mutual eventually, so I lost it in the end. I think I no longer believe in the ONE anymore. It is more like if you can accept and accommodate the person for his temper, flaws, the goods, the not so goods, and spent the next 50 years or more of your life together. :) Sound like it. =)

One more month to official holidays! *yay!* :p

Friday, May 27, 2011

Leaving for Milan

Leaving for Milan tonight. Haven't been there for a crazy long time. And strangely, I haven't really been looking forward to it actually. Is it cos the other half isn't visiting the Italian town with me? Or is it cos I have somehow or rather, lost the passion of having the sky as my playground?

Nonetheless, am pretty much looking forward to coming home, with the few days of leaves thereafter in Singapore, going to finalise my US Visa, meet up with friends for drinks and meals, and revamp my messy room, while waiting for the other half to come home after his last New York flight.

Many of times, I find ourselves not always moving in the same direction and not always agreeing on the same answer, and yet I still want to fall for you.

Love is such crazily strange. :)

Anyway, may judgement day, brings good news. =)

Joyous... :p

Thursday, May 26, 2011

for once!

Mr Sia is kind for once! Haha.

I am super bored.

Want to go out gai gai but the weather is torturing. One moment scouting hot sun, one moment raining with thunderstorms.
Want to go out on a proper date, and yet I find no date. Lol...

Should just get a life soon, or rather, make new friends. Hehe..

Okay, time for a little bit of reading and then to bed. Say Hello to another new contract with Mr Sia! :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


How time flies!! It has been 5 years! :) May we have many many good flights in time to come, and for those who are staying, may they turn into ninja turtle soon! :p

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A grateful thought...

Back from Sydney, with errands to run tomorrow and then off to stay a night in Jakarta on Saturday. And then, the 5th birthday of Batch 872!:) It felt almost like yesterday... How time flies huh?

I should be thankful for where I am now. Having a comfortable job that provides me with the ability to enjoy slightly above average life, see the world like almost every girl's childhood dream, meeting people who fill up the gaps of my life.

Sometimes I find myself searching high and low for the right people to love me and to throw attention to me, and then to realise to a point that I actually don't have to do that. If they love you, they love you. If they care, they care from within. I feel more relieved somehow having this thought running through my mind. Am 27 and still a very long journey ahead. People I am going to meet, a new job perhaps in time to come, the dream guy I am going to marry, having my own house, starting my own family and be grateful for my past for they brought me to who I become. :)

Can't wait for May and June to be over. I am taking a little break in July, and perhaps also a good time to think what's next in life. :)

Monday, May 16, 2011

Love is even when you only have that amount of time together, you still think it's heaven. (=

Sunday, May 15, 2011

happy food

When you have nothing to do, you just eat. And eating often makes people like me, really happy. :p

Steamboat hotpot in Hong Kong. I especially love the QQ instant noodle. *slurp*

Ginseng BBQ chicken. Dinner with Ling at this newly open restaurant at Kovan. And the meat came with 2 side dishes of your choice. I chose the seasonal vegetables and olive rice. Hehe..

"Wu Xiang" and sugarcane drink at People Park's Complex Food Centre. Sometimes cheap hawker food like these tastes even better than those big restaurants.!!

I went for massage earlier on. My stiff neck and shoulder are both giving way. I was in pain for good whole 40min. The uncle exerted so much pressure on my back that I almost teared and thought it so gonna break. Now, my back came home with a big patch of blue black. Hope I will feel the result of the massage tomorrow.

In need for some serious running badly. If the back doesn't hurt tomorrow and it doesn't rain, I shall get the movement going. *keep fingers crossed* Am so craving for movies and pop corns too. Let's see who else is around... Hehe...

And I can't help it but to keep replaying this wedding video. This is so awfully sweet. The song that accompanies, is super ultra love. :)

Thursday, May 12, 2011

coming home!

Waking up in 3hours time and I still can't get myself to sleep. Shopping in Hong Kong was great. I bought many many pairs of shoes! Haha...

Hong Kong and San Francisco isn't a flight that you can do often. Your waistline will just grow side way and your pockets will just keep burning holes. *laugh*

Heading back to Singapore. Everybody back home is telling me about how hot Singapore is now. Have been away since before the voting day. Really looking forward to coming back, especially when you know you are going to hang out with your favorite people over the weekend. :)

At least, there are people who still have the urge to see me.
Thank you.

I so need that.


Wednesday, May 11, 2011

the HKG's note.

Hong Kong is blasting crowded with people and vehicles. Had a good whole evening having steamboat, drinking bubble tea, shopping and eating dessert. And yet eager looking forward to return to hotel and talk to him before I sleep. It's like after weeks of struggling with books and notes, I can officially talk to him for MORE than 5 minutes on the phone again. The tiredness that was so understandable, so do I, after moving from one gmt to another gmt all over again. I thought we could end the night on a sweet note.


I realise I am so far far far far away from perfection. I was proud. I was arrogant. I thought I would be the only girl who understands him. Tonight, I realise I am too over-confident. I thought I was very smart. I thought I know how to make everything works. But I forgot, what I want, may not be what he wants after all.

And I begin to ponder, if our shoulders are really meant for each other to lean on.

Good Night Hong Kong. I am going to sleep now. Waking up for dim sum. :)
One more day and I am coming home... :)

Monday, May 09, 2011


Decided to have Yoppi Frozen Yogurt instead of Cold Stone. It tasted extremely yummy too, with all the toppings I added like lychees, strawberries, raspberries, and mochi. Satisfied! :p

And oh I bought a new pair of running shoes. Can't wait to do more jogging and tone my flabby arms and thighs. Can't wait to go night-run with the boy. :)

Alright, time to nap. Have a really long flight to operate back to Hong Kong later.

Sunday, May 08, 2011


San Francisco is still as beautiful and windy. The Cheesecake Factory, Chinatown and the heavenly shopping streets. Bought tonics, and a couple of shopping loots. I spotted Cold Stone just now and it's just next to the hotel. Not like the one in Singapore which is always so crowded and long queue, I am so going to savour it later. Hehe. Heading back to bed again. My sleeping patten in States is always in intervals. Can't really sleep a full 8 hours. Just painted nails, and mask-ed. Waking up to a nice Sunday morning later. :)

AND...all the best to the upcoming First World Parliament, as promised I suppose. We shall see how our future will change, and how our life gets better, hopefully... =)


Friday, May 06, 2011

Afternoon in HKG

One afternoon in Hong Kong....

Embracing good weather, enjoying probably the best and smoothest soya bean curd that you can ever find, sighting at how freshly baked egg tarts look like just baking hot out from the oven, and of course to end it with the famous dessert store, xiu liu shan. :p

En routing to San Francisco later. Gonna miss the every 5 years big affair of Singapore. To all voters, please vote wisely. *giggle* I will be keeping myself updated with the news and results through the web. :)

Thursday, May 05, 2011




someone I want to annoy...

What happened when people have to keep turning to your blog to find out answers about your thoughts? But am still glad that I have found someone who apparently reads me, know me almost inside out, my blog's number 1 fan, someone who I can still pour my heart and lungs out even till today, someone whom I want to annoy for the rest of my life.

I am not sure what lies ahead. The road is long and probably may not always be smooth. Thank you for the reassurance that cures my uncertainties. And you are absolutely right, I will blog a bit before I zzzz. Lol.

Till then! Ciao... =)

Wednesday, May 04, 2011


Is it out of own will, good faith or has it unknowingly became an obligation? Oh well...

On another note, I just had one of the not so fantastic check during work. Didn't really feel very justified but hack la...

Life is getting challenging isn't it? Work, love, the environment you are living in. Continue to embrace, belle!

Till I wake up... Good luck to all the students having their stressful exams now. ESP my brother and mr Lau. (:
Please look forward to all the play and fun after the exams. Going to be over soon...:)
Eyes closing.. :p


Hello... I was trying to pack my clothes and stuffs for Hong Kong and San Francisco, to the minimum so that more shopping can fit in. Haha... The friend in SFO was saying it's still cold in the night, but I really can't be bothered. Moreover, we will be in his car. So am pretty hopeful that the trip will be fruitful and happy. :)

Sometimes you just need to find something else for you to focus on rather than narrowing your attention to only those things and people who are deemed to be in your life for the moment. What if things are gone and people leave? You will be left with minimum, but heavy burden of emotions. I should have known better. Been there done that. Would never allow myself to sink into a bottomless hole again. On a random note again. Lol. Just thought, I should be kinder to myself, be a little selfish, and think more to my own benefits. Ha..

And I got new DVD from Shanghai! Heh. Something to dwell on when you are away for 8days and all alone in the room. Hee... Alright, I shall head back to the last bit of packing. Actually there isn't a need for me to pack so early, just cos initially I thought I would have a whole day of agenda on Wednesday to fill my day and night with from the early start of the day. Change of plan, probably good too. Catch up on sleep and reading, and my self-alone time. Perfect... :)

Good night! =)

Sunday, May 01, 2011


Off to Shanghai tonight. Been almost 2 years since I last visited China. Hope the first day of May starts off right for everyone. It's a decision making month, with the polling day drawing nearer, rallies are held almost everyday now at open fields and stadiums, attracting Singaporeans to hear what plans the potential leaders have for us in the near future. This election seems exciting, but I won't be participating. Will be keeping myself updated through web and media when I am in San Francisco. Hope the pool of people who will be leading our country in the next 5 years will bring us greater qualities of life and improved policies that make Singapore a friendly country to stay in. :)

And to love, though still with occasionally annoying acts (*LAugh*), I am still feeling...
Lucky to have been where I have been.
Totally. :)

Enjoy Labour Day and the holiday tomorrow, for most people. Heh.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Hi. April hasn't been the best month, till now. Nonetheless, it was still quite eventful. Touring Switzerland (Zurich) with Mr Lau, City Plaza shopping with the girls, my first time savouring Arnold's Fried Chicken, 8days of work trip to Frankfurt and The Big Apple without Mr Lau, discovering how "ugly and shallow" some colleagues can be, understanding not everyone gives me the nod and blessing which I thought it doesn't matter anymore because I have gotten what I want :), Korean BBQ and Cold Stone ice cream with the girls, time spent together with Mr Lau, late night supper, notes-copying, standbys and more standbys, calling me up for random flights, but they coincidentally coincide with the same off days as Mr Lau, trying to give away flights for off days and till now to no avail, planning the July holidays with best friend, and the list just keeps going, and probably it's going to flow over to May.

I understand life isn't always rainbows and sunshine. As a human being, I obviously want to hear things I want to hear. But how often that's the case? Perhaps I am not mum and dad's favorite kid, not the most well-liked employee in my company, not the good friend among my different groups of friends and acquintances, not his greatest love, not an angel in this big big planet. I am still thankful for being where I am, who I am and and what I have today. Curbing emotions is a challenge, and sometimes I wonder should my life and future be led logically and or be decided by the heart?

Heading to Narita for 3days and be back for the weekend. Hope it's safe... I am still excited about Japan. The shopping and groceries! Hehe. Am positioning tonight, Ha, I can watch a movie!

Stay lovely and positive peeps. It's all in the mind. :)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Was reading through some past stuffs and memories, recalling incidents that took place, and I start to wonder why did I take so long to realise it was you? Genuine blessings, not so genuine blessings, the honesty words and advices from best friends, good friends, the people who think it's going to work, and also there are people around us who think the unity of us two is just a passing phrase of our life.

But heck la... I super like how's things are now. It's my story. :p


One best friend said, "you are always on whatsapp/phone when you are out with us. it's like your body is here but your soul is somewhere else. People called it "心不在焉". but compared to last time it's so much better now. at least now you still come out to meet us and we still see you... last time when you were with mr lim you just totally disappeared. now with mr lau, though you "心不在焉", at least your body is now here with us! Haha..."

I ponder........

Friday, April 22, 2011

good friday

Called up Melbourne tomorrow and disrupted my own rostered Melbourne on Monday. Then it's standby again and the snowballing continues.. What the hell... Was browsing through the list of working colleagues for tomorrow flight and ahah.. so much so for all the familiar names, practically more than 10 people I know, some likeable, some not so likeable, some you haven seen or talk for ages, some you are hoping you won't have to see them again, and probably who knows some may think likewise about me as well. Lol..

The most ironical part, the boy is going there a day earlier before me and probably it's like what some other people say, the mixed feeling that is struggling right within, when he returns and I am leaving, for the same destination.

What lies ahead? Keep going, belle.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

24 hours love

I love being in around in Singapore, surrounded by familiar faces, spending times with loved ones, even if it's meant watching tv and chit-chatting over random stuffs like how smart my cousin is cos he got a scholarship to the U.S., how my 5th aunt keep boasting about her 2 daughters, the chicken rice went up by 50 cents, and the vegetable seller from the market forgot about her cucumbers, (and yes, that's my mum..hehe..)

And not forgetting the boy I haven't met for many days, and his awesome family members. We had 24hours and I can't help but yearning for more. No, no.. I shouldn't be so greedy. Less is more. :)

It's Good Friday tomorrow and so happened, I am not working! Hehe.. Have a great long weekend everybody!


Monday, April 18, 2011

all at one time

All bad things come at one time, altogether. Which make you speechless sometimes, don't know who to confide to, whose shoulder is reliable for you to cry on, who can protect you, who can make you feel better.

Suddenly super miss my parents. I want to call and listen to their voices but it's like so late now in Singapore. Maybe I will do that tomorrow. They are the only persons in the world whom I know they will love me wholeheartedly even when I grow uglier, fatter, unlikeable and irritating. Haha... Thank you for such love my 2 dearest!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

a long tiring day

Had a really long tiring day being a New Yorker. Breakfast, bumping into a friend, shopping and more shopping, non stop walking, with lots of tiny adventure episodes along the way, ate my magnolia bakery red velvet cupcake, bought my banana pudding and chicken over rice. My legs almost broke and they are still aching now. I seriously need a full body plus leg massage like very badly! *hinting to mr lau... *cover mouth and giggle*

And today's weather was crazy. It was colder, like very much colder.?
Oh well...
Can't wait go come home. Am missing home terribly

Friday, April 15, 2011

New York

How is everyone doing? Has the week been going on well? I am in New York now, comfortably on my bed, waking up in awhile for breakfast and then shopping! Haha.. The weather is kind, so far. Very nice and comfortable temperature that you only need to walk from streets to streets, avenues to avenues in your light jacket, without screaming cold like how I used to in Jan when I was here.

Checking in I went for burger, chili cheese fries and milkshake. I took photo of the food using my camera, am really lazy to reach for the camera right... *lol*... will post it up probably later part of the day or another time.

After lunch, I went shopping at Victoria's Secrets for a friend's stuffs, then I started roaming around 5th Avenue for a while...

The shopping loots...

The Men's collection...

Sundress... I bought another similar one in pink but by then I was so sleepy, so I didn't put it on and snap picture of it. :)

Last but not least, my latest new spurge in Frankfurt....

A pink miu miu bow bag. :)
How love. *joyful!*

Going back for more sleep now before starting the day, right. Heh.
So take care all!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

thank you jazzy

As much as I say taking public transport is so convenient in Singapore, I seriously think I can't live without a car. I was running errands the whole day from the late morning till evening time. I travelled from East to Central, from Central one destination to another destination, then to North East. Lunch was breads, pancake and soya bean milk I bought at Paragon and they were consumed when I was driving from one place to another. Not meeting boyfriend and friends, and the whole day I was just by myself but a lot was accomplished. Get my brows and nails done, (the nails took the longest time, like 2.5hours?), had quick lunch, went to the cobbler, submitted and collected some documents from training centre, took photo for US VISA, went to the money changer, shopped for my necessities, bought my tom yum cup noodles and pocky strawberry sticks, dabao-ed dinner.... What to do without my little jazzy? :p

What a day... Haha..

Was skyping earlier on with the dear one. Realised our rosters were clashed to the max and it's actually kind of disappointing. Maybe I should just make use of these times off to do more reading which I have been lacking, exercise more and meet up with others whom I haven't been catching up with. We will still be fine, I suppose. =) Leaving for Frankfurt New York for a good 8days, I hope it's all good. :)

I was hungry and I snacked on my strawberry muesli with milk. Hehe... Pretty much really for bed now. Have a lovely week ahead peeps. Embrace all the challenges that you may face along the way, they may be tough, but trust yourselves that somehow or rather no matter how difficult a situation can be, it will eventually find its way. :)

Monday, April 11, 2011

the weekend

Off days were spent roaming Ikea, eating the classic all time favorite meatballs from the Ikea restaurant, stuffing ourselves with other sides like fish nuggets, cheese nuggets, chicken wings, fries and free flow of ice lemon tea!

Playing with baby and catching up with old friends...

And after a super early morning Bangkok turn on Sunday morning, despite the tiredness I went to catch a movie at AMK. It was quite a good show. Lots of thrill and suspense and blood.

My eyes are closing. It took me longer than usual to type this entry. I can't think anymore. My brain is officially shut off. Need to wake up early to run errands before I leave for a 8days work trip. So good night everyone. I hope your weekend was good!

Friday, April 08, 2011

A Letter to Myself

When you find yourself struggling with words, you begin to ask yourself how long is this situation going to last? Holding on to your calm, thinking before speaking a word, so that you won't create a stir out of no where. Train your own emotions so that they react logically and not chemically emotionally. (If there is such a word. Ha..)

You find yourself losing patience, losing endurance and the worst thing that anyone in a relationship will ever want to lose, love. The passion to love each other over again and again and again, the way to manage the relationship, the perseverance and tolerance levels to accept each other's shortcomings and flaws. I guess it's just in every relationship. It's not the first time you get all these vibes. You have been through the worst remember?

When you are dying wanting to see the person but you felt it wasn't reciprocate. When you thought you are actually missing the person when you have just seen each other the day before. When you have so much to say but you just find yourself shallow back your words.

Don't let emotions lead you anymore.

Jia you!

A Letter to Myself.

The Zurich's Journey again

We had a long walk along the river/lake and trees before reaching The Rhine Falls. It was quiet, peaceful, no disturbance, and made you feel at ease. And most of the times, we were spent taking pictures, with poses like the above. *grin*

That's how beautiful the waterfall is. (=

We spotted someone lying down by the lake. So relaxing and I insisted Mr Lau to capture this image. Hehe..

One day, some times down the road, I will come back to you again. :)


food excitement

Even the boy gets excited when he sees food. So do I. :)

From our Zurich's journey.

Wednesday, April 06, 2011


We visited Rhinefall, the biggest waterfall in Europe. The view was breath-taking, the weather was good, and it almost felt like another mini holiday trip with the love again. :)

Will be back for more. Zurich.