Thursday, October 30, 2008

pizza, wings and beer

Pizza, Chickem Wings and Beer always make the best friends together. =)

Somehow, I wished I was really drunk and high, so that I could don't remember things, don't remember you and just remember myself! =)

Off to work again tomorrow morning. Life goes on and on and on, even when everything esle changes. =)

Very weird... It just feels different now. Towards certain things and certain people. Or maybe it is just me. The cynical me.

And I like to make comparison between myself, people I know and some random others. Which can be so irrelevant, said by some of my friends. Hahaha...

And friends that you can really talk to, deep talking, seem very hard to come by. Or like I said, it's me. I prefer keeping certain things and thoughts to myself.

你比从前快乐,
对吧?

一种我不能给的快乐。






Thank you my lovely friend, for making me smile for this very second. =)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Just came back from Narita, Tokyo and I hurt my back while I was bending down to pick up my own luggage. Stupid right? Now I have problem turning my body to the left. That is how bad it is. The flight was....okaaaaay. A little more familiar with the new aircraft than before. But the remembering of everyone's name was quite a challenge, especially when there was a change set of crew. This morning there were like more than 30 over of us sharing the coach together to the airport. Teamwork really really counts especially working in such a big plane.

请告诉他
我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他
我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

JJ. Simple lyrics. But yet so dear to the heart. Very often the simplest thing is actually the toughest to conquer.

Love.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

you should know

The flight was a nightmare. Glad it's over. =) Life has better things to think of and care for, rather than brooding over unwanted issues.

You should know how you feel. And you should know what you want. The kind of feelings and happiness that can let you be yourself. You know it, trust me.

Love.

Friday, October 24, 2008

我们之间好像永远隔着很多很多的阻碍,让我们无法再靠近。

Thursday, October 23, 2008

花海

静止了 所有的花开
遥远了 清晰的爱
天弥漫 爱却更喜欢
那时候 我不懂 这叫爱
你喜欢 站在那窗台
你好久 都没再来
彩色的 实际让人很空白
是你流的泪晕开
不要你离开 距离隔不开
思念变成海 在窗外进不来
原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来
不要你离开 回忆花不开
请你等重来 我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂 她爱着大海
情歌被打败 爱已不存在

Hong Kong turn tomorrow. Thank you for the "wonderful" flight. Till tomorrow night then. =)

Love.

后面

喜欢走在你的后面,这样的我才会看得到原来你一直都在我的视线里。

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

that is me

I get emo like very often. Maybe that is part of me. But I want to say... I AM PERFECTLY FINE. In fact, very good. So don't have to worry about me. I know you guys care but I am still a very happy girl. Just like to get into emo thoughts that make me think and think even if I know there will not be an answer in the end. Writting or blogging down my thoughts are the best ways that I can ever think of. I talk to people but sometimes I like to be alone. I like to be all by myself. I like to keep things to myself. I have to have that little privacy in me. Something that people may not know about me, something that is only known to myself.

I enjoy the freedom of letting my thoughts run wild and emo.

Yes. This is me.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

"我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走
"



我到底输给了谁?
输给了你?
输给了自己?
输给了她?
还是输给了时间?


好难的一个问题。

Monday, October 20, 2008

Greeting from Moscow

Hi. Moscow has been great. Not that I really really lurve the place but the companies that I have with me were totally sweet? Okay. I don't exactly know what is the right word to use. Haha... But anyway, these few days I didnt go anywhere. I slept, had the famous pasta and tiramisu, listen to my Jay's songs, watched They Kissed Again 2, cooked together with the girls, girls' talk, plain relax thoughts and mind though with occasionally disturbed calls and smses. Haha... Okay... I am just kidding. I miss you guys. My favourite friends and my family. Kind of wanna see my favourite people soon. =p

Flying back in a few hours time. Internet time is running out! Bye bye!

Love. =) =)

Friday, October 17, 2008

disturbed

Was trying very hard to catch some sleep before going for work later. But I kept tossing here and there, very disturbed by smses and some random thoughts. Ha... So I have decided to get up, blog my last entry before slowly going to prepare myself for work.

原本跟自己说好要让心走开,可是却还是情不自禁往向你那里走。
你应该不会知道。

Ok. Stop thinking and time to get ready! Bye bye! =)

Love.

leaving for moscow



"In the end, it'll be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."

Leaving for Moscow, Russia later. I believe it's freezing over there. But I am all equipped. My winter gears, my comfort food, my laptop, my dvds, my Jay's new album, my Cleo magazine. =)

Will be back on Tuesday's early morning.

Ciao & love. =)

a simple and sweet way to say LOVE



A simple and sweet way to say LOVE. =)

Just some random picture taken from somewhere. It isn't specially meant for me though I am secretly hoping it is. Lol...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

说好的幸福呢

一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱断了 梦怨了
开始你不该信疑 一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

Jay always never disappoints me. Jay is always Jay. =)
My favourite song from his new album.
"The Promised Happiness".

去听听看。。也许会让你想起曾经说好要和你幸福的人。
去听听看。。也许你也会被感动。

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

heard so much

Sometimes you just heard so much from different people and you don't know who to believe. Everyone tells you things from their perspective, their side of story. But how much truth is it in there? Does it matter still anyway?

If it doesn't, I wouldn't be writing these out.

Hmmm...make sense.

Anyway I have a "battle" to fight tomorrow. An overnight indian turnaround. *roar*

Love.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

remember

Came back from taipei yesterday evening. Yes. I seem to fly there a lot. The 2 days were tiring. Worked, ate, laughed, met up with friends and trying to enjoy every little bit of taipei like I always do whenever I go there.

Met a friend last night. Somehow I saw myself in him. Similar love stories, similar sorrows, similar pains and tears that look so familiar. I hope you will feel better. You will get over it, one fine day, and the day will definitely come. =)

This song keeps playing in my mind, suddenly...

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走得太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Guys who sing & play

Went timbre just now for drinking. The gig performed by the 2 guys was really fantastic. Guys who can sing are attractive. But guys who can sing and play instruments at the same time are even more impressive.

我喜欢会唱歌的男生,可是会唱又会弹的男生更加可爱!

哈哈哈。。哈哈。。

Friday, October 10, 2008

出街



It will be a good day.

开心地出街去咯!

for the special someone

A letter for you... maybe the last letter from me to you, for now, at least.

I know you may never read this. But I still need to write it down somewhere, just for you.

To tell you the truth, it wasn't easy for the past few months. I imagined your presence, I reminisced our memories, I had buckets of tears and many sleepless nights. Many many times, I missed you so much. I tried to occupy myself with work and friends. I looked strong. I appeared non-chalent. Everyone just thought that I seem to move on very well. But it all came with a hope. A secret hope that was deep inside me that tells me that you will come back to me. The belief that you will look back when everything else settles. I dare not say it out. I dare not tell anyone. Because I know they gonna say I am stupid, silly, desperate, the ex-girlfriend whom refused to let go and blah blah blah.

There were times when I thought I can fall in love again with a new person. I tried and I failed. Just because of the secret hope, the secret belief that I kept holding inside me. I had already grieved over the lost of you for the past months. The sorrows, the bittness are too much to bear now. I think.....I don't want to fight the battle anymore. I know you have already moved on. I know you have already recovered way before me. I was the only one who was lagging behind, thinking of every single possibilty that may bring us back together.

Many times when I see you, I really so much want to hug and tell you that I miss you but I just can't do it anymore. I have lost the courage. The kind of courage that I used to have when we first started 2 years ago.

I guess it's time to stop all these. Certain things just can't go back to the original beginning. Like the one thing that you used to tell me when we just parted. You said you couldn't find any reason why we should go back to the way we were before.

Reason. Do we really need a reason to love a person?

悲伤到这里就好了。我累了。我不要在等了。

我会很好。你也会很好。

我们都会各自幸福下去。

我不会忘记你,也不会忘记曾经的我们。

希望你会找到一个比我更爱你的人。

我们就到这。。。

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Sunday, October 05, 2008

leaving on a jet plane to manchester...

Leaving for manchester later...

It should be the right choice I guess?

Why make things more complicated and only get myself more headache in the end?

So I suppose I am doing the right thing.

Confused still, I don't know what is the next rightful step to head on. Or maybe there is no such thing as what is right, what is wrong. Just believe in things that do happen.

Many many times, we just let our emotions lead us.

I have so much to say, to much to tell, but how do I?

Anyway, I hope manchester is nice. Haven't been there for more than a year.

Till then.

Love.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

可能

Somehow, I don't wanna lose anyone because of another person.

可能很快就会有答案了。。。

Time for bed. It's like 4.15am over here at sydney. My first a380 flight. Not that bad. One more sector to go later before I reach home.

Good night.

Muacks & love.





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