Sunday, December 31, 2006

Before 2006 leaves & 2007 comes,

Hi hi! Before 2006 leaves & 2007 comes, let me just say something. I'm currently in Osaka now. Just had a fulfilling New Year's dinner with the crew & pilots at the hotel. It was really cold here but I kind of like it. Love the chilly wind, dressy japaneses, yummylicious food, eye-candies cosmetic, irresistable jappy food stuffs & pretty fake eyelashes. I had a good time shopping & eating here for the 2 days. Bought lots of food stuffs & girlie stuffs. Hahaha. Hopefully I'm rostered for Singapore-Narita Tokyo-Los Angeles soon cos I heard there are even more happening stuffs to see in the town of Tokyo. Can't wait! *hehehex*

Everyone is talking about New Year's resolutions everytime when a new year is approaching. Sometimes I feel that there's no need for New Year's resolutions. When you have decided on something, just do it. (just like the nike's slogan. hehe.)

In 2007,

I gonna go back to my exercise regime again. I have been slacking my body for too long.

I want to learn to love my job even more. Come to think of it, not everyone can get the chance to fly around the world when they are still young & somemore getting paid to fly. *perks of flying* =D

I want to study hard but smart.

If time permits, I hope to pick up language's classes.

Make it a point to tidy my room every week.

A new makeover for my room for a new year. *winks*

A new laptop.

A new hairstyle for a new year. (that's why i have decided to do something about hair next week. hah. )

Learn proper cooking. *lolx*

A less complicated love life. Hopefully it gets smooth-sailing in 2007 & ever. =P

A better me.

Oh well, I can't think anymore. Like what I have said earlier, whenever you have decided on something, just do it! So see how it goes & what happens next. *grin*

Happy 2007! May 2007 be a much better year for everyone! With love. *beams*

I heart Japan!

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Less than 2 hours

I slept for like less than 2 hours & I'm leaving for flight soon.

To me, it seems worth it afterall. =)

See you. In Osaka! =P

Friday, December 29, 2006

Am I silly?

Yummy Buffet!

Watched Borat also. But I don't really like it. Anyway, my mind wasn't really there either. You know why.

I hate the feeling of sad.

I feel so silly, dumb, tired......

Osaka here I come tmr!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Turn again.

Morning! Just woke up. I wish I can sleep a bit long longer but I have a Bangkok turn later to do. Sian. Keep on doing turns. Turn until I siao. *sigh* Anyway, will be back tonight. Oh & tmr I'm going for the lunch buffet at Shangri-La The Line with Emily. *yey*

Oh & the internet is really giving me a problem. I have a hard time accessing my company's page. *grrr*

Alright. Tonight! =)

Wednesday, December 27, 2006


This year's xmas was a pretty quiet & simple one for me. Received sweet greetings, opened lovely pressies & spent quality time with people that I love & treasure.

By the way, I just did a canton turn yesterday & I only slept like 1.5hrs before the flight. After the flight, I went back home to bath & change, met the girls for dinner & updating session, then headed down to town for movie with him & gang. Caught deathnote 2. It was not bad I feel. Now then I realise actually my youngest brother has the comics. Haha. Anyway, came back home at 1am this morning & I slept at 2am till this morning 11am. I think I really need some more beauty sleep. It's really something that I have been lacking of a lot lately. Gonna call up some girlfriends to catch up later, then maybe take a small nap & probably going out alone to do some shopping. Sometimes I do love shopping alone. You have all your time to see the things you want, you are free to go anywhere, do whatever you feel like doing, & a good time for you to think about stuffs too. You know we everytime say we need to spend time with this person, that group of friends & other people, but how often do we actually spend time with our ownself?

Time really flies. 2006 will soon be a memory & 2007 will be a new beginning of our life journey. Much things happened this year for me. I had the most happening last semester in school with a group of people that I never thought I will hang out with (though we don't really keep much in touch now.), I joined the airline, started my training & began my colourful flying career, I met new people here & there, he came into my life before I even knew it, ups & downs with friends who used to be closed to my heart, much much lesser time with my family in which sometimes I was really guilty with.

I used to believe everything happened for a reason. But somethings just happened & I really couldn't understand why. Things just don't always go in our ways. Frankly, learning to accept things that happened wasn't a very easy task.

I really have no idea what does the future hold for me, for me & you, for me & him, & for me & everyone else. Somethings are just hard to let go. I believe time will tell everything.

It's time to start making new resolutions & new goals for the new year again. I will go think about it seriously. I think it's really important to know what you want rather than living each day as it is. By the way, my xmas's wish for the year, to feel happy everyday I wake up. Simple wish but I tell you, it's not easy, especially when human beings are so emotional.

Hmmm.....How long do you actually need to take to know & understand a person? I feel that I seem to have like gone through quite a bit lately. My heart seems like a rollar coaster sometimes. He claimed sometimes I think too much. Think more than I should. Maybe? Perhaps it's time to stop the ride & find solutions & ways to safe sail it.

With love.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Xmas!

I love shopping in aussie & states. So this trip to melbourne was quite a fruitful one. *wide wide smile* I bought some xmas pressies for friends, 3 dresses, a pair of legging & a pair of slippers for myself. Had good food & pretty much rest. (though I still feel tired no matter how much I sleep. hehx.)

Oh...& my plane encountered like very bad turbulence. It was like the worst turbulence that I had came across ever since I started flying. It lasted for almost half an hour. With seat-belt fastened, I still could feel that I was going to be thrown up of my seat. Plastic cups being thrown on the floor from the passengers' tray-tables, children crying, people vomitted. That was how bad it was. Frankly speaking, I was telling myself, I couldn't be so "sway" right? I just prayed to whichever god above, prayed for the safety of everyone, prayed for the plane to land safely into s'pore on the xmas's eve night.

Thank god. My prayer was answered. =)

Thank-you so much for all the lovely cards & pressies. No matter how small or how big are they, I just love the thoughts from them. (crew & friends.) I think xmas is a very special season that you can spend time with your loved ones, tell them you still remember them & how much you actually love & care for them. I feel that it doesn't matter where you go, where you are, what pressies you give or receive, it's the gesture & the thought that counts everything.

Merry xmas everyone! *big big grin*

Friday, December 22, 2006

See what happens next

Had Kushinbo buffet for dinner on Wednesday. The food was okay but it was the company that matter. Hehe.

Then went Boat Quay, then it was movie at Cineleisure, The Curse of The Golden Flower. Not a super fantastic show but the making of the movie should have costed millions with the all the golds and crystals.

Hanged out awhile around at my place here. Things seem fine now. Am just looking forwards see what happens next. *beam*

Flying off to Melbourne on Friday's night. Will be back on Xmas's Eve night. I can't wait. *grin*

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Back to Singapore

I was back yesterday's morning. Almost couldn't make it back to SG cos the aircraft encountered some technical problems before take off & we were delayed for almost 45 minutes. Good thing it flew back safely. Heh. =P

I joined the tour in Istanbul & it costed me US$106! Oh well. I think it was worth it. I got to see a lot of the significant buildings & places of Istanbul & had a nice turkish lunch meal. Oh & one of my crew's friend works in Istanbul & he was really nice to drove us around & he refused to let us pay for dinner & drinks. By the way, the nightlife in Istanbul was pretty happening. Hehe.

Spent the last night of my this flight pattern in Dubai & we had a really nice Dubai local food at this small restaurant. Yummy!

Will post some photos taken during my trip up soon. =)

Met up with Michelle & Yingxiu yesterday for dinner at Crystal Jade cos I was really craving for chinese food. Had my plate of fried rice with a handsome amount of chilli. *feeling real satisfied* *grin* Before going back, we each had a piece of sinfully delicious cheesecake at Coffee Bean. =D

I met up with Emily today. She is now permenantly back in Singapore. Haha. We went for lunch at Ding Tai Feng & I had pork chop fried rice. (like omg! fried rice again?! lol.) Then I went for my dental appointment, shopped around for xmas pressies & did some shopping for myself. By the way, she got me this really sweet-looking pyjamas from Victoria's Secret. Thanks babe! So far I think I have already received 2 xmas cards fr my colleagues, 1 card from a friend & a xmas pressie from her. Heh. Lastly we had dinner at Dome & it was home sweet home. It rains the whole day man. I wonder when is the rain going to stop. Looking forward to the japanese dinner buffet that I'm going to have tmr. Haha.

By the way, my new flight roster is really damn lousy. I wanna complain! Grrr. Boooo....

I CHOOSE to believe that things will work out. We will work out.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

In Dubai

Hi hi! I'm in Dubai now. The place is ok. Just that the sun is a bit blazing in the daytime but it does get much cooler when the sky gets darker. The traffic isn't very pleasing to me too. I wanted to go to the Safari Desert Tour but due to time constraint, I guess I have to do it next time. Had the famous chicken briyani which was really good & did some small shopping at the City Centre Shopping Mall. Got myself a capri, christmas cards for my batchies & some drystores from the supermarket.

Gonna go back to my room soon. Am at the Business Centre now. Flying to Istanbul later. Gonna stay 2 days there before flying to Dubai again. By the way, Dubai is 4 hrs behind S'pore & Istanbul is 6 hrs behind S'pore. I heard it gonna be pretty cold at Istanbul. Oh well, let's hope it's fun there. Probably can do some sightseeing over there or something. Heh. Oh & my steward was telling me he wanna go party at the famous partying place at Dubai when we come back to Dubai from Istanbul. I may want to check it out too. Ok. We shall see. =P

Why am I always thinking about you?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

All about.....

Was browsing through my recent past entries & I realised somehow or rather, I kept mentioning about you. You are my miracle right from the beginning. I don't deny that I do have my uncertainty & my doubt. & I'm really don't know what does the future hold for us. But I really hope this miracle is real, will last forever & beautifully. Now you know how much it meant to me. Hehe.

Till then.

Xmas is coming! *hohohoho*

Monday, December 11, 2006


I am going on a long flight to Dubai & Istanbul tmr's night. Will be back 7 days later, which is on the 18th early morning 7am. Bless me with good crew, happy passengers, safe & wonderful trip! *hipeee* =)

Someone was asking, how many people can actually find true friends? Friends are everywhere but you count with your fingers, who are the ones who really care & love you for who you are? I doubt I have a lot. How about you? But I wanna thanks those who are always there for me to listen to my bitching & ranting. I really appreciate it. I believe all human beings not only need care & love from their family & their significant others, but also the brotherhood & sisterhood kind of friendships from their true friends.

I don't often cook but I'm learning. All because of you.

I think it's really time for me to sort out my thoughts & my stuffs. Because sometimes I do really find it hard to breath..........

Sunday, December 10, 2006


Sometimes I do wonder what are promises for.

If you can't fulfil,

If you don't even try,

If you can't even be bothered,

If you don't care,

If you don't love,


I am not angry at anybody or any matter. It's just a general statement of what I feel promises are.

I think I need to start finding new purposes/goals in my life.

I want to do something different

I want to achieve something in which I will never thought I will. (I'm still thinking what's that? haha.)

I want to spend more time with my family & friends. (I know I have been neglecting some of them.)

I want to learn something new.

I want to meet more nice & fun people.

I want to be a happier girl.

I want to be me.

I want to feel loved, all over again.

Just for fun.

I thought I am supposed to be sleeping by now. I have a turnaround flight to report at 8am later.

Anyway, I was tiding some of the stuffs in my room just now & I saw some prezzies (eg. necklaces) from the past & I really couldn't remember or recall who were the people who gave them to me. That's bad huh? Does it happen to you as well? Like you just couldn't relate the prezzie to the person who gave it to you.

But of cos, most of the times I do remember who give what to me, especially the special people, my special ones. Ha. *grin*

I haven been taking photos for my past few trips. Kind of miss the times when I was pretty crazy about photo-taking. Haha. =P

So...for now.....*heh*

Just for fun. Hehe.

Good Night....

Saturday, December 09, 2006


I know I am weird. One moment I was like so unhappy with the things that was going on between us, another moment I just melted in your arms.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Standby called up

Came back from Perth on Monday's afternoon. Then Tuesday late night went to the chalet. Was on standby on Wednesday. I checked for the roster on Tuesday since morning but no new message was found. So I happily thought either I wouldn't be called up for flight or the flight cannot be so early one la. Who knows when I reached the chalet, I received a call from my dad that SIA called my house. So I faster called back to acknowledge the message & you know what? I was called up to report for a Bombay flight at 0525. I almost wanted to faint. I was at the chalet till 2plus almost 3 in the morning. Then he sent me back home, I faster packed my bag & got changed & to the airport. I didn't sleep a single wink till Wednesday's afternoon in my hotel room.

By the way, I was back like an hr or so ago.

Anyway, I clicked quite well with this leading steward during the flight. "fling". Lol. Alright. Tell you guys more next time. Haha. But I mean nothing. Really. My heart has been taken away. Since don't know when. But I really feel like giving up somehow. Cos I don't feel loved.

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了.....

Saturday, December 02, 2006


*sigh* Off days always pass so fast. Flying to Perth later & will be back on Monday's afternoon.

I wish we have more time together.....

Friday, December 01, 2006

to YOU.

At some moments I really feel like putting a stop to everything.

It's tiring.

It just hurts.

It just breaks my heart.

It just makes me cry.

But I'm still clinging on to it, with some small little hopes that things may change.

I wonder if YOU ever understand.

I wonder if YOU ever care.

I'm upset.

Because YOU just meant so much.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Jarkata again!!

Doing a Jarkata turn again later. Don't know why they keep giving me Jarkata flight. *faint*

Anyway, I'll be back home tonight & I'm looking forwards to my off day tmr & my 2 days leave on Thursday & Friday. Leaving for Perth on Saturday's night only. Hehe.

Ok. It's another boring entry. Tonight then. Ciao. =)

Monday, November 27, 2006

One night in Beijing

Beijing was much colder than I expected. Things are really cheap. Cab, japanese food, full body massage, 2 pair of jeans & room service breakfast were my indulgence in Beijing. *beams*

One sight that didn't really delight me was the beggars on the street, outside the shopping centre that I went to. There was this young boy, I think 3-4 years old kept running & following after us, just wanting some food & money. & he even refused to let us close the cab's door when we were in the cab. I was so tempted to give him some money but they advised me not. Cos if I gave him, the rest would come chasing after us for money too. So poor thing right? This kind of lifestyle shouldn't be part of this young boy's childhood memories. Look at how fortunate our kids are today in Singapore.

Be contented. Simplicity can be a blessing sometimes......

Friday, November 24, 2006

The unexpected.

Having a cold is no fun at all. especially during the rainy days. I keep sneezing non-stop. I wonder who is missing me so much. *ah-haha*

Anyway, I realise all those star-searching & superstar competitions on tv are really for show only. So what if you can sing, dance, act or have the looks? How to make a tv program entertaining or to attract more audiences to stay tuned to the program longer? To show the unexpected to create the entertainment effect. Oh manz. Faker. Now I see it, I feel it, I know.

Met up with sophy & jacq for dinner at orchard yesterday. Went around to look at the xmas deco too. Sophy claimed that the deco looks like hari raya. Haha. Then after which we went seperate ways. I went bishan to meet him then he picked me up & we drove down to the studio together. After which we went for a drink at amk mac with his 2 other good friends. Stayed there untiil 3am. He drove one of them back home, (the other one has a car himself) & then to my place. We spent sometimes together & by the time I reached home, it was like 4plus am. By the time I finished brushing up & getting ready for bed it was almost 5am. But I couldn't really sleep well. My blocked nose really irritated me.

I think I gonna see a doctor again.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

After coming back from Zurich.....

Came back from Zurich yesterday's morning. I think my flu & sore throat worsen again. I was on the verge of recovering but staying in a cold country with a temperature of 2 degree or less, even with thick clothings, didn't do much justice to myself. I had a hard time sleeping last night. Blocked nose, phlegm all stucked in my throat, (yea, i know it's disgusting.), running nose & very bad sinus. Oh please, it has been weeks. I have had enough. I miss singing. I miss ktving. *pout*

Anyway, Zurich is okay. Not a very interesting country to me. Maybe cos I haven't try snowballing or skiing over there yet. The food & shopping aren't very friendly to pockets. A set of McDonald's meal is about $12 swiss franc which is about $15 sing. I can buy almost 3 sets in S'pore. But I did grab some great deals. I got a very pretty white winter jacket from Zara at $39.90 swiss franc & a vintage cap at H & M for $9.90 swiss franc. *happy* =) Bought some drystores back too. *yum yum*

Overall, it's a very peaceful, quiet & slow-paced country. But sometimes it's nice to be in a country that seems less stressful & more carefree than the countrywhere you live in. What do you think?

Flying to Beijing this coming Saturday's morning & will be back on Sunday's night. I guess it gonna be pretty cold there too. 4-6 degrees I think. *shivers* Good thing i'm not staying long. But strangely, actually I do prefer cold countries. *hah*

Ciao for now. *beam*

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

"All I Want For Christmas"

"All I Want For Christmas"

Take back the holly and mistletoe
Silver bells on a string
If I wrote a letter to Santa Claus
I would ask for just one thing

I don't need sleigh rides in the snow
I don't want a Christmas that's blue
Take back the tinsel, stockings and bows
'Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

I don't need expensive things
They don't matter to me
What I want can't be found
Underneath the Christmas tree

You are the angel that tops my tree
You are my dream come true
Santa can't bring me what I need
'Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

I don't need expensive things
They don't matter to me
What I want can't be found
Underneath the Christmas tree

You are the angel that tops my tree
You are my dream come true
Santa can't bring me what I need
Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

All I want for Christmas is you
Yeah all I want for Christmas is you

Friday, November 17, 2006

It's Friday!

I don't like to nightstop in Jarkata. The hotel is kind of spooky & eerie. Good thing I only stayed for a night. Thank god. =P

By the way, it has been eons since I last ate maggie mee. & I was like damn hungry last night past midnight at around 1plusam. So I cooked myself a big bowl of yummylicious maggie mee with egg! I felt so satisfied after the maggie mee supper. Wahahaha. Like after so long. *tiheheh*

& my stupid cargo bag's lock was spoilt. I had to dragged the bag with me to take cab down to Shaw Centre just now to get it repaired. It costed me $22 okay!?!? Just to change that stupid lock. (initially it was $36. flyers get discount. but so? hmmm.) & my cab fares to & fro costed me $20 total. I spent like $42 for nothing. & while waiting for the bag to get repaired, I went to shop around & I contributed to Singapore Economy again by buying fake eyelashes & a white shirt. But they aren't very expensive. So still not so bad la. Heh. (trying to console myself. pay is coming in soon! =p)

I had like 2 new york cheesecakes within these 3 days. Not that I love new york cheesecakes so much. But they gotta be eaten if they weren't given to someone esle right? I hope the 3rd one in which I'm planning to get later won't end up in my stomach again. (sometimes you do so much things but people just don't know about them. worth or not worth, i guess it doesn't matter anymore. own accord.)

Leaving for Zurich tmr's night. Will be back on Wednesday's morning. Shall go pack my stuffs now since I'm free. Bye bye!

Listen to what your heart tells you.

When I say I need you, I mean I REALLY need YOU.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I'm still a girl afterall

I'm bored. I'm not in a very good mood. Nah. It's not PMS. Just feeling a tiny winy bit of lousy, a tiny winy bit of mixed feelings, a tiny winy bit of uncertainty & a tiny winy bit of everything.

Frankly speaking, actually I'm quite skeptical about the things that are happening & going on in my life. I'm tired of always being the one who is thinking about it. I'm tired of always being the one waiting & waiting. I'm tired of always being the one saying it doesn't matter when it actually means a lot to me.

Everyone is different. We have different priority/priorities in life. It's not easy for 2 persons to get together & live happily ever after forever. It requires a lot of understanding, trust, giving, taking & unconditonal love & care. Tough task huh?

Sometimes I feel that I'm giving more than I'm receiving. It's like I wish things will happen more than you do. Happy because of you, not happy also because of you. ArgHhhh.....

No matter how's strong I appear to be, I'm still a girl afterall.

I hope things will get settled & sorted out soon. Guess just take things one step at a time. Whatever will be, will be.

May things work out.

Cheers to my flight later.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

To all that matter.

Watched "A Good Year" & had Sakae Sushi Buffet with Emily today. The movie was not too bad but there wasn't much excitement in the storyline. Maybe I have expected too much.

Doing a Jarkata Nightstop tmr. SIANness X 100. I rather it to be a turn manz. *pout*

Suddenly feel so tired of the things that is happening around me. Why am I always the one waiting?

Girls are really funny creatures huh. Sometimes I'm happy with the things that happened & sometimes I'll just brood or get sad over the same things that happened. Hmmmm.....

I wish I have an answer. To all that matter.


I went for my flight today. I had a pretty hard time talking but I still tried my best. I contributed whatever I could to the flight. I am so proud of myself. Hahaha. *grin*

Let's hope I get better soon. I miss my sweet sweet voice. Opps. Heh. =P

Xmas's lighting. The picture does no justice to the Xmas tree. It looks really pretty in real. Hehe.

Oh & check out this new duet love song by Cao Ge & Zhuo Wen Xuan.曹格 & 卓文萱.




i love you


oh...sweet sweet love. ha. good night~~~

Sunday, November 12, 2006

It was so beautiful!

By the way, I went to see the decorations & lightings at Orchard yesterday. By the time I reach there it was already past midnight. It was so beautiful! *especially with you. teehehe*

I heart Xmas. =P

"Sexy Voice"

Hihi. I have a seriously bad sore throat now. I can't talk. It's feeling terrible cos I want to talk! *lolx* Brisbane is pretty nice & all. Did some small shopping & makan.

Oh & I just went to see my company doctor. They gonna send the bill to my company. Hehe. Hope my throat & voice get better by tmr if not I don't know how am I going to go for my Bangkok turn tmr.

Met a few friends at the airport yesterday. It always feels nice to see your friends especially those you haven't seen for long. & Emily came back to SG again. So she came my place together with me after my flight. We slacked awhile 1st before we went out for dinner together.

At night, I met him, despite the conditons that I am in now. "Sexy voice", tired, sick-looking face & blah blah blah.

Thank you for the sweets. I love the thought. =)

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Paxing up to Brisbane

Paxing up to Brisbane tonight & will be back on Saturday's afternoon.

Till then. =)

I want to see you SMILE, baby.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Im not your Superwoman

Im not your Superwoman

Im not the kind of girl that you can let down

And think that everythings okay

Boy, I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional hugs

As a token of love from you to me.


Someone asked me.

You rather like someone with dreams or someone without even a single dream.

I ponder.

It's better to have dreams to live on.

Isn't it?

Maybe you are right.



I'm being to feel skeptical about the whole thing.




I'm tired.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Sore Throat

I'm suffering from sore throat now. Throat damn pain sial. Must be all the good food indulgence overseas that caused it.

Anyway, I had New York New York yesterday for dinner. It's a cafe restaurant at Citylink. I think I love the place & food. Yummy! Heh.

Alright. I just wanna complain about my sore throat only. It's just feeling terrible. Going out later to run some errands. Heh. Ciao. =)

Monday, November 06, 2006


Didn't take any photo in Hongkong but I went partying & drinking at the famous clubbing district there. Oh well, it wasn't as happening as what I have expected. But it was still not too bad. One of my crew colleagues got drunk & we had a pretty hard time to comfort her & get her back to the hotel. Wanted to go to the Halloween party at San Francisco but the peope there seem pretty rowdy so didn't go in the end.

But shopping in both countries was good. *big big grin*

Stayed out last night & only came home an hour ago. Didn't really sleep last night. Haha. Alright. I think I better go catch some sleep. Probably going out again in the evening for dinner.

Love you all. =)

I love off days.