illusion

Did my nails AGAIN today because I broke one of them onboard the other day. It is so stupid and a waste of money actually but I can't stand having a broken nail. So they are all pretty now again. Hehehe...

I am broke now. I spent like 500 over bucks on my new range of skincare just now. But I think they can last me for months. And the salesgirl she is so good at talking that you can't say no to her. There goes my money. Make sure those skincares can "woah" my skin with the after results. Hah...

Do you know the feeling of having something you wanna say but you just can't say it out? Simple, clear and precise message you wanna bring across but it just takes you tons and tons of courage to do so. How can I convince myself that everything doesn't matter? How can I convince you that there can be magical? How can I be so sure that we will be okay this time?

Sometimes I wish I can just say whatever I want to say.

Whenever I think of you, I tell myself it is just an illusion...



Love.

为我加油。

Actually I know what I really want, but can I really get what I want ultimately?

So tired, from everything.... I still can't help it but to fall into it, still.

I have been waiting for opportunities, waiting for the right time to get things back in place again. Every time when there is something to hope for, it just comes topper down.

给我勇气。

为我加油。

下雨天

Love this...

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

I do believe rainy days do make people more emotional...

Do you?

beijing

I thought I won't be going out in beijing... I was all prepared to hibernate, order room service, watch my hongkong series online and sleep all I want. Some of the girls wanted to go out, so I tagged along. Slept for 3hours after checking in, then we headed out to hunt for jade. Yes. JADE. 2 of the girls are looking for jade. So we travelled around, had Coldstones (yummy ice-cream from states so we assume the milk they use is also from states? hopefully... gee.. =p), steamboat for dinner (I smelled like a steamboat myself after coming out of the restaurant..hahah...), then to supermarket before heading back to the hotel.

It's getting cold here actually. Not very important but just a thought that comes across my mind right now. I have to wake up like super early the next morning. Tell me about it.

Certain things, certain relationships are just made to change. That includes us. Me and you and me and you and.....

Love.

flying off

Was talking to one of my friends and I told him I am flying to beijing. His response was, "wah... you don't anyhow drink milk hor!" *laugh*

Anyway, I think my PMSing is pretty bad. My mood isn't very composed.

Will be back on the 27th afternoon. Till then. =)

Love.

A380 conversion

Finally finished my A380 conversion today. I have been sleeping less than 3 hours these 2 days. The night before the 1st day of conversion, I was out to airport to pick someone then to supper together, and by the time I reached home it was already 2plus in the morning. I slept at nearly 4am and I woke up at 6ish morning. Last night, the same thing, just that I didn't go out but yet I couldn't sleep. Woke up at 6ish this morning too and my eyes were closing on me while I was driving. Drank many cups of coffee today but it didn't seem to work at all. I was like so stoned.

Reporting for beijing tomorrow's night and I am still comtemplating about certain decisions that I am going to make. What should I do to make myself don't look so stupid? What should I do to still keep some dignity to myself? What should I do if I really really want certain things? What should I do if it doesn't turn out the way I want? What should I do?

hard to come by

Those moments seem so hard to come by.

有多舍不得啊。。。

我们之间的距离，叫做信任。

enough

I have been waiting since the very first day. Till now, I am STILL always the one waiting. I have enough of it. I wanna wait no more. I have been waiting for people all my life. (okay, maybe for the 24years of my life. haha...) 不想再等了。让人家等我吧! 哈哈哈。。

记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开

to YOU

*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
22nd Sep..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
A Special Day for someone..?
*princess belle* says:
haha
*princess belle* says:
y
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Erm..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Nth actually..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
Just asking..
*-*~ RoOsTeR ~*-* says:
And like, weird that you're at home.

Happy Birthday, to YOU.

不一样了

很奇怪，这一天本来是留给我的，本来我是应该有特权的。
但现在我已经不再是那个最重要的人了。
不一样了。

home...FINALLY!

I am back home, like FINALLY... after flying consecutively for 2 weeks. Reached Los Angeles safely. The weather was fantastic. I had a big time shopping, eating, catching & meeting up with friends in L.A. Back to Taipei from Los Angeles yesterday morning, the weather was way much better than a few days ago. It was super sunny. I did my nails, i had my bubble tea, my taiwanese local specialities, I shopped & in all, it was all good. =) Paxed back to Singapore this morning & I managed to catch Sex and the City the movie onboard. It was fabulous. & not forgetting, I have been meeting wonderful people (*keep my fingers crossed*), people that make my flying life more interesting & enjoyable, people that make me truly appreciate & love what I am doing right now.

"she was a smart girl until she fell in love..."- Sex and the City.

Love.

typhoon

The typhoon in taiwan is really bad. I hope I can still make it to los angeles. Most of the shops were closed, roads were flooded, wind was strong and fierce, rain was heavy and endless. I had shabu shabu again. It's something I won't miss when I come to taipei. However, despite the rain, I still managed to get to the town area, ate my shabu shabu, did some shopping. *girly grin*

怎么办。

不完美

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪

完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

後来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵

我的完美成了罪

Beautiful Lahore with Wonderful Crew

Lahore was beautiful with a set of wonderful crew. Lots of happenings and lots of laughters. 6days just flew past like a breeze.

Some random thoughts... I think I am really affected by certain things that I learn to know about certain people. I don't know why. I don't know how should I be feeling towards certain people. I am quite skeptical about my feelings. What is true, what is real and what is not?

I just wonder when can all these mixed feelings be sorted out and when can my direction be clear ahead?

I am back!

I am back, after a few months. But I didn't stop writing all these while. I just had a change of outlet to pen down my thoughts.

http://yolenebelle.blog.friendster.com/

My past few months thoughts were all in there.

But now, I am back again. =)

I miss strawberrymelts.

Am currently in Lahore. I have been doing flights back to back. It is tiring, no doubt. And after returning to Singapore tomorrow's morning, I am off to 8days Taipei Los Angeles flight again the next day. This is how packed my schedule is.

But I am enjoying, so far.

*grin*

Love.