完结篇

这个完结篇，到底该怎么写呢?

你曾说是我让你相信爱情。。。
你曾说我是你最爱的人。。。

我想写一个让你，让我，让所有人都会开心幸福的完美finale.

可以吗?

Mr Santa Claus

Mr Santa Claus in my car... =p

Just now the flight once again proved that I dragged and hated hongkong turnaround. We practically gobbled down our food at every spare minute we had. You know you will never enjoy the food when you eat too fast. But we didn't have a choice. Hungry, tired but no time. I hope they come up with a 3-4days hongkong flight or something. And not always making us turn and turn and turn and turn. But I know this hope is very unlikely.... =/

I kind of miss hong kong actually. Maybe should plan a short trip to there or something....

Hor??!! =p

只要是听到周杰伦的歌，都会让我想起你。。。

festive of love

Last time I really love to be driven. Now I still love but I think I love driving the car myself more. Haha... But girls has to be girls sometimes. Girls should be driven by boys and girls should be pampered by boys. I self-proclaim to be an independent girl. I can do a lot of things by myself. But boys don't like girls who are too independent. So it's good to be dependent at the relevant times.

I think I want to buy a santa claus or a snow man soft toy for my car. I want to feel like xmas everyday. Xmas, always the festive of love... =)

Just came back from manila turn this evening. I am really amazed at my energy and professionalism. I just came back from taipei yesterday late evening and I have less than 3 hours of sleep last night and I woke up at 5-ish this morning to prepare for work. And it's a whole day affair. I was at work with smile and more smile and my usual charismatic flare. (haha...) Colleagues said "you look like you have the most beautiful story painted for you. "the girl with her dream job, her dream life and her dream prince charming." Thank you for looking so highly of me. I also hope it's all true. No explanation and I continue to smile, like what I always do. The best answer to all unexplainable and unanswerable questions. =)

And I think I am really amazing, to be able to face all the challenges that you throw at me. You have been putting me into tests, testing my patience and love for you since the very first day till now and it's still ongoing. The trust is long gone and how am I able to believe you again?

I don't want to be brave anymore.

I have many roles to play till I don't even have time to be myself. Just myself. Things are getting too complicated. Many people come into the picture and many things just surfaced and happened one after another. Maybe god is painting a story for me.

I don't want to be brave anymore.

Preparing to check out hotel and fly back to singapore. Will be back this evening. And I have a turn tomorrow morning. I am so tired and this tiredness is so unnecessary. I do have a choice, don't I?

Everything happens for a reason.

三年前的相遇。。。
两年前的结合。。。
几个月前的分离。。。
今天的遗憾。。。

I believe it's all 命中注定.

Dont ever say regret if you don't even know what you want.

a little girl

I am like a little girl, waiting for her examination's result. She is very very very nervous and very very very scared that she will fail. She studied very fast for her examination and she really put in a lot efforts this time round.

But she believes...she had tried her very best. Passed or failed, she shall leave it to the destiny and let it decides for her. God can see and feel. He knows she is amazing.

Love.

taipei ximending

人在台北...

I am not extremely excited about this city this time though...

The usual food and shopping spree. I actually planned to roam alone but there were some new colleagues around, so I became the host. Ha. ;p

Had lunch today at this restaurant located at ximending, with the concept of restrooms. Everything, their deco, cutleries, food... Pictures are the evidences! =)

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我?

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh

It is not easy to be Yolene Peh.

Really.

She is not as strong as she thinks she is.

And the most frustrating thing is... She can't even face her own feelings truthfully.

She is tired of pretending.

But her pretendious front and her smile are the only protection shields she has for herself.

I can't even trust myself now.

I am sooooooo angry....with myself!

story

A friend just told me..."eh i think this song is telling your story.."

HA... Thanks huh. But really, thank you for being there all this while. I don't deserve such kind treatment from you. 我没有你想象中的好.

Read my story then...*laugh*

江语晨-我太乖
作词:陈镇川
作曲:陈少荣
专辑:晴天娃娃

手机挂满了色彩对话却是一片灰白
线上匿称是期待等的人却总是离开
答应他我会乖奖品却是在发呆
你们说的我不信我心里都明白

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

关上门倒数等待世界只为他而打开
过程或许有伤害却仍相信苦尽甘来
我不傻我不呆故事总会有意外
我看得到他的好值得我去爱

如果我太爱猜太爱怀疑太爱责怪
换来谎言相待
我选择安安静静像个小孩
反而显得无害
别再为我担心我不怕摔
这是我的爱情我的未来

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖偶尔被忘了宠爱
才学会孤单的勇敢

是不是我太乖看不见他的坏
可是他的眼神偏偏想依赖
也许是我太乖不怕被忘了宠爱
谁说男人坏女人才爱

Thank you BEN!

Specially for you.

Hope you claim your credits already.

So that you can sleep in peace. =p

Haha... Haha...

wise decision

Walking down the street of Florence, I wished I know what is the next step to take. "You will make a wise decision." Thank you for believing in me. =)

loneliness

Most guys are scared of loneliness. And it is proven. Not just one guy told me that. There was a few. So I guess, it is true. Men look strong and hunky on the outside, but actually deep down inside them, they are really afraid of loneliness. They need people or someone to be there for them, to feel being loved and being taken care of.

When a guy says, "I just want to be alone". He is actually much lonely that he thinks he is. Someone to go through the ups and downs in life together, someone to laugh and cry together, someone to discuss matters together with, someone to be there always.

Someone... whom a man asks for.

I always get what I want in the end, most of the times. But people don't know how much efforts I put in, how hard I tried.

"你说我不该不该 不该在这时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆"

Suddenly, I love this song. One friend sent me an sms the other day.
"什么都是假的， 只有你的心是真的，因为你的心在跳."
Thank you.

Drove mummy to orchard for lunch just now. Been really long since we had a meal together. Thank you mummy for your love. I know you really care. I know who I should love. I just get a little lost sometimes.

belle.duomo.florence.

Am back from milano. Went to duomo and florence. Very beautiful city. I am going to head to venice the next time, with the special someone if possible. Because venice is such a romantic island, I want to be there with the special someone. The most ideal plan would be to spend a romantic night stay at venice before heading back to milan the next day.

Looking forward to that very day. =)

I have a little damage at duomo. I bought my gucci. But I am happy. =)

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

belle @ milano

"believing in the future and happiness ahead". - belle @ milano, love.

亲爱的上帝。。。你有听到吗?
我的心跳得好快。
我那焦虑不安的心情。
其实我真的好害怕。
不过我相信。。。你会一直守护着我的，对不对?

milan milan

I will be leaving for Milan for 5 days. Thinking where should I go this time. Vernice?

加油，yolene.


加油.

Youngest brother

Youngest brother just sent a sms text to me...

"Tomorrow I go field camp le. Don Know will come back alive anot. Take care of yourself. Take care of dad n mum as well..."

What is this?

Faint...faint..faint...

Silly boy..

大坏蛋

亲爱的上帝。。。
我喜欢上了一位男生。
可是他是个大坏蛋。
而且是个超级大坏蛋。
但不知怎么了，每次见他，我都好像忘了他是个大坏蛋。
天啊!
大坏蛋。。。。

you say

I slept early last night, much earlier than my usual, which was so unusual of me. I thought sleeping will be good, so that I won't have to think. But when I opened my eyes this morning, all the thoughts that have been waiting for me the whole night, started to haunt me.

I really think my 6th sense is damn strong and accurrate. A lot of things and incidents are happening and they all proved my 6th sense right. I am astonished too.

You say you regretted. For real or for show? How much weightage is there in this sentence?

You say I understand you the most. You say i always read your mind. But really very sorry. Now, this very moment, I think I have lost the ability to do so.

Why? Ask yourself. You know why.

我好像太高估我自己了。。。
第一次是纯真。
第二次是无知。
第三次就是愚蠢。

at least

"at least you don't have to put up a strong front with it."

thank you. =) it's in my car now. i guess it's a good reminder for me at all times.

thank you. =)

have to wake up in less than 4hours time for work.

sweet dreams!

The shoot was...tiring. A little fun in the beginning but soon it got draggy, boring and tiring. I can't remember how many outfits I had changed. Thank you my dearest friend for those little surprises. Thank you for being so thoughtful. I don't think I can be like you, always thinking and sparing thoughts for everyone. I am really very thankful, from the bottom of my heart. =)

And...thank you for the lovely night.

human map

I am back, home, feeling really relieved and...extremely tired. The flight was exhausting. Long hours and I didn't rest well before the flight. I was too engrossed with my dvd, and I forgotten my needed sleep. But ok, at least I am home now. Very contented to be at where I am now. Haha. =p Thank you mummy & daddy for picking me up just now. =) =)

There is a photoshoot tomorrow. And now I am trying to figure out how to drive to amoy street. I am seriously very bad with roads.... *guilty grin* A few months back I still had my "human map" with me, driving me to places that we had to go. With this "human map", I was never worried or scared that I would lose my way. 有他在，好像就不会迷路。=)

Anyway, it's alright. I will find my way. Good night!

Love.

Xmas is coming!

Christmas is coming! =)

dainty

love.

strawbeRRy beer

Didn't have my usual duck rice for lunch yesterday. We had fish and chips with strawberry beer. Yes! Strawberry flavour beer which is totally cool. *wide wide grin* It tastes more like gassy strawberry juice. And it's pinkish red in colour somemore, which is so girlish. *beam* I think it's more like a girl's drink. Hehe..

I bought fruits salad and chocolate bar for myself, wine and some other random food stuffs for friends, all from mark and spencer. Then I bought my granola yogurt cluster. They come in strawberry flavour too, so I got both the raspberry and strawberry, 2 each! =P

Last night was spent watching Fated to Love You, eating my fruits salad, chocolate bar and my granolar cluster mix. Cried a few times watching the show, it was a peaceful night actually, all by my myself. =)

Going roam around the london city later. I hope it doesn't rain, please? Bye bye loves. =)

london

After the ultra long hours flight, I was stoning away in the crew bus, listening to my mp3, skipping songs of that particular singer, because upon hearing his voice would screw up my emotion especially after such an overnight, long hours, a380 flight. Starring out of the windows, my mind and body were tired.....

I think I sprained my neck in the crew bunk during the rest period. Yes. I know I keep getting bruises, I keep injuring myself at work and sometimes at certain don't know where and when I hurt it occasions. Belle can make you shake your head at her clumsiness, like what he used to do.

London is raining and I just woke up from my nap. I suppose it will be the usual duck rice for lunch later, and probably I will just walk around, taking some pictures, buy some usual mark and spencers grcoeries for the night, while I watch my dvd and read my book. And I must buy the raspberry granola cluster yogurt mix from the "boots pharmacy"later. I love it so much that I think I gonna buy a few to last me for the next few days. Hehehe... And I saw "ben and jerry" ice cream vending machine at the hotel lobby earlier on. You know what's on my mind? The thought of standing in front of the machine, looking, thinking and hesitating what flavour to buy makes me happy. A girl.....when she comes to her loves, she doesn't know how to say no and she doesn't know how to let go. *grin*

Pound is dropping like crazy, meaning it's a good time to shop. *hurhur...=p* Maybe I can watch a play tomorrow's night too. Lots of random ideas, but I like it, especially in a foreign land, living the way I like, doing things that i enjoy, smiling at things, people and images that make me happy. =)

彩虹褪了颜色
我的窗前缠绕着
寂寞哀愁一地洒落
这一季的烟火
没有照亮我
只为别人闪烁
离开的时候 有些话没亲口说
再多的承诺 未来也难预测
孤单的自由 没有想像中快活
我已不知所措 连回忆都心痛
你说耐心等候
就算心里百般舍不得
还是要放开手
一个人的生活
日出又日落
每一天都折磨
能不能到梦里 被回忆带走

黄丽玲 - 离开的时候





有时候我在想，如果你也听说，那会是怎样呢?

好累哦。。。虽然很累，却还是想拼命保护这种感觉。
也许不会有任何结果，也许这个人永远也感觉不到我的努力，也许这个人永远都不会懂，但我还是要保护这种感觉。
笨死了!哈哈哈。。。

最怕。。。这种感觉会不见。
所以。。。我很小心。
直到有一天。。。我累死了!哈哈!

其实还蛮羡慕你的。。。因为你可以比我更勇敢的去爱，你可以留在他身边。

Okay. Off to london later. Will be away for a few days. Till then. Bye bye.

Love.

:)

Did a jarkata turnaround earlier on and I will be off to london tomorrow, or rather later, tonight. I gonna re-visit london again after so many months. =)

A friend just commented, "hey i think you look so much more radiant and prettier now. you look so much more sunny now! last time there was always this sorrow feel in you, like a troubled little girl." *laugh X 10 times* A friend who hasn't seen me for a while, a friend whom I just bumped into lately, a friend who used to be there to hear my little girl stories... He said, "i think it's a good sign. maybe it was the right choice to dump away that chapter."

Hahaa... This friend. =)

There were many times when I kept telling myself and others, promising myself and others, that it would be the last time. I not gonna talk about it anymore. But the story seems to go on and on. 总觉得自己很没用.

And there were many times I want you to know, I wanna tell you. I wanna show you the efforts. But I didn't.

In order not for others to look down on me, laugh at my plight, I need to look 100times stronger and 1000times better than before. Life is good ahead huh. I think. :)

你这只猪.....还好吧?

somebody's Angel

"always remember that in some way or another, you are somebody's Angel, even if you don't know it..." - belle.

请不要感动。
因为那是笨蛋的行为。
只有笨蛋才会那么爱。
也只有笨蛋才会心痛很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久很久。




我就是那个笨蛋。

Thank youuuu

Wanted to bring mummy out but was dilly-dallying since I woke up, then it rained, so we decided to stay indoor.

Was watching Mayday's new song, "突然好想你" MV. The lyrics is like a duplication of my feeling. Amazingly, totally! Ha...

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息

最怕突然 听到你的消息

AND...

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行

然后留下 最痛的纪念品

You won't understand, not even you. I am sick of listening to all these. I know some real friends do sincerely care but really, you are not me. Don't tell me what to do. Thank youuuu! =)

be who you are and say what you feel

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind..." - belle.

Ghost stories were shared among us during the overnight flight that arrived a couple of hours ago. They kept our sleepy minds awake. Creepy yet interesting. A little out of the wit yet fascinating. *wide grin*

I was trying to catch up on my new show, "fated to love you" but my disc kept dying on me like after every fifteen minutes. It's either my dvd player or the disc. I hope I'll be able to watch it later. :)

Do you believe sometimes it's kind of fated to meet somebody and to love that somebody? I do believe. =) Fated to meet you, fated to love you, fated to cry for you, fated to do all sorts of things for you, this kind of feeling can be too overwhelming till you question the reality of it.

Time to get some sleep before starting my day. It so gonna be a beautiful sunday!

Love.