wishful

Income tax, road tax, car insurance, all the miscellaneous bills, suddenly all come together. I am pulling my hair now. *roar*

Maybe....it was just my wishful thinking right from the beginning, assuming certain "people" felt certain way towards certain "people". Apparently it wasn't. If not, I won't be left alone, guessing and pondering.
Okay, what am I talking about? Nah...

Good day everyone...:)

on a random Thursday...

Yesterday was japanese class, coffee with batchmates, dinner with audrey, drinks with random crew whom all seem to interlink with one another ( all of the sudden, the bar felt like a control centre to me. lol...), supper at macdonalds and mustafa for the last stop. By the time I reached home it was already 430am this morning. I almost died. Really. I tell you....Haha. Freaking tired.

Thank you friends and colleagues whom helped me buy stuffs from all over the world. Repayment time soon. Hehe...

No time to head down to the temple. Suddenly I feel there are so much things I wanna tell to the Guan Yin Ma. Hahaa... Tomorrow seem like a perfect day to go down for a prayer. Maybe I will just bring mummy along and bring her for a nice lunch. Been months since I brought her out.

Only things happened, then you realise how much certain people actually meant to you and their importance in your life. I feel the impact gradually, somehow.

Whatever it is, TGIF tomorrow! :)

Let's dance!

Just finished my Japanese homework. I am going for class later. I love how this school manages to organise classes to fix my irregular schedule. *medetashi* :p

2 days of sydney was enough to kill but fellow colleagues were fantastic. Like you know you curse and swear about the tiredness and the work load coming along your way, but people back you up and make your day. =) And tomorrow called up to do jarkata in the evening, that's good enough. And there "she goes" (I go). Haha. My one week break away from work.

Let's dance! *winkz*

fat

I don't know where to start. Work has been smooth, human relationships aren't too bad either. But I am just getting fatter. *loud laughter* I love to eat and am lazy to exercise at times (okay most of the times...ha.), what else can I do?

Okay okay, god is fair isn't he? :)

the constant hunger

I keep feeling hungry. The constant hunger at any hour. And my mouth just can't stop. This is bad, especially when I have a weakness for carbohydrates and desserts. :p God, please bless me with a high metabolism rate. I think I seriously need that now. Ha.

Bring me to a feast and I will love you to bits. :)

asos

check out
www.asos.com

the dresses are so "Oh My God!"
this is love. :)

online shopping...yay! ah-duh...=p

bad dream

I just had a bad dream. I dreamt that everyone is going against me. Nobody believes and stands on my side. I felt so lonely. The dream is horrible enough to start my day.

I watched Russell Peters on youtube, had a random laugh, the lunch that mummy bought was just so not tasty. Called up for denpasar turn tomorrow. I was still hoping they would call me for some medium haul flight to disrupt my sydney. Ok...whatever.

Zurich was cool, with great company, but own self with complicated random thoughts. As usual.

Jap class later.

Nonsensical people really irritate.

不小心

不小心，回头看了一眼，偷偷望了一下。
也就这样不小心又小EMO了一次。
我啊!。。。
不小心，忘了勇敢。
下回要小心一点。。。
别忘了曾经那么心痛到疯掉的感觉。
如果再一次，我会死掉。
所以。。。
小心。=)

Love from Zurich

Meeting some colleagues at the gym in half an hour time. I so don't want to exercise but BUT but I think I really have to force myself to. Haha.
It seems like it's going to be a perfect day ahead!

Love from Zurich.
:)

time is love.

Not a very recent song but I just realise how captivating the song can be. Oh. Love. My friend says it sounds like a song for the ex-boyfriend. But I feel it sounds more for like possible two persons who just never get together, and who knows what? Anyway, time is really essence. Time is love. Once you miss it, that's it.

Take a lifetime to find LOVE? Or seize a moment for PASSION?
Which one would you choose?



总是和你擦肩而过 回头看着你走
我说服自己你从来都不属於我
也在心里偷偷想过 拥有你陪伴的生活
对我会是多麽奢侈的梦
你完美得太过火
有太多的选择
我还能付出什麽
除了爱你我一无所有
爱来的刚刚好慢一步我就走掉
或许上帝听见心中的祈祷带
我从孤单里逃跑
因为爱

日复一日重复着错过的游戏
猜测在你的心中是否真有我
不想一分一秒在犹豫之间蹉跎
我在等你说你也爱我
你是我存在的理由
爱来的刚刚好慢一步我就走掉
或许上帝听见心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
爱来的刚刚好慢一步我就走掉
或许上帝听见心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
因为我爱你

无意

Back...
From Beijing.
:)
It was sumptuous dinner with beer and boys over flowers korean drama in the room.
Batchboy knocked at the wrong room when he checked in the night. My crew almost freaked out when she saw a man keep knocking at her door at 12am midnight. Ha. *roll eyes...* That's why we are batchmates... Haha...
:p

Very tired. Of work, of people around me, of things around, of everything. If time can go back( I know it will never happen though), will I still be who I am today? Will the chapters of my life story deviate?

刚才无意间听到这首歌。。。

~我决定插手你的人生
当你的时尚顾问别说你不能

让我们乘着阳光
海上冲浪吸引她目光
不要怕露出胸膛
流一点汗你成了型男
让我们乘着阳光
看着远方别当路人甲
让美女缺氧
靠在你肩膀
我微笑在你旁边撑伞~


好熟悉的声音啊!
A voice which I thought I don't miss anymore....

Ever felt...

Ever felt that no one in this world can be trusted except your ownself?
Suddenly, it seems like everything is happening all together at one time.
Sometimes I feel frustrated, I feel irritated, I feel depressed, I feel upset, I feel lonely, I feel angry, at no one but myself.
And there is no shoulders to lean on, shoulders which I can feel safe without feeling weary.

Maybe I am a more careful person. I don't dare to let down my guard to anyone even if that person could be safe enough to make me feel protected. It isn't any easy. Perhaps it's just me. The problem is with me.

善变

It was nails treat and catching up session with shervil and joey today. :)

但是心情不是那么的好。
明明以为已经很清楚自己要的是什么。。。
却又有一点想后悔的感觉。
女人啊。。。真是善变。
我承认。。。我是善变。
哈哈哈。。。

harajuku!

Home! ;p

Been away for good whole eight days. Scalded my hand with coffee during work, bruised my arms and legs, took the most horrendous rides in los angeles, mesmerizing by the shopping and food in tokyo, and the rediscovery of my own inner feelings. Somehow, I think I know what I want now or ultimately. :)

magic

First states trip that I never shopped. That is a very surprising thing for me. Ha. We went to Six Flags Magic Mountain. We had the most amazing rides ever. And I am like the only one screaming and cursing and calling for help in the mid-air always. The rest seems like super heroes and heroins. And I wonder why people wanna pay money to scare themselves and freak their minds and hearts out. I have a weak heart and I tell you, I almost died. Lol... Really. :p

I am one shade darker now. *hiaks hiaks* Can't wait to be back to tokyo for shopping and eating!

belle in lax!

Am in Los Angeles. Work was tiring, as usual. Hah... After shower earlier on, I dozed off on my lappy and everyone was already waiting for me downstairs for dinner. *hiaks* I freaked out when the phone rang, and I jumped out of my bed, all ready in less than 5 minutes to the lobby. I am sorry guys! =p

We have already rented a car for next day. I am so looking forward. :p I told Mark I want to test drive the car tomorrow, as I never tried left-hand drive car before. Mark said, "ok lor, i let you drive one round in the carpark before i take over and drive out to the main road. you drive one meh? you doesn't look like you can drive. hahaa..." ............. He was punched a hundred time by me, almost. Lol..

Love, probably with new photos soon. =)

There are many thoughts running in my mind. Whenever I am driving, walking, or alone, they run even faster! I wish I can pen or write them down somewhere, but they are too jumbled up and maybe some don't even make sense.

Been very tired out from work, with minimal rest. Off to tokyo in a few hours time. My bags are 1/2 packed, my nails just painted and some other loose strings yet to tie up.

But....something to YEY! about.... BONUS IS COMING IN!

*belle's winkz*

:p

忘

忘了人，却没办法忘了灵魂。
这算忘记吗?

chee-na

Finished the 2nd day of PMTR today. Met new friends, old friends, batchmates in between. :p Lunch, little catching up, those little fun in class. Then it was dinner session with the poly mates. Some fatter, prettier, slimmer, the same old usual jokes and laughters never change. Mr Louis commented, "Yolene you hardly spoke Mandarin to me during poly days. English English English! Why are you so chee-na now? I am so not used to it lor." Ahh...Mr Louis, I do speak Mandarin besides English okay. *boxed!=p* I miss you, I miss the good old days and I miss the rest too.

Then it was supper with batchmates. 4 persons, 4 cars. Stopping our cars one side at the open air carpark, discussing about cars. Trying to act pro about cars and mechanics. Lol...

Called up for Sydney again! The company is mad!
@#%^&*()@#$^^^%#$#!!!~

Whatever.

无所谓

Attended first day of PMTR today. Some promote tourism course organised by company at Singapore Shopping Centre. It was pretty interesting though. I kind of like the trainer. She is very knowledge, and only today then I realised I am that ignorant about my own country. :p

Been feeling quite emo these few days. Many times I am full of laughters but behind that smile, I feel very much lonely. On the phone, in person, in japanese class, during work, overseas, with people. I am just being quite cynical. Was listening to 曹格's new song "寂寞先生". 还觉得蛮有感觉的.
真的.

我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废 就会越多安慰
无论有虚伪
无论多虚伪
空虚并非是词汇能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给 就像个傀儡

Read these somewhere....

~Sometimes I am able to reflect upon the past and smile.
Sometimes I am too afraid to look back at the memories that haunt.
Sometimes I feel brave enough to take on the world on my own.
Sometimes I feel inconfident of facing reality.
Sometimes I feel blessed and contented with my current life.
Sometimes I become greedy and lament about minor issues.
Sometimes I think I am ready for my future.
Sometimes I doubt myself and the choices I made.
Sometimes I am proud of myself.
Sometimes I find myself useless. ~
No matter good or bad, these times made me strong and made me who I am today.

I think the writer is typing my story. Haha...

GoodNighty loves. :)

My car, the driver's seat door has a dent now. It's tiny but I can see it. Super heart pain can. Whoever opens his/her car's door and bangs to my car, you have just dampened my mood and I kind of hate you now. Daddy promises to send it to workshop for me when he is FREE. *whine!*