Cos I care

YESSSS! I'm not feeling good. Maybe it's PMS? Mood swing? Pre-Present-Post? Nah. I don't know & I don't care. I want to have my beauty sleep. Maybe after a good sleep I would feel better.

ArgHHHH!!!! I really feel like crying. I don't know how to describe. It's a sucky & yucky feeling. Booooooo!!!

Better day & mood tmr please???!!!

Me: Why am I always so affected?
Good Friend: Cos you care.

Hmmmm......

Yes.

Cos I care.

Like very much.

Like really a lot.

Love a little lesser, care a little lesser, need a little lesser.

My plane touched down at 5am this morning. Got free transport for us to get home. Took the cab & reached home at around 6am. Showered & slept till like an hour ago. I didn't even bother to unpack my bag.

2 friends coming my place later. Yey! Hehe. Probably gonna have some lunch & tibits together & I guess we gonna play cards! Yup yup. It should be fun. Hehe.

Life should be an all-rounder ya. You have family who dote on you, special someone who you love & love you for who you are, different categories of friends at different stages of your life, personal time & space, your goals & dreams. I don't know what I have been missing out all these while, but now I'm trying to change my perceptions of things in my life. Love a little lesser, care a little lesser, need a little lesser. Though these are not my style of doing, perhaps I'll feel better? I don't know myself either. Relax & enjoy & show a little "I don't care" attitude may do things good? That's what my friends tell me. I wish I can. I really do. I want to make myself happy & the people who love me & I love happy.

If things are meant to change, they will. I realise people & things don't need a reason to change & it can just happen overnight. I know it's scary but that's nature of life. Letting go is always the hardest thing to do but when you are able to do it, you gonna feel so much better. I'm a stubborn person. I talk reasons to people, I comfort people, I give advices to people. But when it comes to myself, I think I'm totally lost.

I think I'm really quite prone to mood-swing. One moment I can be very happy, the next moment I may think of negative or unhappy thoughts & I would start to brood over them. I guess I just need more reassurance. I often feel the lack of sercurity. I want to feel loved & pampered more. I need your assurance. I need you to tell me that you love me. I need you to tell me that you care. I need you to tell me that you need me. Are you going to give me those all?

Lalalalala. Just some random thoughts. I'm alright. It's just the sudden rush of thoughts that came to my mind & I really wanna write them down somewhere.

Happy Sunday! =)

In love with you

A very nice love song........

Just a gentle whisper， told me that you＇d gone
Leaving only memories， where did we go wrong?
I couldn＇t find the words then， so let me say them now
I＇m still in love with you
Tell me that you love me， tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me， and I＇ll be there
I＇ll be there waiting you
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There＇s no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I＇m in love with you
Now we＇re here together， yesterday has past
Life is just beginning， close to you at last
And I promise to you， I will always be there
I give my all to you
Living life without you is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever
I＇ll be there....
I＇ll be there for you
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There＇s no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...
Our love is forever
Holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found a way
I＇m in love　（I so in love）
I＇m in love　Yes　（I＇m in love）
I so in love with you




but, you need 2 hands to clap right?


i guess i just need more reassurance.

Brissy

It's nice to have a lapppy with you when you are a frequent flyer. Though my lappy isn't my favourite colour, I still kind of love it, cos it helps me to stay connected to my friends & loved ones even when I'm not in Sg. Maybe I can get some girly-stylist stickers, crystals to decorate it! Yey! Ideas please?

The weather in Brissy is really hot, much comparable to Sg. I restricted myself to spend overly too much this trip. I bought my stockings, colgate, moisturising cream, tim-tam, starburst, eclipse mints & vive lemon & almond shortbread. Had oriental food, mac & japanese food. Yes. I eat a lot. But I didn't really finish all. Just nibble a bit here & there & I'll feel really bloated & full.

Haven been exercising for very long. Gonna push myself harder. Wish me luck. Heh.

Flying back to Sg tonight. Will be back by 5.30am Sun. *winks*

love,
yolene

Benefit of a doubt

I have decided..... I have chosen to give him a benefit of a doubt.

To make myself feel better. (Maybe girls really think too much sometimes?.)

Anyway, we caught "Just Follow Law" last night. Had Cafe Cartel for dinner. Went Bedok 85 after the movie intending to have the "Bar Chor Mee" for supper but both stalls were closed. Kind of a wasted trip. But he managed to get his favourite drink from the 7-11 nearby & he got me this really lovely "Little Twin Stars" mints.

Am going to get ready to go airport later. Going Brisbane.

CNY

Came back to SIN on CNY Day 2. Didn't really had much rest after I got home. Went to my 2 aunties' places & came back home in the late evening. Had dinner & went out to watch Norbit with him & gang. It was a pretty funny & lame movie. Had a good laugh. Hehe. Then after that we went Hongkong Cafe at Cineleisure to play cards & had some light supper. Everything ended like almost 3am.

CNY Day 3 - Watched Protege with Yeun. It was good. Love the handsome hunky Daniel Wu. *grin* Then we had Thai Express for dinner. Bumped into her friends & we all decided to have dinner together. At night, met him after his work, stayed out, spent time together, woke up at 12pm the next day, went AMK Hub for a walk, then went to his place to visit his parents. His mum cooked lunch for us. Stayed for like 2hrs plus, then he came over to my place. Only my mum was at home, my youngest brother came back awhile & went out again. He stayed for like an hr plus or so, then he left to meet his army brothers at Bugis for CNY reunion dinner.

So far, everything has been good for us. But I just came across something in which I feel a bit uncomfortable. I think he doesn't know. Maybe I'm just thinking too much?

Happy Piggy Year!

I had dim sum for late lunch, steamboat for dinner & ktv till late night with my crew yesterday. Slept all the way till today's 1plus in the afternoon & we went out for dim sum & dessert. It was really feasting for us these 2 days at HKG. But I kind of enjoying it. All the goodylicious yummylicious food. Hehe. *greedy guilty grin*

Yey! I'm finally coming home tmr. It really seems so long to me. Can't wait to see my family, boyfriend & friends. (ok. i know you people are saying i'm getting mushy. but it's an expression of how i feel, an expression of love. right? haha. =p)

See ya back in SG! Happy Piggy Year!

Shopping was good!

Shopping in SFO was good! Yummylicious Cheesecake Factory was good too! Probably gonna shop a little bit more later & have some more nice food at Cheesecake Factory again. Shall see. I think I have overspent. Shopping & food here aren't very kind to my bank account. Opps. *grin*

Chatted, seen & heard my boy through's the webcam on MSN earlier on just now. I'm happy! Hehe.

Flying back to HKG later. Gonna reach there on the EVE. Probably having some steamboat reunion with my crew. This is the 1st CNY that I didn't spend in SIN. Oh well, but I'll be back on CHU ER's morning & 3 days off after that. So maybe it's not so bad either? =P

Think I'll go slack around a bit, surf some webs, chat with some people, laze ard, get changed & down for buffet breakfast at the hotel's restaurant. Heh. Oh manz, yet to repaint my nails. Alright. Later. Hehe.

Ciao.

Happy Valentines' Day

It's our 1st Valentine & I couldn't spend it with him. *big big sigh*

He is just so sweet.

I love the sweet surprise.

I love everything about him.

I love my boyfriend. *wide grin*

So...

Did I mention I watched Project Superstars 2 Final Live last Sunday? Anyway, it was okay la. The result was kind of expected.

Melbourne was not too bad. I broke my promise. I shopped & bought stuffs. *guilty grin* But they were really iresistable cos they were on sales. Haha. Alright. Excuses. *blah* =P

After I came back, spent sometimes with him, did a Manila turn today, tmr off & Monday going for a 8-days flight. HKG-SFO. Gonna be back on 2nd day of CNY, morning. I gonna miss Valentine's, miss CNY's eve, CNY's 1st day. *hiaks*

Just now Dad came to pick me up from flight, then went home to change & go for dinner & get some CNY's goodies with my parents & youngest brother. Been long since I really spent sometimes with them. So it was a good thing. Hehe.

Lalalalala......

Hihi. I'll be leaving for Melbourne tonight & coming back on Thursday's afternoon. Been like going out since the day I came back fr Manchester. I felt that I had did a lot of things, went to a lot of places, & most importantly, spending time with the people that I love. =)

Now I really understand. When that someone you love is unhappy or sad, it really affects you as well. It hurts & somehow to a point that can make you cry. Don't worry. I'm okay now. It just comes to my mind. Heh.

Oh & I have been spending a lot lately. My bank balance is really bursting. Too many committments & stuffs. I think I really need to be more careful with money. It can't go on like this. Booo.....

Manchester

YEay! I just came back from Manchester this morning. It was a long flight, full passengers' load, physically-drained but all filled with happy & smiley passengers who kept on reassure us by telling us how much they enjoy the flight, the best flight they had ever had. the most wonderful team of flyers, how much they appreciate our excellent service & help to them. Somehow, it made it all worthed it afterall. =)

I definitely spent a lot of pounds with cash & card over there. Shopping was great & how I wished I could have another cargo bag for me. *guilty giggles*

Anyway, I managed to get the ticket to watch a Manchester-United vs Watford match at the Manchester-United Stadium. The stadium was really beautiful & spectacular. I love the atmosphere throughout & not I'm a really soccer's fan but I thought since I'm here, I would definitely love to take a look at the stadium & feel the stadium. I mean how many of you can get to come here right? *hehehe* Next time to Manchester, if by any chance, I would love to visit The Liverpool Stadium. Should be equally cool I guess. =P

By the way, Shiyu's gf, Alexis was doing the same flight with me. Such a coincidence right? Story.... Haha.

I feel that I have been away for very long even though it's just a few days. Maybe I just miss someone. *sweet smile*

~I need my laptop soon!!~