Before 2006 leaves & 2007 comes,

Hi hi! Before 2006 leaves & 2007 comes, let me just say something. I'm currently in Osaka now. Just had a fulfilling New Year's dinner with the crew & pilots at the hotel. It was really cold here but I kind of like it. Love the chilly wind, dressy japaneses, yummylicious food, eye-candies cosmetic, irresistable jappy food stuffs & pretty fake eyelashes. I had a good time shopping & eating here for the 2 days. Bought lots of food stuffs & girlie stuffs. Hahaha. Hopefully I'm rostered for Singapore-Narita Tokyo-Los Angeles soon cos I heard there are even more happening stuffs to see in the town of Tokyo. Can't wait! *hehehex*

Everyone is talking about New Year's resolutions everytime when a new year is approaching. Sometimes I feel that there's no need for New Year's resolutions. When you have decided on something, just do it. (just like the nike's slogan. hehe.)

In 2007,

I gonna go back to my exercise regime again. I have been slacking my body for too long.

I want to learn to love my job even more. Come to think of it, not everyone can get the chance to fly around the world when they are still young & somemore getting paid to fly. *perks of flying* =D

I want to study hard but smart.

If time permits, I hope to pick up language's classes.

Make it a point to tidy my room every week.

A new makeover for my room for a new year. *winks*

A new laptop.

A new hairstyle for a new year. (that's why i have decided to do something about hair next week. hah. )

Learn proper cooking. *lolx*

A less complicated love life. Hopefully it gets smooth-sailing in 2007 & ever. =P

A better me.

Oh well, I can't think anymore. Like what I have said earlier, whenever you have decided on something, just do it! So see how it goes & what happens next. *grin*

Happy 2007! May 2007 be a much better year for everyone! With love. *beams*

I heart Japan!

Less than 2 hours

I slept for like less than 2 hours & I'm leaving for flight soon.

To me, it seems worth it afterall. =)

See you. In Osaka! =P

Am I silly?

Yummy Buffet!

Watched Borat also. But I don't really like it. Anyway, my mind wasn't really there either. You know why.

I hate the feeling of sad.

I feel so silly, dumb, tired......

Osaka here I come tmr!

Turn again.

Morning! Just woke up. I wish I can sleep a bit long longer but I have a Bangkok turn later to do. Sian. Keep on doing turns. Turn until I siao. *sigh* Anyway, will be back tonight. Oh & tmr I'm going for the lunch buffet at Shangri-La The Line with Emily. *yey*

Oh & the internet is really giving me a problem. I have a hard time accessing my company's page. *grrr*

Alright. Tonight! =)

Post-Xmas

This year's xmas was a pretty quiet & simple one for me. Received sweet greetings, opened lovely pressies & spent quality time with people that I love & treasure.

By the way, I just did a canton turn yesterday & I only slept like 1.5hrs before the flight. After the flight, I went back home to bath & change, met the girls for dinner & updating session, then headed down to town for movie with him & gang. Caught deathnote 2. It was not bad I feel. Now then I realise actually my youngest brother has the comics. Haha. Anyway, came back home at 1am this morning & I slept at 2am till this morning 11am. I think I really need some more beauty sleep. It's really something that I have been lacking of a lot lately. Gonna call up some girlfriends to catch up later, then maybe take a small nap & probably going out alone to do some shopping. Sometimes I do love shopping alone. You have all your time to see the things you want, you are free to go anywhere, do whatever you feel like doing, & a good time for you to think about stuffs too. You know we everytime say we need to spend time with this person, that group of friends & other people, but how often do we actually spend time with our ownself?

Time really flies. 2006 will soon be a memory & 2007 will be a new beginning of our life journey. Much things happened this year for me. I had the most happening last semester in school with a group of people that I never thought I will hang out with (though we don't really keep much in touch now.), I joined the airline, started my training & began my colourful flying career, I met new people here & there, he came into my life before I even knew it, ups & downs with friends who used to be closed to my heart, much much lesser time with my family in which sometimes I was really guilty with.

I used to believe everything happened for a reason. But somethings just happened & I really couldn't understand why. Things just don't always go in our ways. Frankly, learning to accept things that happened wasn't a very easy task.

I really have no idea what does the future hold for me, for me & you, for me & him, & for me & everyone else. Somethings are just hard to let go. I believe time will tell everything.

It's time to start making new resolutions & new goals for the new year again. I will go think about it seriously. I think it's really important to know what you want rather than living each day as it is. By the way, my xmas's wish for the year, to feel happy everyday I wake up. Simple wish but I tell you, it's not easy, especially when human beings are so emotional.

Hmmm.....How long do you actually need to take to know & understand a person? I feel that I seem to have like gone through quite a bit lately. My heart seems like a rollar coaster sometimes. He claimed sometimes I think too much. Think more than I should. Maybe? Perhaps it's time to stop the ride & find solutions & ways to safe sail it.

With love.

Merry Xmas!

I love shopping in aussie & states. So this trip to melbourne was quite a fruitful one. *wide wide smile* I bought some xmas pressies for friends, 3 dresses, a pair of legging & a pair of slippers for myself. Had good food & pretty much rest. (though I still feel tired no matter how much I sleep. hehx.)

Oh...& my plane encountered like very bad turbulence. It was like the worst turbulence that I had came across ever since I started flying. It lasted for almost half an hour. With seat-belt fastened, I still could feel that I was going to be thrown up of my seat. Plastic cups being thrown on the floor from the passengers' tray-tables, children crying, people vomitted. That was how bad it was. Frankly speaking, I was telling myself, I couldn't be so "sway" right? I just prayed to whichever god above, prayed for the safety of everyone, prayed for the plane to land safely into s'pore on the xmas's eve night.

Thank god. My prayer was answered. =)

Thank-you so much for all the lovely cards & pressies. No matter how small or how big are they, I just love the thoughts from them. (crew & friends.) I think xmas is a very special season that you can spend time with your loved ones, tell them you still remember them & how much you actually love & care for them. I feel that it doesn't matter where you go, where you are, what pressies you give or receive, it's the gesture & the thought that counts everything.

Merry xmas everyone! *big big grin*

See what happens next

Had Kushinbo buffet for dinner on Wednesday. The food was okay but it was the company that matter. Hehe.

Then went Boat Quay, then it was movie at Cineleisure, The Curse of The Golden Flower. Not a super fantastic show but the making of the movie should have costed millions with the all the golds and crystals.

Hanged out awhile around at my place here. Things seem fine now. Am just looking forwards see what happens next. *beam*

Flying off to Melbourne on Friday's night. Will be back on Xmas's Eve night. I can't wait. *grin*

Back to Singapore

I was back yesterday's morning. Almost couldn't make it back to SG cos the aircraft encountered some technical problems before take off & we were delayed for almost 45 minutes. Good thing it flew back safely. Heh. =P

I joined the tour in Istanbul & it costed me US$106! Oh well. I think it was worth it. I got to see a lot of the significant buildings & places of Istanbul & had a nice turkish lunch meal. Oh & one of my crew's friend works in Istanbul & he was really nice to drove us around & he refused to let us pay for dinner & drinks. By the way, the nightlife in Istanbul was pretty happening. Hehe.

Spent the last night of my this flight pattern in Dubai & we had a really nice Dubai local food at this small restaurant. Yummy!

Will post some photos taken during my trip up soon. =)

Met up with Michelle & Yingxiu yesterday for dinner at Crystal Jade cos I was really craving for chinese food. Had my plate of fried rice with a handsome amount of chilli. *feeling real satisfied* *grin* Before going back, we each had a piece of sinfully delicious cheesecake at Coffee Bean. =D

I met up with Emily today. She is now permenantly back in Singapore. Haha. We went for lunch at Ding Tai Feng & I had pork chop fried rice. (like omg! fried rice again?! lol.) Then I went for my dental appointment, shopped around for xmas pressies & did some shopping for myself. By the way, she got me this really sweet-looking pyjamas from Victoria's Secret. Thanks babe! So far I think I have already received 2 xmas cards fr my colleagues, 1 card from a friend & a xmas pressie from her. Heh. Lastly we had dinner at Dome & it was home sweet home. It rains the whole day man. I wonder when is the rain going to stop. Looking forward to the japanese dinner buffet that I'm going to have tmr. Haha.

By the way, my new flight roster is really damn lousy. I wanna complain! Grrr. Boooo....

I CHOOSE to believe that things will work out. We will work out.

In Dubai

Hi hi! I'm in Dubai now. The place is ok. Just that the sun is a bit blazing in the daytime but it does get much cooler when the sky gets darker. The traffic isn't very pleasing to me too. I wanted to go to the Safari Desert Tour but due to time constraint, I guess I have to do it next time. Had the famous chicken briyani which was really good & did some small shopping at the City Centre Shopping Mall. Got myself a capri, christmas cards for my batchies & some drystores from the supermarket.

Gonna go back to my room soon. Am at the Business Centre now. Flying to Istanbul later. Gonna stay 2 days there before flying to Dubai again. By the way, Dubai is 4 hrs behind S'pore & Istanbul is 6 hrs behind S'pore. I heard it gonna be pretty cold at Istanbul. Oh well, let's hope it's fun there. Probably can do some sightseeing over there or something. Heh. Oh & my steward was telling me he wanna go party at the famous partying place at Dubai when we come back to Dubai from Istanbul. I may want to check it out too. Ok. We shall see. =P

Why am I always thinking about you?

All about.....

Was browsing through my recent past entries & I realised somehow or rather, I kept mentioning about you. You are my miracle right from the beginning. I don't deny that I do have my uncertainty & my doubt. & I'm really don't know what does the future hold for us. But I really hope this miracle is real, will last forever & beautifully. Now you know how much it meant to me. Hehe.

Till then.

Xmas is coming! *hohohoho*

Learning

I am going on a long flight to Dubai & Istanbul tmr's night. Will be back 7 days later, which is on the 18th early morning 7am. Bless me with good crew, happy passengers, safe & wonderful trip! *hipeee* =)

Someone was asking, how many people can actually find true friends? Friends are everywhere but you count with your fingers, who are the ones who really care & love you for who you are? I doubt I have a lot. How about you? But I wanna thanks those who are always there for me to listen to my bitching & ranting. I really appreciate it. I believe all human beings not only need care & love from their family & their significant others, but also the brotherhood & sisterhood kind of friendships from their true friends.

I don't often cook but I'm learning. All because of you.

I think it's really time for me to sort out my thoughts & my stuffs. Because sometimes I do really find it hard to breath..........

Promises.

Sometimes I do wonder what are promises for.

If you can't fulfil,

If you don't even try,

If you can't even be bothered,

If you don't care,

If you don't love,

THEN DON'T PROMISE ME.....

I am not angry at anybody or any matter. It's just a general statement of what I feel promises are.

I think I need to start finding new purposes/goals in my life.

I want to do something different

I want to achieve something in which I will never thought I will. (I'm still thinking what's that? haha.)

I want to spend more time with my family & friends. (I know I have been neglecting some of them.)

I want to learn something new.

I want to meet more nice & fun people.

I want to be a happier girl.

I want to be me.

I want to feel loved, all over again.

Just for fun.

I thought I am supposed to be sleeping by now. I have a turnaround flight to report at 8am later.

Anyway, I was tiding some of the stuffs in my room just now & I saw some prezzies (eg. necklaces) from the past & I really couldn't remember or recall who were the people who gave them to me. That's bad huh? Does it happen to you as well? Like you just couldn't relate the prezzie to the person who gave it to you.

But of cos, most of the times I do remember who give what to me, especially the special people, my special ones. Ha. *grin*

I haven been taking photos for my past few trips. Kind of miss the times when I was pretty crazy about photo-taking. Haha. =P

So...for now.....*heh*







Just for fun. Hehe.

Good Night....

Melted

I know I am weird. One moment I was like so unhappy with the things that was going on between us, another moment I just melted in your arms.

Standby called up

Came back from Perth on Monday's afternoon. Then Tuesday late night went to the chalet. Was on standby on Wednesday. I checked for the roster on Tuesday since morning but no new message was found. So I happily thought either I wouldn't be called up for flight or the flight cannot be so early one la. Who knows when I reached the chalet, I received a call from my dad that SIA called my house. So I faster called back to acknowledge the message & you know what? I was called up to report for a Bombay flight at 0525. I almost wanted to faint. I was at the chalet till 2plus almost 3 in the morning. Then he sent me back home, I faster packed my bag & got changed & to the airport. I didn't sleep a single wink till Wednesday's afternoon in my hotel room.

By the way, I was back like an hr or so ago.

Anyway, I clicked quite well with this leading steward during the flight. "fling". Lol. Alright. Tell you guys more next time. Haha. But I mean nothing. Really. My heart has been taken away. Since don't know when. But I really feel like giving up somehow. Cos I don't feel loved.

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了.....

*sigh*

*sigh* Off days always pass so fast. Flying to Perth later & will be back on Monday's afternoon.

I wish we have more time together.....

to YOU.

At some moments I really feel like putting a stop to everything.

It's tiring.

It just hurts.

It just breaks my heart.

It just makes me cry.

But I'm still clinging on to it, with some small little hopes that things may change.

I wonder if YOU ever understand.

I wonder if YOU ever care.

I'm upset.

Because YOU just meant so much.