Courage

Was night stopping in Sydney and then it just stroked my mind, how lonely one can get. There are times when it's really good to be alone, reading your favorite books, tuning in your hot pop songs from your iphone, watching american next top model on tv, no one is disturbing you. It sounds almost perfect like a plan. Then again, there are also moments you wish that someone else cares? The best would be those whom you bother much about take a second glance and notice at you. But how rarely huh?

Then who do people turn to when they are overseas? The so called "colleagues" and they drink, and drink, and smoke and smoke some more, and play games, and play even more games, laugh, talk cock and enjoy one another company for that very moment, not worrying about what's there for them in Singapore. But well, as long as one is happy, who are you to justify for their behaviours or actions right?

Random thoughts again. Like always. Haha... Many of times, we just choose to handle certain matters or even certain people differently from the rest. Does it spell discrimination? I beg to differ. Perhaps, maybe, what if, they are actually more special than the rest. And that's why we choose to treat them differently from the rest. People roar, people scream, people start pondering why the different treatment, but they do not think likewise maybe they are also doing the same things towards us.

我看着旧爱，才发现原来自己曾经那么疯狂的爱着。

到可笑。。。

到无可救药。。。

到自尊心到零点。。。

我还是硬要爱到不可以爱为止。

I used to wonder where did this courage come from? And it just got me enlightened when this whole episode was over, it was love. It was the love that gave me the courage to LOVE. It may not always be happy ending, like mine, it ended with heart breaks and more heart breaks, tears and more tears, not forgetting the very happy times too, but it was quite an imperatively chapter in my life. Courage, where do people get them from? Determination to get something? Or just simply love? If you don't have it, maybe...I say maybe the feeling just isn't strong enough to make you that determined to go towards that something which you wanted.

I think courage in life is so important and overwhelming that we often overlook it, ended up taking things in granted, and let the regrets be part of your life's history. Is it worth it? I seriously have no idea. Courage in your own goals in life, courage in fighting for your rights, courage to love, and the most importanace of all, your courage to have courage. :)

Daddy wants me to help to send an email. I better do so before I forget. Hehe... Good night!