There can be miracles when I believe?

I feel damn lousy today. The feeling is so sucky. I feel a little saddening, a little disappointed & a little depressed in myself & in the life that I am leading now. Everything doesn't seem to be right. I always tell people to look on the brighter side of life, think positively & things gonna be right one day. It is always easy to say it to comfort & coax others but when it comes to your ownself, it is really the hardest thing to do.

I hate life without goals, living aimlessly on this planet. Some things aren't my ultimate plans but just serve as my back-ups plans in case I can't achieve my goals. Will I be happy if I take up the alternatives? Or should I really need to think probably & find out what I want & work towards them even though they are impossible or they are far? I don't know. I really don't know.

My good friend told me once I already decided on something, I shouldn't think too much about other things. But what if the thing that I have decided now isn't what I really want afterall? Well, life is complicating & confusing. :/

I don't really believe in miracles but I still wish there is a miracle for me now. Do you believe in miracles?

Mariah Carey--When You Believe

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles (miracles)
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

It is a nice song but...can there be really miracles when I believe?