Merry Xmas!

I love shopping in aussie & states. So this trip to melbourne was quite a fruitful one. *wide wide smile* I bought some xmas pressies for friends, 3 dresses, a pair of legging & a pair of slippers for myself. Had good food & pretty much rest. (though I still feel tired no matter how much I sleep. hehx.)

Oh...& my plane encountered like very bad turbulence. It was like the worst turbulence that I had came across ever since I started flying. It lasted for almost half an hour. With seat-belt fastened, I still could feel that I was going to be thrown up of my seat. Plastic cups being thrown on the floor from the passengers' tray-tables, children crying, people vomitted. That was how bad it was. Frankly speaking, I was telling myself, I couldn't be so "sway" right? I just prayed to whichever god above, prayed for the safety of everyone, prayed for the plane to land safely into s'pore on the xmas's eve night.

Thank god. My prayer was answered. =)

Thank-you so much for all the lovely cards & pressies. No matter how small or how big are they, I just love the thoughts from them. (crew & friends.) I think xmas is a very special season that you can spend time with your loved ones, tell them you still remember them & how much you actually love & care for them. I feel that it doesn't matter where you go, where you are, what pressies you give or receive, it's the gesture & the thought that counts everything.

Merry xmas everyone! *big big grin*

See what happens next

Had Kushinbo buffet for dinner on Wednesday. The food was okay but it was the company that matter. Hehe.

Then went Boat Quay, then it was movie at Cineleisure, The Curse of The Golden Flower. Not a super fantastic show but the making of the movie should have costed millions with the all the golds and crystals.

Hanged out awhile around at my place here. Things seem fine now. Am just looking forwards see what happens next. *beam*

Flying off to Melbourne on Friday's night. Will be back on Xmas's Eve night. I can't wait. *grin*

Back to Singapore

I was back yesterday's morning. Almost couldn't make it back to SG cos the aircraft encountered some technical problems before take off & we were delayed for almost 45 minutes. Good thing it flew back safely. Heh. =P

I joined the tour in Istanbul & it costed me US$106! Oh well. I think it was worth it. I got to see a lot of the significant buildings & places of Istanbul & had a nice turkish lunch meal. Oh & one of my crew's friend works in Istanbul & he was really nice to drove us around & he refused to let us pay for dinner & drinks. By the way, the nightlife in Istanbul was pretty happening. Hehe.

Spent the last night of my this flight pattern in Dubai & we had a really nice Dubai local food at this small restaurant. Yummy!

Will post some photos taken during my trip up soon. =)

Met up with Michelle & Yingxiu yesterday for dinner at Crystal Jade cos I was really craving for chinese food. Had my plate of fried rice with a handsome amount of chilli. *feeling real satisfied* *grin* Before going back, we each had a piece of sinfully delicious cheesecake at Coffee Bean. =D

I met up with Emily today. She is now permenantly back in Singapore. Haha. We went for lunch at Ding Tai Feng & I had pork chop fried rice. (like omg! fried rice again?! lol.) Then I went for my dental appointment, shopped around for xmas pressies & did some shopping for myself. By the way, she got me this really sweet-looking pyjamas from Victoria's Secret. Thanks babe! So far I think I have already received 2 xmas cards fr my colleagues, 1 card from a friend & a xmas pressie from her. Heh. Lastly we had dinner at Dome & it was home sweet home. It rains the whole day man. I wonder when is the rain going to stop. Looking forward to the japanese dinner buffet that I'm going to have tmr. Haha.

By the way, my new flight roster is really damn lousy. I wanna complain! Grrr. Boooo....

I CHOOSE to believe that things will work out. We will work out.

In Dubai

Hi hi! I'm in Dubai now. The place is ok. Just that the sun is a bit blazing in the daytime but it does get much cooler when the sky gets darker. The traffic isn't very pleasing to me too. I wanted to go to the Safari Desert Tour but due to time constraint, I guess I have to do it next time. Had the famous chicken briyani which was really good & did some small shopping at the City Centre Shopping Mall. Got myself a capri, christmas cards for my batchies & some drystores from the supermarket.

Gonna go back to my room soon. Am at the Business Centre now. Flying to Istanbul later. Gonna stay 2 days there before flying to Dubai again. By the way, Dubai is 4 hrs behind S'pore & Istanbul is 6 hrs behind S'pore. I heard it gonna be pretty cold at Istanbul. Oh well, let's hope it's fun there. Probably can do some sightseeing over there or something. Heh. Oh & my steward was telling me he wanna go party at the famous partying place at Dubai when we come back to Dubai from Istanbul. I may want to check it out too. Ok. We shall see. =P

Why am I always thinking about you?

All about.....

Was browsing through my recent past entries & I realised somehow or rather, I kept mentioning about you. You are my miracle right from the beginning. I don't deny that I do have my uncertainty & my doubt. & I'm really don't know what does the future hold for us. But I really hope this miracle is real, will last forever & beautifully. Now you know how much it meant to me. Hehe.

Till then.

Xmas is coming! *hohohoho*

Learning

I am going on a long flight to Dubai & Istanbul tmr's night. Will be back 7 days later, which is on the 18th early morning 7am. Bless me with good crew, happy passengers, safe & wonderful trip! *hipeee* =)

Someone was asking, how many people can actually find true friends? Friends are everywhere but you count with your fingers, who are the ones who really care & love you for who you are? I doubt I have a lot. How about you? But I wanna thanks those who are always there for me to listen to my bitching & ranting. I really appreciate it. I believe all human beings not only need care & love from their family & their significant others, but also the brotherhood & sisterhood kind of friendships from their true friends.

I don't often cook but I'm learning. All because of you.

I think it's really time for me to sort out my thoughts & my stuffs. Because sometimes I do really find it hard to breath..........

Promises.

Sometimes I do wonder what are promises for.

If you can't fulfil,

If you don't even try,

If you can't even be bothered,

If you don't care,

If you don't love,

THEN DON'T PROMISE ME.....

I am not angry at anybody or any matter. It's just a general statement of what I feel promises are.

I think I need to start finding new purposes/goals in my life.

I want to do something different

I want to achieve something in which I will never thought I will. (I'm still thinking what's that? haha.)

I want to spend more time with my family & friends. (I know I have been neglecting some of them.)

I want to learn something new.

I want to meet more nice & fun people.

I want to be a happier girl.

I want to be me.

I want to feel loved, all over again.

Just for fun.

I thought I am supposed to be sleeping by now. I have a turnaround flight to report at 8am later.

Anyway, I was tiding some of the stuffs in my room just now & I saw some prezzies (eg. necklaces) from the past & I really couldn't remember or recall who were the people who gave them to me. That's bad huh? Does it happen to you as well? Like you just couldn't relate the prezzie to the person who gave it to you.

But of cos, most of the times I do remember who give what to me, especially the special people, my special ones. Ha. *grin*

I haven been taking photos for my past few trips. Kind of miss the times when I was pretty crazy about photo-taking. Haha. =P

So...for now.....*heh*







Just for fun. Hehe.

Good Night....

Melted

I know I am weird. One moment I was like so unhappy with the things that was going on between us, another moment I just melted in your arms.

Standby called up

Came back from Perth on Monday's afternoon. Then Tuesday late night went to the chalet. Was on standby on Wednesday. I checked for the roster on Tuesday since morning but no new message was found. So I happily thought either I wouldn't be called up for flight or the flight cannot be so early one la. Who knows when I reached the chalet, I received a call from my dad that SIA called my house. So I faster called back to acknowledge the message & you know what? I was called up to report for a Bombay flight at 0525. I almost wanted to faint. I was at the chalet till 2plus almost 3 in the morning. Then he sent me back home, I faster packed my bag & got changed & to the airport. I didn't sleep a single wink till Wednesday's afternoon in my hotel room.

By the way, I was back like an hr or so ago.

Anyway, I clicked quite well with this leading steward during the flight. "fling". Lol. Alright. Tell you guys more next time. Haha. But I mean nothing. Really. My heart has been taken away. Since don't know when. But I really feel like giving up somehow. Cos I don't feel loved.

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了.....

*sigh*

*sigh* Off days always pass so fast. Flying to Perth later & will be back on Monday's afternoon.

I wish we have more time together.....

to YOU.

At some moments I really feel like putting a stop to everything.

It's tiring.

It just hurts.

It just breaks my heart.

It just makes me cry.

But I'm still clinging on to it, with some small little hopes that things may change.

I wonder if YOU ever understand.

I wonder if YOU ever care.

I'm upset.

Because YOU just meant so much.

Jarkata again!!

Doing a Jarkata turn again later. Don't know why they keep giving me Jarkata flight. *faint*

Anyway, I'll be back home tonight & I'm looking forwards to my off day tmr & my 2 days leave on Thursday & Friday. Leaving for Perth on Saturday's night only. Hehe.

Ok. It's another boring entry. Tonight then. Ciao. =)

One night in Beijing

Beijing was much colder than I expected. Things are really cheap. Cab, japanese food, full body massage, 2 pair of jeans & room service breakfast were my indulgence in Beijing. *beams*

One sight that didn't really delight me was the beggars on the street, outside the shopping centre that I went to. There was this young boy, I think 3-4 years old kept running & following after us, just wanting some food & money. & he even refused to let us close the cab's door when we were in the cab. I was so tempted to give him some money but they advised me not. Cos if I gave him, the rest would come chasing after us for money too. So poor thing right? This kind of lifestyle shouldn't be part of this young boy's childhood memories. Look at how fortunate our kids are today in Singapore.

Be contented. Simplicity can be a blessing sometimes......

The unexpected.

Having a cold is no fun at all. especially during the rainy days. I keep sneezing non-stop. I wonder who is missing me so much. *ah-haha*

Anyway, I realise all those star-searching & superstar competitions on tv are really for show only. So what if you can sing, dance, act or have the looks? How to make a tv program entertaining or to attract more audiences to stay tuned to the program longer? To show the unexpected to create the entertainment effect. Oh manz. Faker. Now I see it, I feel it, I know.

Met up with sophy & jacq for dinner at orchard yesterday. Went around to look at the xmas deco too. Sophy claimed that the deco looks like hari raya. Haha. Then after which we went seperate ways. I went bishan to meet him then he picked me up & we drove down to the studio together. After which we went for a drink at amk mac with his 2 other good friends. Stayed there untiil 3am. He drove one of them back home, (the other one has a car himself) & then to my place. We spent sometimes together & by the time I reached home, it was like 4plus am. By the time I finished brushing up & getting ready for bed it was almost 5am. But I couldn't really sleep well. My blocked nose really irritated me.

I think I gonna see a doctor again.

After coming back from Zurich.....

Came back from Zurich yesterday's morning. I think my flu & sore throat worsen again. I was on the verge of recovering but staying in a cold country with a temperature of 2 degree or less, even with thick clothings, didn't do much justice to myself. I had a hard time sleeping last night. Blocked nose, phlegm all stucked in my throat, (yea, i know it's disgusting.), running nose & very bad sinus. Oh please, it has been weeks. I have had enough. I miss singing. I miss ktving. *pout*

Anyway, Zurich is okay. Not a very interesting country to me. Maybe cos I haven't try snowballing or skiing over there yet. The food & shopping aren't very friendly to pockets. A set of McDonald's meal is about $12 swiss franc which is about $15 sing. I can buy almost 3 sets in S'pore. But I did grab some great deals. I got a very pretty white winter jacket from Zara at $39.90 swiss franc & a vintage cap at H & M for $9.90 swiss franc. *happy* =) Bought some drystores back too. *yum yum*

Overall, it's a very peaceful, quiet & slow-paced country. But sometimes it's nice to be in a country that seems less stressful & more carefree than the countrywhere you live in. What do you think?

Flying to Beijing this coming Saturday's morning & will be back on Sunday's night. I guess it gonna be pretty cold there too. 4-6 degrees I think. *shivers* Good thing i'm not staying long. But strangely, actually I do prefer cold countries. *hah*





























Ciao for now. *beam*

"All I Want For Christmas"

"All I Want For Christmas"

Take back the holly and mistletoe
Silver bells on a string
If I wrote a letter to Santa Claus
I would ask for just one thing

I don't need sleigh rides in the snow
I don't want a Christmas that's blue
Take back the tinsel, stockings and bows
'Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

I don't need expensive things
They don't matter to me
What I want can't be found
Underneath the Christmas tree

You are the angel that tops my tree
You are my dream come true
Santa can't bring me what I need
'Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

I don't need expensive things
They don't matter to me
What I want can't be found
Underneath the Christmas tree

You are the angel that tops my tree
You are my dream come true
Santa can't bring me what I need
Cuz all I want for Christmas is you

All I want for Christmas is you
Yeah all I want for Christmas is you

It's Friday!

I don't like to nightstop in Jarkata. The hotel is kind of spooky & eerie. Good thing I only stayed for a night. Thank god. =P

By the way, it has been eons since I last ate maggie mee. & I was like damn hungry last night past midnight at around 1plusam. So I cooked myself a big bowl of yummylicious maggie mee with egg! I felt so satisfied after the maggie mee supper. Wahahaha. Like after so long. *tiheheh*

& my stupid cargo bag's lock was spoilt. I had to dragged the bag with me to take cab down to Shaw Centre just now to get it repaired. It costed me $22 okay!?!? Just to change that stupid lock. (initially it was $36. flyers get discount. but so? hmmm.) & my cab fares to & fro costed me $20 total. I spent like $42 for nothing. & while waiting for the bag to get repaired, I went to shop around & I contributed to Singapore Economy again by buying fake eyelashes & a white shirt. But they aren't very expensive. So still not so bad la. Heh. (trying to console myself. pay is coming in soon! =p)

I had like 2 new york cheesecakes within these 3 days. Not that I love new york cheesecakes so much. But they gotta be eaten if they weren't given to someone esle right? I hope the 3rd one in which I'm planning to get later won't end up in my stomach again. (sometimes you do so much things but people just don't know about them. worth or not worth, i guess it doesn't matter anymore. own accord.)

Leaving for Zurich tmr's night. Will be back on Wednesday's morning. Shall go pack my stuffs now since I'm free. Bye bye!

Listen to what your heart tells you.

When I say I need you, I mean I REALLY need YOU.

I'm still a girl afterall

I'm bored. I'm not in a very good mood. Nah. It's not PMS. Just feeling a tiny winy bit of lousy, a tiny winy bit of mixed feelings, a tiny winy bit of uncertainty & a tiny winy bit of everything.

Frankly speaking, actually I'm quite skeptical about the things that are happening & going on in my life. I'm tired of always being the one who is thinking about it. I'm tired of always being the one waiting & waiting. I'm tired of always being the one saying it doesn't matter when it actually means a lot to me.

Everyone is different. We have different priority/priorities in life. It's not easy for 2 persons to get together & live happily ever after forever. It requires a lot of understanding, trust, giving, taking & unconditonal love & care. Tough task huh?

Sometimes I feel that I'm giving more than I'm receiving. It's like I wish things will happen more than you do. Happy because of you, not happy also because of you. ArgHhhh.....

No matter how's strong I appear to be, I'm still a girl afterall.

I hope things will get settled & sorted out soon. Guess just take things one step at a time. Whatever will be, will be.

May things work out.

Cheers to my flight later.

To all that matter.

Watched "A Good Year" & had Sakae Sushi Buffet with Emily today. The movie was not too bad but there wasn't much excitement in the storyline. Maybe I have expected too much.

Doing a Jarkata Nightstop tmr. SIANness X 100. I rather it to be a turn manz. *pout*

Suddenly feel so tired of the things that is happening around me. Why am I always the one waiting?

Girls are really funny creatures huh. Sometimes I'm happy with the things that happened & sometimes I'll just brood or get sad over the same things that happened. Hmmmm.....

I wish I have an answer. To all that matter.

梁山伯与茱丽叶

I went for my flight today. I had a pretty hard time talking but I still tried my best. I contributed whatever I could to the flight. I am so proud of myself. Hahaha. *grin*

Let's hope I get better soon. I miss my sweet sweet voice. Opps. Heh. =P


Xmas's lighting. The picture does no justice to the Xmas tree. It looks really pretty in real. Hehe.

Oh & check out this new duet love song by Cao Ge & Zhuo Wen Xuan.曹格 & 卓文萱.

梁山伯与茱丽叶

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

oh...sweet sweet love. ha. good night~~~

It was so beautiful!

By the way, I went to see the decorations & lightings at Orchard yesterday. By the time I reach there it was already past midnight. It was so beautiful! *especially with you. teehehe*

I heart Xmas. =P

"Sexy Voice"

Hihi. I have a seriously bad sore throat now. I can't talk. It's feeling terrible cos I want to talk! *lolx* Brisbane is pretty nice & all. Did some small shopping & makan.

Oh & I just went to see my company doctor. They gonna send the bill to my company. Hehe. Hope my throat & voice get better by tmr if not I don't know how am I going to go for my Bangkok turn tmr.

Met a few friends at the airport yesterday. It always feels nice to see your friends especially those you haven't seen for long. & Emily came back to SG again. So she came my place together with me after my flight. We slacked awhile 1st before we went out for dinner together.

At night, I met him, despite the conditons that I am in now. "Sexy voice", tired, sick-looking face & blah blah blah.

Thank you for the sweets. I love the thought. =)

Paxing up to Brisbane

Paxing up to Brisbane tonight & will be back on Saturday's afternoon.

Till then. =)

I want to see you SMILE, baby.

Im not your Superwoman

Im not your Superwoman

Im not the kind of girl that you can let down

And think that everythings okay

Boy, I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional hugs

As a token of love from you to me.

Dreams

Someone asked me.

You rather like someone with dreams or someone without even a single dream.

I ponder.

It's better to have dreams to live on.

Isn't it?

Maybe you are right.

=)

Skeptical.

I'm being to feel skeptical about the whole thing.

You.

Me.

Everything.

I'm tired.

Sore Throat

I'm suffering from sore throat now. Throat damn pain sial. Must be all the good food indulgence overseas that caused it.

Anyway, I had New York New York yesterday for dinner. It's a cafe restaurant at Citylink. I think I love the place & food. Yummy! Heh.

Alright. I just wanna complain about my sore throat only. It's just feeling terrible. Going out later to run some errands. Heh. Ciao. =)

HKG. SFO.

Didn't take any photo in Hongkong but I went partying & drinking at the famous clubbing district there. Oh well, it wasn't as happening as what I have expected. But it was still not too bad. One of my crew colleagues got drunk & we had a pretty hard time to comfort her & get her back to the hotel. Wanted to go to the Halloween party at San Francisco but the peope there seem pretty rowdy so didn't go in the end.

But shopping in both countries was good. *big big grin*

Stayed out last night & only came home an hour ago. Didn't really sleep last night. Haha. Alright. I think I better go catch some sleep. Probably going out again in the evening for dinner.

Love you all. =)

I love off days.

I'm coming back home!

Just flew back to Hong Kong from San Francisco yesterday morning. & yey! I'm so happy cos I'm going back home tmr! YEAHHHH!!! I can't wait manz! Though the shopping is good, I realise no where is better than home. It's actually not really where we are but the people we are with. Anywhere will feel just as good if my loved ones are around with me. *beam*

I miss home! I miss everyone! *lalalalala* I'm coming back home! *hohoho* =)

In Hong Kong Now

Hihi. I'm in Hong Kong now. Flying to San Francisco tonight. So far so good but I miss home & everyone! Haha. Counting down..... =)

Leaving for 8 days.

I'm leaving for 8 days. You guys gonna miss me for sure right? Haha.

Arghhhh..... I wish 5th Nov faster come.

I love shopping sprees

I love shopping sprees. They make me feel happy despite the fact that they aren't friendly at all to my bank account balance. But I don't care anymore. I need such indulgence occasionally to make me a happy girl. & you (yes, you.) are also my pure dose of happiness. =)

Did a Hanoi turn this morning till this evening. Tiring man. But I still give myself a pat on my shoulders & tell myself, "I have done a great job huh. I have brought service & smile to everyone." *grin* Sometimes I just need some encouragement to motivate me to continue on. i think it's not only me, everyone needs that. We all need some motivation in life to help us to find the purpose to live & to love. Oh well. We are all human-beings. *heh*

Canton turn

Did a Canton (Guangzhou) turn today. I reported for flight at 0600 & only returned to Sg at 1700. Damn sian. I only slept like 1.5hour & I actually drank quite a bit of red wine before the flight. So I was like dragging myself to get up this morning just now. This month's roster is like quite KNS lor. So many turnarounds. Waste time & little money. Good thing I have a SIN-HKG-SFO flight this weekend. 8 days pattern flight man. It's long but at least I get to go Hongkong & San Francisco. Nicer places & nicer money too. Hehe. =P

Oh love. Oh guys.....

Absolute Me

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Flight delay

Flight got a slight delay tonight. So i only needa report at 11pm instead of 9.50pm. *tihehehe* I think sometimes I really have to drag myself to go for flights in which I know it's not very good. & I hate to leave Sg for too long. How to survive long in the job right? Ok. I promise I'll try to love my job a tiny winy bit more. Heh. I'll TRY.

I gonna miss you.

Seoul tonight

Flying to Seoul tonight & will be back on Monday's afternoon. I can't wait to come back! What sial. Haven go already say wanna come back. Heh. *grin*

Hanged out with the girls again last night but things didn't turn out as well. Then I met him after that. *beams* =)

An unforgettable night.

Ikea & Movie

Standby called up to do a Jarkata turnaround flight later. SIAN!!! & the haze is like super bad there. Wish upon a safe flight. =)

Went Ikea yesterday. After like so long. Hehe. Had the swedish meatballs. They are like the must-eat kind of food if you go ikea. Nice! Heh. Had a great time walking & shopping around with the right company. =P

Then we went Burger King for a drink & to waste a bit of time before he sent me to marina square & he went for his lesson. Then we met again after his lesson. For dinner at Cafe Cartel & movie at Cineleisure. "The Departed" is like the English version of "Wu Jian Dao". Not too bad la. 2.5hours. Heh.

After that he was supposed to send me back home but we decided to proceed to somewhere near my place again to stay a bit longer. So yea. That's about it.

Hope things go well. =)

Accidentally in love.

I'm blinded now.

Doing a Saigon turnaround flight later in the afternoon. Will be back to Singapore by probably 8 tonight. Boring. Little money & waste time! *boo*

Good thing it's my off day again tmr! *tihehehe*

Met up with evie & lynn yesterday for dinner & coffee. It always feels good to know that there are good friends like them who are always around & there for you. Thanks girls! Thanks for sharing my happinesses, my worries & my everything! Greatly appreciated. =)

Supposed to meet my batch people too but I too lazy & no mood to meet them. So I didn't turn up. I went out again like 2plus late night & only came back like 5plus this morning. Such a timing again. You know why. =P But this time round we stayed near my place. Didn't travel too far & all. =)

Oh... & don't know why I developed bruises so easily nowadays & some I don't even know how did I get them. Hmmm... Bad.

What are we?

I'm blinded now. =]

Boring life

My life is so boring now.

I don't exercise like before. Not anymore.

I snack a lot. Yes. I am FAT.

I only keep in touche & hang out with certain people only.

I feel that my circle of people is getting smaller & smaller.

The only thing that I do often now is to FLY.

What's so fun about flying?

*bleah* boring sunday.....

You

Now we know how we feel about each other.

Things may seem slightly clearer but maybe still not so?

I ask myself, how clear I want it to be?

Yes. I'm a piscean. I'm born a dreamer.

I dream about the most perfect, most beautiful & most romantic things that I wish they happen.

I'm wondering if you are really the one & I know you are wondering too if I'm really your girl.

But now at least we know our feelings are mutual.

Why did I behave in such a way & do all these things that I have never done before?

All just because you are you.

I wonder what does the future hold for us.

不知道为什么心里还是会难过 。。。。。

London

London tonight. See ya guys back in Singapore on Saturday's afternoon. & yes. I was out yesterday till this morning 4plus then I came back home. It has been like a habit or rather something we have to do before & after my each flight. But why? I know my reason but I don't know his. I really don't know what's holding him back & I think our relationship is like stucked between the black & white area. (i call it the grey area) I have people who asked me to get things cleared, people who asked me to wait & see how things go, & also people who asked me to give up. So if YOU still don't get it, what YOU want me to do?

God, can I don't choose & just make me the happiest girl on earth?

Leaving for Melbourne

I am leaving for Melbourne later. It seems like my off days always passed very fast & I have to fly again. It gonna be very cold there. Hopefully I can get to do some nice shopping & take some beautiful pictures back. Back on Sunday night only by the way. If only I can come back in the morning or even the least afternoon. *sigh* I wish. Heh.

Yesterday I attended a buffet lunch date with some of my batchies at Merchant Court. Then after that we drove to Orchard for coffee at Borders Cafe. I only like sat down for 10 minutes at the cafe & I had to leave because he was there already. So finally he got his shirt & tie after checking out some places. They look nice on him though. *beam* Then I just proceeded on with my plan & gave him the stuffs & all. Guess things went on fine & yeah... Shall see the progression & just hope he gets what he wants eventually. Anyway, I'm always there. Haha. =P





i just love doing things for you. because you are you.

Lazy to blog

Back yesterday's evening. Then midnight went out for supper till morning 3plus. Didn't really have much rest today either. I went for a haircut, trimmed my brows & catch up with some friends. Tmr gng some buffet lunch with some of my batchies. Eat & eat & eat again. Someone already complained that I'm "fat". *laughs* =p

After buffet probably meeting up again. Don't know. Heh. Till tmr then. I'm like so lazy to blog & update now. ;P

Wait till the mood comes. *beams*

Maybe

Hmmm..... Or maybe I should just leave things as they are? Maybe that's what friends do? I wish I have an answer but yet I don't wanna destroy the memories that were created earlier on.

I really can't decide what to do.

Why is my mind still all about you? Can someone just slap me hard & wake me up from my dream?

Wish me good flight later. Till Tuesday's evening. I miss you.

Everything was really sweet & all.....

Everything was really sweet & all. & I always do wish time would pass slower at every moment spent with him. But after some serious consideration & advices from friends, I realise I really need to get things cleared. Feelings & matters are getting more confused & complicated. I think I gonna be fair to myself & to him as well.

Narita Tokyo later.....

I LOVE SG!

I'm back from Karachi (Pakistan) & I really don't like the place. So boring & so not fun & all. I didn't go out at all. Ordered room service, went for the hotel lunch buffet & used the internet for awhile. The scariest part is that the lights in the hotel kept getting blackout. Totally can't make it man. I really appreciate what I have over here in Singapore. Oh man. I LOVE Singapore! Haha. *beams*












One of my crew asked me this question yesterday.

"What would be your greatest regret if you know that your this plane is never going to land?"

It really makes me ponder.

I said my greatest regret would be not being able to let all my loved ones know how much I actually love & care for them.

What if there is really no tomorrow?

When two friends met again

When two friends met again..... =)

We seperated from our meeting at around 9plus at night & I was SUPPOSED to go home straightaway but I didn't. I waited awhile for him to pick me up & we caught the movie, "John Tucker Must Die" at 10plus. It wasn't a super fantastic movie but it was okay la. Then we had some salad & drink at The Coffee Club & we went Cosy Bay after that. Considering we both have to work the next day but still.....Haha. =p

But I still feel the sense of uncertainty. In him. In me. In us.

Reached home at around 4am. Bathed & packed my stuffs & by the time I closed my eyes it was like 4.45am. & now I'm up. Gotta go get ready in awhile time for flight later.

I always hate the leaving part with you. OMG. Why did I do that? ;P

Opps. You did it again.....

I slept like 5plus in the morning today which was like a few hours ago. You know why. Haha. I'm glad that some friends are supportive & all but sometimes I really do feel that things aren't always on my side & they are not necessary progressing or moving in the way I want. I'm like involved in the scenario & hence I know better than anyone of you out there of what's happening & all & how it feels. It's not easy afterall. Frankly.

Painting my red nails now for tomorrow. Haha. & I gotta reach town by 12. My last off day before my next flight which is tomorrow. *boring* But I'm trying to tell myself to stay positive. If not how to survive the job for long right?=>

Opps. You did it again.....

Lazy Saturday

After coming back from flight yesterday's morning, I didn't really have a rest. Went out in the afternoon till late night then I reached home. Managed to meet a few people at different timing of the day & night. I was pretty tired actually but everthing was worth it. I simply miss my people. =)

I didn't step out of my house the whole day today. Slept till afternoon & I was like still so tired. After I had my late lunch, read some papers, online & I fell asleep again. Then I woke up, had my dinner, watch tv, read my cleo & onlining now. Shall go for my shower soon though I feel lazy doing that too. Ha. =P


My thought. *beam* But the picture was only taken after the warm chocolate cake melted & eaten a bite! Hahahaa....*bleah*


I love my new accessory. ;P

Meeting a good friend who just came back from overseas tmr. Hopefully things between us are still normal like before. I don't know. Shall see then. Heh.

~before i knew you, i travelled around the world. i slept in castles & fell in love because i was taught to dream~